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Monday Everyone hates Mondays Going back to work I get it though it does represent a new week Anything can happen I m going to make the most of it

Seems like everyone is using pronouns with their name to show off how socially aware that they are Especially as those individuals if you can call them that they just adhere to the public consciousness that are popularity driven forcing other molds onto your existence but thank god we can identify their gender I retort to the pompous echo chamber I ve moved beyond traditional gendered pronouns Call me a she Call me a he Call me a they Or even better just consolidate my suggestion goes something like ihe hem hems Who s socially woke now Though as english is not a gendered language i don t understand the usage of them And after studying other languages and the gender declension of nouns it is seeming nonsensical and not based on traditional gender conventions So really the discussion of non conforming gender pronouns shouldn t be that offensive merely an address But maybe that s too progressive for our simple society Slept 9 hours

Tuesday

It must be great to be a full time creative have some sort of platform to let your voice be heard to choosing your hours and have a final output Especially in the age of social media now that the production of entertainment can be completely capitalized upon I can say nobody is looking twice at these reports I produce Same thing week to week with numbers bouncing up or down Though the sad reality is we can t all be chose to be creators and some of us must sell out somewhat if not entirely to corporate And for what use It s building someone else s company with the best energy of my day The majority continues to grinding away at a profession that nothing can be derived just to keep the food coming in and out Animalistic isn t it is there any way i can beat this system is there any escape I had always thought that i would be able to do a little bit of everything when i was younger but the reality of it all is after I eat and relax for about 2 seconds in the evening it s time to sleep and do it over again Not to mention as we get older and more specialized the harder it is to gamble away that spent time and certain paycheck to explore

Went for a run tonight relived some nerves City is certainly pretty Sleep 7 hrs

Wednesday Why is Emma getting on my A about these reports They re due Friday and we haven t gotten direction on the breakouts I swear she just does this when she is bored and feels cruel Why is a reply all email necessary wouldn t a simple ping do the same job

Went out for mid afternoon coffee after aligning on direction and presenting them the template that would be completed Coffee was nice Social media especially instagram has become a vice for me Though I have always thought you can do some reverse psychology or even some regular psychology if you take a look at what someone likes Even though it isn t content that a person creates but they are posts that there is some type of attachment towards The following entry are some of my recent likes what do you think

Slept 7 hrs

Thursday Keith took all credit for the template when we presented to clients how frustrating Hopefully upper management sees i did the work and that won t hurt my chances for promotion I hope i get it Do i even want to work here anymore anyways These coworkers are so SHITE And the work is bland is it worth it Maybe if I have a little more income I can explore some more and find something worthwhile

Called Bigs during lunch today Talked about celebrity culture It kind of crazy how for a job you can have an entire following of people as a side effect Social media has given power to random members of society just because they can produce some form of entertainment And it s really just that Entertainment driving popular knowledge today Meanwhile we have models encouraging computer programming and computer programmers endorsing philanthropy What cross pollination Is that what the world is Building a platform then you re set Once into the realm of public consciousness it s an oligarchy Tell the masses to buy your 60 t shirt that is made in Indonesia for pennies Oh and not mention the social capital Post more content doesn t even need to be good if it s half entertaining you can get that sweet sweet ad revenue F ck it get someone else to do the work for you even Should be even easier It is a shame that you need to build a platform for your voice to be heard meanwhile some of the greatest are reduced to being an everyday character I wonder if Jurgen Teller or Evelyn Hofer would need to use 35mm hashtags Is it possible to create anything worth while without the baggage of fame

Why do people think it s okay to come with new requests at 4 00 I have a life too i already give 8 hours to these people and they want more

Sleep 6 hrs

Friday Friday Almost the weekend I m definitely using this time to apply to jobs and maybe create something Wonder if by some nature of god it would blow up and i would get beamed up into world consciousness Just need the right inspiration maybe i could create something about my hometown That would probably considered cool by the popular culture iconic Americana imagery that has worn over time Shouldn t be that hard to put together But why I don t feel a strong connection to that place it would just be a guise to gain popularity Is that what it s all about To gain popularity I suppose to promote any message you have to have some access to the public I would like to think I am coming to the public as means not the ends Maybe that is just diplomatic answer maybe I am just after the vanity maybe i should just apply for reality TV

Sleep 8 hrs

Saturday Finally Saturday a day I can fully dedicate to myself and relax

Hate this idea of stereotyping in mass psychology Such as girls looking for boys that are nice to their Moms as that is a preindicator of someone that will treat them nice How about us with abusive moms Boys look at girls with daddy issues and well Those are a tough one to talk about on the first date Maybe it s for the best end the cycle and that

Oh It s the girl birthday

Been listening to the homeless people on the street instead of just ignoring them today One man keeps on muttering You re living life like a beetle uhhhhhh with a life expectancy of a tadpole uhhhh Two weeks uhhh HAH That s pretty good Maybe some rapper can steal that line I think it has some flow to it I m curious to whether that was overheard somewhere or is that genuine inspiration F ck i didn t know tadpoles have a 2 week long growth phase Other time I was nearly brought to tears when I heard a woman that sounded very similar to my mom mumbling about picking up the bottles and garbage on the street clearly homeless 7 hrs Sleep

Sunday Coming to the realization that I got ghosted for the happy birthday text I ve come to a surprising new low Why I don t know Why Well doesn t feel good to get ignored Why I set a notification on my phone for them and deliberately went out of my way to text them Just wanting to wish them the best that other people do think of you That we are better than strangers Why OK so i am denied the title of even a stranger I would think that you would say thank you to a stranger who found out HOW HAVE I WRONGED YOU Is it too much to comment back OR EVEN LIKE MY MESSAGE WAS THERE REALLY MAL INTENT in my text i just wanted to be a little positivity in this abyss yet i feel so inversely Just a little more hope lost That i don t fit into society That nobody likes me That I am nuisance to all

Ugh maybe this is my fate to work this 9 5 I don t want to go back to work i really am not that special I don t want to work Creating things and thought should be left up to others it s not like the desk job doesn t pay Ah whatever I should relax and enjoy the weather it s Sunday I don t want to go back to work Slept 6 hours