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KEYS TO HOPE AND HEALINGSUPPORTAFTER ABORTIONA joint resource from The Word Among Us Partners & Support After Abortion

© 2020 The Word Among Us PressThe Word Among Us Partners7115 Guilford Drive, Suite 100Frederick, Maryland 21704Author: Angela M. Burrinwww.waupartners.org No part of this publication may be produced, stored in a retrieval system, or transmitted in any form or by any means—electronic, mechanical, photocopy, recording, or any other, except for brief quotations in printed reviews—without the prior permission of the author and publisher.Made and printed in the United States of America

ContentsIntroduction to This Booklet ������������������������������5Key 1Acknowledge Where You Are Now ����������������������8Key 2You Are Not Alone �������������������������������������������15Key 3Freedom from Anger through Forgiveness ��������22Key 4Moving through Grief ��������������������������������������31Key 5Walking in Confidence and Hope ����������������������39Key 6Giving Hope to Others �������������������������������������47Support ����������������������������������������������������������55Journaling Pages ��������������������������������������������59

5Introduction to This BookletI am very grateful to share this Support After Abortion book-let with you. I am so sorry if you are hurting right now. How you feel is very real, and I know many women who have suf-fered like you. But there is hope: many have healed or are on the path to healing. And you can be too.After your abortion, you may have experienced a range of emotions, from initial relief and condence in your decision to regret, grief, guilt, or shame. You may even now be having ash-backs or bad dreams or experiencing a mix of emotions that surface from time to time. Perhaps you have thoughts such as:“I did what I thought was right at the time, but ... ”“I wasn’t given an alternative option, but ... ”“I want to move forward with my life, but ... ”“I want to stop thinking about what happened, but ... ”If you’ve had any thoughts like these, please be open to what this booklet can offer you: keys for healing and hope. These keys will open up doors for anyone who has had an abortion or may have participated in an abortion. Will they take cour-age and willingness? Yes. Will they take time and openness? Yes. Will they possibly change your life? Yes!I became involved in writing this booklet because I am passionate about helping women who have experienced an

Support After Abortion6abortion nd healing. I’ve known or heard from women who have suffered for decades because of an abortion—one woman until the last weeks of her life. I’m happy to share that oth-ers learned there was support available and began the healing process much sooner. There is a need for healing material for women like you, and, in my heart, I want the good news of healing to be globally known. As not everyone is looking for the support offered through personal or group counseling—and perhaps that’s you—this booklet will hopefully meet you where you are at. If your abortion is recent—perhaps within the last 24-48 hours—now may not be the time for you to work through this booklet. Instead, I’d like to ask you: Are you sleeping? Are you eating? And do you have someone to talk to? If you feel the need for immediate support and someone to talk to, please reach out to Support After Abortion, a wonderful organiza-tion that offers real-time assistance. Their contact information is on the back of this booklet.A lot of information at once is not always helpful. There-fore, each key is broken down into two parts and followed by action steps to help you personalize and journal what you’ve read. I think you will nd the stories of women who have had an abortion and who are now on their own path to healing very encouraging.Don’t feel the need to rush through each key in one sitting. Take a break if you need to: go for a walk, watch a movie, exercise, distract yourself somehow. Stay with a key until you feel you are ready to move on. One key builds on the next, so it’s best to read them in order. Revisit any of the six keys

Introduction to This Booklet7as often as you need. You are a unique and special person on your own individual journey. A suggestion I’d like to offer is that you journal your thoughts through this journey. Treat yourself to a paper journal or use your phone, laptop, or tablet. There are also blank pages in this booklet you can use to journal your thoughts.So, are you ready to turn to the rst key and open the door to begin your journey to hope and healing? My thoughts are with all who will seek after abortion sup-port through the keys offered in these pages.Angela M. Burrin The Word Among Us Partners

8Key 1Acknowledge Where You Are NowYou Are! You are worthy of having a life that is happy and ful-filling. Spend thirty seconds recalling some fulfilling times in your life. If you are anything like me, I often skip the introduction at the front of books. Sometimes I make an exception, and I hope you will with this booklet. It is benecial for navigating the book-let as well as understanding why each reection is called a key. It isn’t a long read—it should take you less than two minutes! STEP 1Most of us are asked at least once a day, “How are you?” We might smile and respond, “I’m ne,” even if it’s far from the truth. It’s a safe answer that usually doesn’t require us to share too much information, and we quickly move on.Key 1: Acknowledge Where You Are Now is inviting you to stop and check in with yourself by asking, “How am I really doing following my abortion?” Identifying and acknowledging

Acknowledge Where You Are Now9your emotions is a crucial key to working through your abor-tion experience. Many overlook this critical step. Right now, you might be ready to look at how you’re feeling. On the other hand, maybe you’re hesitant to start because you know it will be a painful exercise. Or perhaps you just don’t see the value in acknowledging your emotions. If you identify with the last two groups, please don’t talk yourself out of it. It is a choice that you won’t regret. This exercise is no small feat, and if you’ve picked up this booklet, I know you have great strength in you. Go at your own pace, pick up where you left off or restart a key. Every-one’s needs are different. Try to remember that you are brave and worthy of healing. Keep your hope alive.After an abortion, women may try to hide or repress their emotions. These emotions are different for everyone—they could include guilt, shame, despair, or a combination of all of these. Everyone is unique. It may seem like hiding or repressing emotions will help you heal. They may feel too overwhelming, and it may seem like addressing them will be uncomfortable. However, these emotions need to be acknowledged. An abor-tion does change you, and very few women are not affected in some way by their abortion.While emotions may lessen over time, they won’t just go away. They will always be just under the surface. Refusing to face emotions surrounding a loss such as an abortion can lead to unhealthy behaviors, as you will read in Lucille’s story (on page 17).I want to remind you that every woman experiences a range of emotions that may come and go. They may get weaker or

Support After Abortion10stronger when you are having thoughts or memories about your abortion experience.There are a host of triggers to our emotions. If you nd yourself becoming overwhelmed, it will help to reach out to Support After Abortion listed on the back of this booklet. Now it’s time to take a pen or pencil to begin the rst action part of this key.Actions• Circle the emotions in the box above that apply to you.• Add others not listed that come to mind.• Highlight or put an *asterisk next to your three strongest emotions.The emotions you’ve just acknowledged are real and valid. It’s where you are right now. Please give yourself permis-sion to cry, especially if you haven’t done so before. Crying is very healing.Common Feelings Following Abortion• Anger• Anxiety• Depression• Loneliness• Despair• Relief• Numbness• Guilt• Mood Swings• Fear• Optimism• Shame• Exhaustion• Regret

Acknowledge Where You Are Now11If you’re thinking, “I don’t know what I’m feeling,” that is also a very real and common experience. You’ve started the heal-ing process! Other women have become numb and don’t know what they are feeling. Be kind to yourself and read over the “Common Feelings Following Abortion” box again. Emotions come and go, and you may identify with some of these in time. Now it’s time to read Jessica’s Hope Story.Jessica’s Hope StoryMike and I had been dating for about two years when I got a positive on a home pregnancy test. We really loved each other, so I was condent that together we could talk through our options—keep the baby or place it up for adoption. What I hadn’t anticipated was Mike’s reaction of shock, fear, panic, and his refusal to talk about my being pregnant with his child. The very next day, Mike made an appointment for me at an abortion clinic. When he told me about this, I was hurt that the man who said he loved me would do such a thing without talking to me rst. I felt desperately alone as I didn’t have any-one to talk to. That night I couldn’t sleep. The thought of having an abortion kept going through my mind over and over again. It was a situation I never thought I’d nd myself in.By morning, I had bought into the claim that my baby was just tissue. But another part of me questioned whether this was true. While driving to the clinic, Mike tried to console me with, “You’re doing the right thing.” I cried throughout the procedure. I left that place feeling empty and broken and was in shock and in mourning. But I plastered on a fake smile and told everyone I was “ne.”

Support After Abortion12Mike and I did get married, but we never talked about my abortion. I suffered in silence, but inside, I screamed anguish, anger, and deep regret almost every day, until one day, after sharing my story with a close friend, I said to Mike, “We have to talk about the abortion.”I was grateful that Mike was open to talking and seeking professional help. We went to our rst counseling session, which was such a huge decision for both of us. It was the rst step toward seeking healing. Years later, I decided to tell my story to a few women at a support group. When I cried, they cried with me and reached out with hugs. I left feeling loved and encouraged—another step toward healing. What Do You Think?• What did you take away from Jessica’s story?• Can you relate to any of the emotions she felt?STEP 2Have you ever had a thought and then moments later you couldn’t remember what it was or recall what you were think-ing at all? This happens to me all the time. That’s why I’d like to suggest that you keep a journal of your journey through the six keys in this booklet because I can assure you that you’re going to have a lot of thoughts, and some of them will be pow-erful. You will not want to forget them! No one will see what you journal unless you choose to share it. You can be one hundred percent real and honest in what you

Acknowledge Where You Are Now13write. This includes any negative thoughts towards yourself: I can’t move forward; I won’t heal; or I can’t forgive myself. There is no right or wrong way to keep a journal. It’s all about what you want to express. Write or type as much or as little as you want. It’s a good idea to date each entry. Poetry, a sketch, or a picture are all great additions and entirely up to you. The very act of describing your emotions may help you become aware of your abortion’s impact on your life. Together with reection and meditation, it is a profound and impactful tool. As you journal, some emotions may come to mind that perhaps were hidden in your subconscious. Writing can also be incredibly helpful if you’re feeling numb or nding it hard to acknowledge your emotions. Women are often so adept at multitasking, but this is your time for healing. So please nd some ways to relax and be mindful of your needs. When you journal, try to put away your phone and nd some personal space. Sit out-side in the fresh air, if that is comfortable for you, play some music, or do some deep breath-ing exercises—whatever helps you relax. The benets of keeping a journal while going through these keys are limitless. A journal is an excellent record of the trans-formation that is going to take place in your life in the coming days and weeks. It helps you keep track of where you are now and is so encouraging to read in the future!The very act of describing your emotions may help you become aware of your abortion’s impact on your life� Together with reflection and meditation, it is a profound and impactful tool�

Support After Abortion14Actions• Journal why you are working through this booklet.• Journal what you have found helpful about Key 1: Acknowl-edge Where You Are Now.• Take two to three minutes to recall and be grateful for some of the things in your life. Points to Review• I need to be aware of what I’m thinking and feeling.• Self-honesty is an important key that will lead me to expe-rience hope and healing. Final Thought and MeditationIn this key, you may have discovered some challenging or pain-ful emotions—well done in persevering. Until you have time to begin the second key, keep your eyes on your goal of heal-ing and why you are going through this process. Recall some of the things you’ve discovered about yourself. You are stron-ger than you know. “I’m growing in self-awareness, and each feeling I have is valid.”What to Expect in the Next KeyYou’ve identied some of your emotions, and this is a huge step toward healing. Key 2: You Are Not Alone will help you begin working through the feelings you’ve identied. Please try to remain hopeful about why you are working through this booklet.

15Key 2You Are Not AloneYou Are! You are likable and loveable. Spend thirty seconds thinking of three people you enjoy spending time with.Key 1: Acknowledge Where You Are Now opened the door to acknowledging your emotions and encouraged you to begin journaling. I hope you didn’t skip that key. Why? Because after going through that door, you’re ready to pick up the next key: You Are Not Alone.Let me ask: Did you circle the emotion loneliness on the “Common Feelings Following Abortion” box?STEP 1There’s a quote by an anonymous writer, “Even in a crowd, you are alone inside your own head.” Sometimes loneliness has nothing to do with a person’s present circumstances but everything to do with how they perceive them. It has nothing to do with how many people they have surrounding them or how many likes or followers they have on social media. There are some great synonyms for the word alone: being unaccompanied or disconnected. Maybe that denes how

Support After Abortion16you’ve felt since your abortion. However, the truth is that you are not alone in your abortion experience, and you are not alone in feeling lonely. From an aerial perspective, countless women—maybe that incudes you—were shocked by the dev-astating effects of their abortion on their emotions. They, and per-haps you, were unprepared for what they felt. Without hesitating, some women choose to process their emotions by sharing their abortion story with a trusted friend or an after-abortion counselor. Others nd it incredibly dif-cult to share their experience for whatever reason—perhaps fear of people’s judgments or rejections—and choose to keep their abortion a secret. For any woman in this last group, it takes courage to share about their abortion. The thought of opening up and being vulnerable can cause them to feel overwhelmingly anxious or scared. It may take several attempts to make a phone call or keep an appointment. If that’s you, sharing what you have experienced since your abortion in a safe environment can be essential to understand-ing that You Are Not Alone. Many women have found it to be freeing. It can be an enormous relief. Your abortion will no lon-ger be an elephant in the room. You will nd yourself smiling and less frozen in your pain. You may be able to move for-ward more easily. And ... you are worth it. Your story matters. Sharing what you have experienced since your abortion in a safe environment can be essential to understanding that you are not alone�

You Are Not Alone17Actions• Journal about a time where you felt alone. What steps did you take at the time to help ease your loneliness?• Recall a time when you said to a family member or friend, “I’m here for you. You’re not alone.” What was their response? How did that make you feel?Now it’s time to read Lucille’s Hope Story.Lucille’s Hope StoryAs a stylist, I spend all of the day on my feet, so I brushed it off when I started feeling tired. When I began to feel nauseous, I got nervous. I was twenty when I got pregnant from a short-term relationship. As the father was no longer in my life, I had ashbacks to my childhood without my dad, who didn’t seem to want to be there for me.My current boyfriend, Pete, told me I couldn’t raise a child on my own. I felt stuck, especially as I had no intention of tell-ing my mom or sister. The loneliness was crippling. Having an abortion seemed like my only option to keep my secret.But then I began to second-guess myself, so by the day of the abortion—June 22—I was really unsure about going. I strug-gled to get in Pete’s car and wanted him to turn around as we drove up to the clinic. He reminded me of what I wouldn’t be able to do. As the procedure began, I immediately felt a lot of regrets. Within weeks of my abortion, I had emotions that shocked me: uncontrollable anger, crying suddenly, and overwhelming

Support After Abortion18episodes of low self-esteem. When I saw some of my best friends with their babies, I’d feel like a loser because I opted out of raising mine.I turned to pills after I was given some for a back injury. I found that they numbed my emotional pain but didn’t take it away. It only grew. I knew I needed somewhere safe to help me heal from negative emotions that turned to negative behaviors.I stumbled across a pamphlet for healing after abortion in my doctor’s ofce. A phone call later, and I found a local group in my area. The support offered by after abortion classes played a massive part in identifying and processing emotions and behav-iors that were holding me back. After a few months, I felt like all the negative feelings and actions were removed and lifted. I had a more positive outlook on my life and began to look for new, challenging, and exciting opportunities. I’ve done some fun traveling and plan to open my own salon.I didn’t think it could be true, but healing was possible for me. I’m most grateful that I have serenity in my life today. What Do You Think?• What did you take away from Lucille’s story?• Can you relate to any of her personal struggles?STEP 2I’m sure many of us have watched a YouTube video or seen a Facebook post or news story of someone doing an act of kind-ness for another. As the story evolved, you may have learned they were prompted to serve by remembering when they had

You Are Not Alone19received support in their own personal time of need. Having empathy, or walking in another’s shoes, is why many wonderful women—who themselves have had one or more abortions—are now counselors. Their hearts go out to suffering women because they have been there. There are many of these women waiting for you when you’re ready to speak with them. For information on these resources, see the back of this booklet.If you haven’t shared your struggles—or have not told your complete story—consider identifying why. Remember, the goal is to know in your heart and mind that “I am not alone.” If you are a visual person, you might nd it helpful to make two col-umns on paper. At the top of the rst column, write “Positive Reasons for Sharing My Story,” and on the other, “Negative Reasons for Sharing My Story.” Then brainstorm and ll in the columns. The answer will become clear. Sharing a story for the rst time often becomes very emo-tional. It’s good that tears ow. The release of tension held for months or years is so very healthy. Please don’t let the thought of crying through your story stop you. Don’t rehearse it before you speak. It’s always okay to say, “I don’t know where to start.” If you want to tell someone but know you just can’t do it face-to-face with them, consider a phone call, talking with an online support group, or writing your story out and read-ing it to someone you can trust. There is so much power in bringing your story into the light with someone you trust and who will respect and keep con-dential all that you share. It gets this truth into the open: “Yes, my abortion has impacted me, and I need help.” Does some-one you trust come to mind?

Support After Abortion20Loneliness has tentacles like a jellysh. You may have found it zaps your energy and motivation or causes confusion or depression. It can affect your condence, decrease your appe-tite for food, impact your social life, or cause a fear of entering into or keeping up with relationships. Sadly, the list goes on to also include substance abuse or activities that will numb your suffering. It is always important to be kind to yourself and treat your-self like someone you know and love. But now is the time to be extra kind to yourself. It’s essential to take time for self-care, especially if you have a busy home life or work schedule. You’ve been through a lot. Consider asking yourself:• Do I have any physical problems related to my abortion procedure that I need to get checked out?• Are there appointments that I need to make to take care of myself. Do I need a haircut, to visit the dentist or eye doctor, or to get a manicure or pedicure?• Am I eating a diet that will keep my body healthy?• Am I getting regular exercise?• Am I getting enough sleep and feeling rested in the morning?• Is there a favorite restaurant or outdoor activity that I could go to with a good friend?• What book or hobby is waiting for me to pick it up?Actions• Write a note to yourself that reads, “I am NOT alone!” Display it somewhere you will see it, like on a bathroom mirror or on your laptop or phone background.

You Are Not Alone21• Prioritize three of the self-care bullets above and begin to make progress on them. • Journal about anything directly or indirectly related to this key. Points to Review• Sharing my story is a crucial step because it shows me that I am not alone and allows someone to accompany me on my healing journey.• It is critical to be kind to myself and practice self-care.Final Thought and MeditationI’d like to leave you with some encouraging words from Rosa, who has walked in your shoes: “One of the best decisions I’ve made was sharing about my abortion. Looking back, I realize it was crucial to being able to process my abortion.”“I am not alone—I am surrounded by the support of others.”What to Expect in the Next KeyLoneliness is a powerful and valid emotion, but it is not always based on the truth. You are not alone in your experience. Key 3: Freedom from Anger through Forgiveness will address another powerful emotion that you may be experiencing after your abortion—anger.

22Key 3Freedom from Anger through ForgivenessYou Are! You have an inner strength that may surprise you. Spend thirty seconds recalling when you did something that you thought was impossible.Key 2: You Are Not Alone opened the door to sharing the story of your abortion. By choosing to be vulnerable, you came to the realization that you are not alone and that other women have walked in your shoes. You were also invited to take some time just for you, which I hope you did. Key 3: Freedom from Anger through Forgiveness includes three steps, so take your time going through it! STEP 1Did you circle anger in the “Common Feelings Following Abor-tion” box in Key 1: Acknowledge Where You Are Now? Would you say you are more prone to anger since your abortion? If so, once again, you are not alone. Many women respond to their abortion with anger and may not realize there’s a connection.

Freedom from Anger through Forgiveness23One woman shared, “After my abortion, I had violent out-bursts of anger that frightened me. And I didn’t know why.” Anger is personal for everyone, and it’s not always easy to put the feelings it gives into words. It is very often the result of being displeased about things that we cannot control. For example, we may not like other people’s actions toward us, events that happen around us, or a host of different situations outside of ourselves that we cannot change. Often, we can hold on to things that have already happened. We can become resentful or embroiled in anger over the past. This anger can cause us to be upset and snap or lash out at others or ourselves.Sometimes, after an abortion, a woman can be resentful toward herself, the child’s father, family members, friends, or healthcare providers. This anger can show itself in many ways and destroy relationships, her way of life, and her peace of mind. Have you ever done something fueled by anger and imme-diately regretted it? Anger can cause you to react or act out in ways that you usually wouldn’t. It can cause you to hurt yourself or others. The actions that hurt you are known as self-destructive behaviors. These can look like excessive drink-ing, drug use, gambling, unwanted sexual behaviors, or worse. In these cases, the primary person you are hurting through these self-destructive behaviors is yourself. This anger is pun-ishing you and not helping the situation. Sometimes, the easiest anger to hold on to is when you or I feel that we are justied in being angry. People hurt us for no reason or events happen that cause us real pain—but our part is that we let anger begin to be the master over us. It can

Support After Abortion24reign over our lives, and our self-destructive behaviors can become consistent patterns. Perhaps you’re angry as a result of your abortion and nd you are letting anger control a lot of your decisions. Countless women have come to understand the universal truth that the only way to get rid of your anger is forgiveness. This concept may seem contrary to what you are feeling, but it is true. Forgiveness can be for yourself, your child’s father, family members, or healthcare providers.While it may seem easier to point your nger in blame, the way through anger to peace is through surrendering to grace and forgiveness. It is a beautiful and straightforward action, and it is important to know that you don’t always have to feel like forgiving. But the act of forgiveness is necessary to heal. We are not in control—but we can let go of our anger through forgiveness.Actions• Journal any thoughts from what you’ve just read on anger. • Write down what went through your mind when you read the word forgive.• On another page, write the names of those with whom you are angry. You’ll refer to this list in the next step. Now it’s time to read Vivienne’s Hope Story.Countless women have come to understand the universal truth that the only way to get rid of your anger is forgiveness�

Freedom from Anger through Forgiveness25Vivienne’s Hope StoryI had a traumatic childhood, growing up in an alcoholic home with physical and sexual abuse. I skipped class throughout high school, cheated on tests, and eventually dropped out before the eleventh grade. Looking for a new start and excitement, I moved out of state and began living with my boss—a man f-teen years my senior. I desperately sought fulllment and value from this sexual relationship. Within months I was pregnant and immediately decided to abort. I wasn’t ready to be a mother, had no wish to be tied to the father, and knew I couldn’t provide a good life-style even with programs like food stamps. I believed the lie that an abortion was the socially responsible thing to do. The one vivid memory of my rst abortion was the doc-tor saying, “Everything will be okay.” But I knew in my heart that it wasn’t going to be okay. During my second abortion, I felt the very life of my baby being eliminated inside of me. I felt stripped, and this hardened my very being. After my abortions, I became very self-destructive through drug abuse and alcoholism. I eventually changed this lifestyle and got married, but I raised our children out of anger, shame, and guilt. There were times when I couldn’t control my anger. I had no idea where it was coming from and I could see that I was hurting my children, but I couldn’t stop.Anger is one of the worse occurrences after abortion because you don’t know where it is coming from. It is so very dam-aging. My anger would burst over the simplest things: “You didn’t answer my text right away.” I’d go off the handle and completely lose it.

Support After Abortion26I remember thinking to myself, “What is wrong with me?” “Why am I doing this?” I got my answer when I came across the website for a sup-port group. I made a phone call that saved me from a life of destruction and shame and guilt. Once I saw the connection between my anger and forgiveness, I began to take steps. I iden-tied those whom I held in unforgiveness, including myself. I’m forever grateful for the understanding person at the end of that phone.What Do You Think?• What did you take away from Vivienne’s story?• What did you relate to?STEP 2Forgiveness is a necessary key to experiencing freedom from anger and inner peace. It is also essential to help you move on with your life. It removes the reason for the anger surrounding your abortion by lessening the grip that the action and those involved in it has on you.It’s easy to make excuses to not forgive, especially if you’re experiencing a lot of self-justied anger. A woman who has been deeply hurt by others involved in her abortion experi-ence could well say: “I could never forgive him,”; “She doesn’t deserve my forgiveness,”; or “I’m waiting for an apology.” If you have negative thoughts like these about one or more persons involved in your abortion, including your-self, you are not alone. Other women have struggled and couldn’t initially imagine ever offering forgiveness. If that’s

Freedom from Anger through Forgiveness27you, perhaps you will nd it helpful to know what forgive-ness is and what it isn’t.Forgiveness is a choice: it is something you do. It is an action, not a feeling—a letting go of negative emotions toward others and perhaps self-hatred and self-condemna-tion toward yourself.Forgiveness has nothing to do with how you feel. Remember, it is a choice. Don’t wait for your feelings to change because that may never happen. You can choose to forgive even while feeling angry, resentful, cheated, or abandoned. Forgiving doesn’t mean denying or justifying the actions of others. Or in the case of yourself, it does not mean that you don’t accept responsibility for your abortion and are shifting the blame. It does mean that you relinquish the hold that anger has on you.The beautiful thing about forgiveness is that it is a gift! If the person is undeserving of forgiveness in your mind, you can choose to give them the free gift of your forgiveness.Actions• Refer to the list of people that you wrote down with whom you are angry.• Find a quiet place and do the following:• Read each person’s name aloud and choose to give them the gift of your forgiveness by saying, “I forgive you (name the person) for (name their action).”• Let all the unforgiveness in your heart go.• Sit quietly and reect.• Be grateful that you had the strength to forgive or to begin to forgive.

Support After Abortion28STEP 3Once you’ve forgiven the people on your list, you’ve taken a really important step toward healing. There may, however, be one—or more—people you nd it impossible to forgive. If there is someone you can’t forgive, seek support from some-one who knows your story. Together, try to do the impossible and take the rst step in forgiving. Remember, it is a choice, not a feeling. It can be helpful and healing to write a letter (that you won’t send to the person) expressing your anger and other emotions. Your anger may be so intense and your hurt so deep that you may need to forgive that person more than once to expe-rience complete freedom. Up until now, we have focused on forgiving those who have hurt us. Now I’d like to revisit the question: Have you for-given yourself for your abortion and other actions related to it? Perhaps you’ve never thought of or known the importance of forgiving yourself.How does that question make you feel? Take a few moments to check in with what emotions you are feeling. Write in your journal if it’s helpful.Let me assure you, forgiving yourself is possible. As with forgiving others, it is a decision. It’s not denying your abor-tion. It is a gift that every woman deserves to receive and one that your child would want you to give yourself.Women who have been able to forgive themselves have experienced relief and serenity.For some women, forgiving themselves happens over time. For example, I had a powerful conversation with my friend

Freedom from Anger through Forgiveness29Kerri, who experienced an abortion. I remember Kerri say-ing to me, “I can’t forgive myself.” The regret, self-hatred, and self-loathing over what she had done was paralyzing her. But slowly over time, she would say, “I’m beginning to for-give myself.” Kerri has still not entirely forgiven herself—she still battles different emotions—and has days of two steps for-ward and one step back. But Kerri has allowed herself to take that rst and most challenging step of beginning the process. The action for this step will give you some suggestions to forgive yourself. Repeat them whenever you feel a need until one day you say, “I’m free! I let go of unforgiveness! I now have peace!”Actions• Alone or with a friend, say aloud, “I forgive myself for my abortion(s) and ... (mention anything else).” You may not be able to forgive yourself for everything—start small if you need to.• When standing in front of a mirror, after putting your makeup on or doing your hair, you can say, “I’ve given myself the gift of forgiveness.”• Find a quiet place to reect and meditate.Points to Review• Freedom from my anger is through forgiveness, which is a decision. • Forgiveness is not based on my feelings.

Support After Abortion30• Forgiveness is the key to my serenity and joy, and a vital key to my hope and healing.Final Thought and MeditationIf you Google forgiveness quotes, you’ll be amazed at how many there are! Here’s just one: “Forgiving is not forgetting. It’s letting go of the hurt” (Anonymous).“I’ve carried anger for too long; I’m ready to forgive and to let it all go.”What to Expect in the Next KeyAs with my friend, Kerri, the actions of forgiveness are a pro-cess. But it is essential to take that rst step. Key 4: Moving through Grief will help you through your grief—not around it. As you will see, that is an important and powerful distinction. You may want to review this with a friend or staff member at Support After Abortion listed on the back of this booklet.

31Key 4Moving through GriefYou Are! You have the gift of adjusting to different demands made upon you. Spend thirty seconds recalling some of the times when you’ve successfully done just that.Key 3: Freedom from Anger through Forgiveness opened the door to acknowledging areas of anger, releasing it through forgiveness, as well as a decision to forgive, not just acting on emotions. You were asked if you had forgiven yourself for your abortion. Many emotions may have come up for you—from anger to sadness to relief. Key 4: Moving through Grief will once again bring up many emotions. Please take your time when going through it.While you may have worked through the previous three keys on your own, my suggestion is to go through this key with a friend or support group.

Support After Abortion32STEP 1Time Out: Every woman—including yourself—moves through her grief differently. But I want to highlight here that if you nd yourself struggling with grief (about your child or any loss) or feel stuck, it would be vital for you to seek profes-sional help. Support After Abortion will connect you to a local resource.A loss can be many things. It can be the loss of your employ-ment, your reputation, or your place to live. It can be the relocation of a family member or friend, the end of a relation-ship, or the passing of a loved one.After an abortion, a woman may grieve the loss of her child during or immediately after the procedure. It can also occur days, weeks, months, or even years later. If you’re reading this and haven’t experienced grief over your abortion, please don’t close this booklet. I invite you to think more broadly. Perhaps you are grieving over the loss of a relationship as the result of your abortion. Whatever you’re feeling right now, you’re not alone—there are so many other women who have felt this same way or have been in your What Is Grief?“Grief is a feeling of deep sorrow and sadness� Grief is painful and emotionally exhausting� Grief can leave a person feel-ing empty and numb� And grief is normal after a loss�”—Alcoholics Anonymous

Moving through Grief33same situation. Please continue with this key as you may nd it helpful in the general processing of loss. We will look at four steps in the grieving process: acknowl-edge, accept, connect, and adapt. It is rst necessary to acknowledge where you are with the loss to move through grief. Acknowledging the loss of a child and any other related losses will allow you to express how your grief is making you feel. It is a crucial step to experienc-ing peace amidst your pain and grief. You will show strength by not avoiding these feelings or sweeping them under the rug. In Key 1: Acknowledge Where You Are Now, you were encouraged to identify your emotions. These emotions might include deeper feelings such as: feeling lost, feeling empty, stress or anxiety, disbelief, or helplessness.• Take a moment to ask yourself, “Where am I with acknowl-edging the loss of my child?” • Take a moment to ask yourself, “Where am I with acknowl-edging any other losses I have experienced (e.g., the end of a relationship)?”The next step in coping with grief is to accept the loss of your child to abortion. One of life’s hard truths is that we can-not change our reality, however much we may want. It is not easy, but it is important to stay in the present. This doesn’t mean you cannot be sad or relieved or have other feelings. It means that you embrace the truth about what happened and live in the now.

Support After Abortion34• Take a moment to ask yourself, “Where am I with accept-ing the loss?” Actions• Make yourself feel comfortable and safe. Put on music that relaxes you and sit in a comfortable position.• Journal about acknowledging and accepting your loss. Now it’s time to read Chloe’s Hope Story.Chloe’s Hope StoryJack and I were just about making ends meet when we found out I was pregnant. Our reaction was the same: “There’s no way we can afford a baby. We’ve got to get some savings behind us rst. We are just not ready to be parents.” Then followed one of the most uncomfortable conversations we have ever had. Without discussing other options, we agreed to “take care of the problem.” The next few days of waiting were terrible. I had such a hatred for what I was about to do. Deep down, I knew that abortion was just not the answer. Jack got me through those days by assuring me, “This is the right decision for our marriage and future.”I cried through the whole process. Not due to the physi-cal pain, but because of the overwhelming grief I had over the loss of my baby. I remember shouting out, “What am I doing?!” At work and with friends, I kept up appearances that I was okay. But when I wasn’t lling my day with being busy, I was bombarded with thoughts of self-hatred,

Moving through Grief35especially, “You have no right to grieve or cry because it was your decision.” These lies continued off and on for the next ten years and through the births of two beautiful daughters. That all changed when I went with a friend to a grief counseling session follow-ing her young nephew’s accidental death. Everything talked about, I applied to the loss of my child. I cried with my friend for her loss, but I was also weeping for mine. I learned that I am entitled to grieve. And yes, I can release the tears that I had held back for so many years.With the help of a therapist, I was able to work through the grieving process. Now, whenever I think of my “rst” child, I have peace.What Do You Think?• What did you take away from Chloe’s story?• Why was identifying her loss healing for Chloe?STEP 2I want to begin this step with what I hope will be two comfort-ing thoughts. First, the pain of grief that a woman experiences days or weeks after her abortion will lessen. Secomd, future pain—perhaps months or years later—triggered by attending a baby shower or the wedding of someone around the age her child would have been will also lessen.Some women have chosen to express love for their child by nding ways to connect with the loss by honoring their child. For others, they have heard about doing this, but it just wasn’t

Support After Abortion36something they wanted to do. Perhaps they were even advised that it wouldn’t be helpful to their healing. I have found that this is vital to having closure over the loss.Honoring Your ChildThere are different ways to honor your child. Choosing a name for your child is something some women have found helpful. Think of what name you would like to give your child. You could even chat with a friend about your favorite names. After deciding upon a name(s), take a moment to say to your child, “I’m naming you _____.”Another suggestion would be to write a letter to your child, compose a poem, or draw a picture in your journal. Only you will see it. Write whatever is on your heart. Or perhaps give your favorite charity a gift, plant a tree in your child’s honor, buy yourself a bunch of owers, or light a candle from time to time. If you like jewelry, perhaps treat yourself to a special ring, necklace, or pin. Do whatever brings you peace, comfort, and joy as you think about your child.A Memorial Moment: Some women have found it comfort-ing to have a memorial moment dedicated to their child. At a meaningful place—a quiet garden, a beach, a scenic overlook, or beside a beautiful waterfall—she expresses her thoughts and words of love for her child, and perhaps reads a poem, or plays a favorite song. She may choose to lay owers or to let off a balloon on which she has written a message to her child. These are such precious intimate moments for a mother and her child.

Moving through Grief37The fourth point to coping with grief is to adapt to the loss of your child to abortion. Connecting with your grief and honoring your child doesn’t mean that you are going to for-get your child. Adapting your thought patterns, entering fully into the ow of your life, and caring concern for others do not mean you will forget your child. The love you have for your child won’t lessen: if anything, your new serenity and ways of thinking will help your love to grow deeper. My friend Karin, who experienced an abortion, beauti-fully illustrates how she views her grief: “It wasn’t until I went through an abortion healing program that I found out how much healing I needed. Grief is hard. It’s not an easy process to go through. Grief is one thing you can’t go over, under, or around; you must go through.” Actions• Journal any other thoughts about this key.• Make a plan to meet up with a friend(s) to do something fun—a movie, a meal, a hike, or any other positive activity you enjoy!Points to Review• Grief is a natural response to my loss. Everyone grieves differently; there is no right or wrong way for me to grieve.• The four points for lessening the pain of grief are to: acknowledge, accept, connect, and adapt.

Support After Abortion38Final Thought and MeditationThis may have been a heart-wrenching key for you to work through. But be encouraged by this quote: “Grief is like a ball of string. You start at one end and wind. Then the ball slips through your ngers and rolls across the oor. Some of your work is undone, but not all. You pick it up and start over again, but you never have to begin again at the string’s end. The ball never completely unwinds. You’ve made some progress.” —Anonymous“I trust that I am safe and supported to begin walking through my grief.”What to Expect in the Next KeyMoving through your grief is a process, and you are so strong for taking steps to begin this process. Key 5: Walking in Con-dence and Hope will give you positive steps to reframe negative thoughts that are common for everyone.

39Key 5Walking in Confidence and HopeYou Are! You are an amazing woman who has already chosen to take four necessary steps toward healing. Spend thirty sec-onds thinking about the things you are grateful for.Key 4: Moving through Grief opened the door to help you release some of your grief and sorrow. You did this by acknowl-edging, accepting, connecting, and adapting to your life today. Of course, it is so important to remember that grief looks dif-ferent for everyone. STEP 1Condence is believing in yourself. Having hope is believing that a positive outcome is possible. Take a few moments to check on your condence and hope. How many “light bulb” moments have you experienced since you began this booklet? Transformation does not have to be a drastic change—it is often as subtle as a different way of thinking. Take a moment to write any shifts or other ways of thinking in your journal.A challenge for some women after abortion is how to con-tinue to walk in condence and hope for continued healing.

Support After Abortion40This may include you, which is why this key will lay out a plan to nd and keep your condence.Recognizing your thoughts. Try thinking of nothing for just a few minutes, and you’ll see that it’s impossible. Thoughts roll in and out of our minds—good, bad, and indifferent. It is especially important as you continue your healing process to be aware of your thoughts and decide which ones to entertain and which ones to reject. That’s because not everything that pops into your head will further your journey of healing. Of course, it’s impossible to completely stop your thoughts, but it is important to recognize nega-tive thoughts and discard them.Pausing throughout your day. A helpful way to protect the ground you have made in your healing is to begin to take short breaks throughout your day and ask yourself, “What have I been thinking?” Be sure to look for encouraging or motivat-ing thoughts—not just the negative ones. Thoughts that steal hope. The more you become conscious of your thought patterns, the easier it will be to acknowledge the discouraging thoughts that often arise from your subconscious and steer you off course: thoughts that cause you pain, sad-ness, anxiety, irrational fears, or are negative or self-defeating, or those thoughts that rush in and overwhelm you. Then there are the “what if” thoughts about your child and your abortion experience. These can ow out of regret for your abortion. It’s important to grieve the “what if” thoughts and lost potential and opportunities for both you and your child, but it’s not healthy to stay there.

Walking in Confidence and Hope41Many people in various support programs have found power in accepting the things outside their control and the things they cannot change. There is relief in allowing this concept to travel from your head to your heart. It is helpful to remind yourself that you cannot control other people’s thoughts or actions.You might want to journal any extremes in your thought patterns, noting when you had them and where you were. Other notes might include why you gave them your time and consideration, how powerful they were, and why they were so hard to resist.Under a microscope. When you catch one of these stray discouraging thoughts—as well as the situation that triggers it—your next job is to examine it. Is it true? Does it mesh with the truths about what you now believe about your identity and self-worth? What emotions does it evoke?Get out. If the thought doesn’t belong in your mind, send it away by choosing to replace it with positive thoughts. Per-haps reread some of the You Are afrmations at the beginning of each key or recall some of your other strengths—they are numerous. Then watch the unhelpful thoughts lose their power.By frequently examining her thoughts, a woman healing from an abortion experience can keep herself from getting derailed by distractions and lesser concerns. These lead her away from the fullness of life that she wants for herself and others.Yes, you can! Isn’t it exciting that you really can walk in condence and hope? It takes time and practice to be aware of your thoughts. I hope you are up for this new way of thinking.

Support After Abortion42Actions• Journal about some of the ways you are walking in con-dence and hope.• Consider reading your entry to someone who knew how you were feeling.Now it’s time to read Chelsea’s Hope Story.Chelsea’s Hope StoryMy boyfriend, Stephen, was a lawyer, and I was climbing the corporate ladder of a well-known company. After a busy week, there was nothing we enjoyed more than going on a hike, cook-ing together, watching movies, and just hanging out.Stephen and I had been together for a year and a half when I became pregnant. I was horried and couldn’t believe this bad luck. Knowing how this would affect my career, I imme-diately looked up an abortion clinic. Although Stephen asked several times, “Chelsea, are you okay?” I decided not to tell him, reasoning that he already had enough stress in his life at work, and after all, I believed that it was my problem.I purposefully scheduled the abortion for the long Labor Day weekend and asked my sister to take me. I’ll forever remember that Friday afternoon. The nurse gave me not only sedatives but laughing gas, and I remember laughing during the procedure. How could I laugh when I was killing my baby? Afterward, I felt guilt, shame, and horror at what I’d done.Memories of the procedure and my laughing were frequent and vivid. I’d never heard of the adverse effects of an abortion.

Walking in Confidence and Hope43Work absorbed my mind much of the day, but I was hit with negative self-thoughts when driving alone or at night. I felt powerless in controlling them. I also began to have problems making decisions at work and at home—I’d already made one terrible mistake and dreaded making another.One positive decision I did make was to tell Stephen about his child. I don’t know where I got the courage, but his com-passion showed me another side of him. He encouraged me to seek counseling, which helped me begin the healing process, initially over the phone and then face-to-face.What Do You Think?• What are you taking away from Chelsea’s story?• How did she try to hide her memories?STEP 2Now we’re taking a step further, from thoughts to memo-ries. There is a difference between the two. Memories are more long-term than thoughts and are based on events that happened in the past. Memory is stored information that we can recall. A woman may have many stored memories surrounding her abortion: the day she discovered she was pregnant; the reac-tions of the child’s father, parents, and friends; the dilemma of making the decision to go to the abortion clinic; the actual procedure; and the days following. These memories can keep her from being able to walk in condence and hope. Sometimes the ashbacks resurface at

Support After Abortion44night and replay like a video, zapping her tranquility and rob-bing her of sleep. These memories and ashbacks are like chains that can hold her back from moving on and living with con-dence and hope. If painful memories like these are frequent or are impact-ing your quality of life, or if you are experiencing nightmares or constant ashbacks related to your memories, please seek help from a professional. These are painful but common symp-toms of post-traumatic stress disorder and must be handled in cooperation with a healthcare provider. If new memories surface—which is part of the healing process—don’t become despondent. Rather, quickly get support by telling someone. For immediate, real-time support, contact Support After Abor-tion. Contact information is at the back of this booklet.The story below may help you understand how controlling memories can be. An elephant trainer was showing a visitor around the zoo. The visitor noticed an enormous elephant with a small chain around one ankle. The chain was staked to the ground, and its links were thin. “I’m curious,” said the visitor. “How can such a weak chain hold such a large animal?” The trainer replied, “Well, it doesn’t.” He explained: “When an elephant is born, we place a chain like this one around his ankle. No matter how much the baby elephant pulls, he can’t break the chain or pull out the stake. At some point, he stops trying. By the time he’s fully grown, he’s still being held by that same chain. It’s not the chain that holds him, though. It’s the memory of the chain.”

Walking in Confidence and Hope45As you already know, the power to break the chains of dis-tressing memories about your abortion lies in sharing your story. I hope you have already experienced dramatic healing by doing so.At the beginning of this key, you read that hope believes that a positive outcome is possible. I am sure you’ve seen many positive results since the rst key. A remarkable trait of hope is that it has no end. You can believe that you will continue to experience more and more healing from your abortion. One woman who shared her story said, “I’m excited by the thought that there’s no end to my journey of healing!” What hope requires is courage and perseverance. Allow the memories of transformations spur you on to seek more! Keep your hope alive by being grateful for the healing you have already received. Congratulate yourself for even the smallest steps forward and remember that healing is a process. Focus on your goals and not on any setbacks or failures, nd sup-portive friends, accept what you can’t change, and look for ways to laugh!Actions• Journal your answer to the elephant story question.• Journal your thoughts about this key. Remember that you could include poems, sketches, etc.Question Following the Elephant StoryWhat are you taking away from this story?

Support After Abortion46Points to Review• I can be chained by memories of my past that can prevent me from moving forward.• Knowing what I’m thinking during my day will signicantly help the process of healing after my abortion. Final Thought and MeditationYour healing is a continuous journey. If you continue to be mindful of your thoughts and stay positive to move forward in your healing, you can be transformed. This transformation is a process, and it begins with thinking about things differently. “I’m on the road to healing, and I will try to be patient with myself and open with others.”What to Expect in the Next KeyRemember that everyone gains condence and hope at their own pace. Keep taking the steps and actions that will help you along your path to healing. Key 6: Giving Hope to Others offers actions to further your healing—helping and connect-ing with those who are walking in your shoes.

47Key 6Giving Hope to OthersYou Are! You have much to offer others, and your abortion doesn’t define you. Spend thirty seconds thinking about when you did something positive for someone else and how that made you feel.You have now used ve keys to open doors to further your own hope and healing. Now you are about to take up Key 6: Giving Hope to Others. As you will see, your story and your experience can be the key to helping other women start their own healing journey.STEP 1Here’s a story about sharing hope and healing that I think will make you smile. (Adapted from The Star Thrower, by Loren Eiseley)A man took his morning walk along a beach when he noticed hundreds of starsh washed up just above the waterline. He didn’t think much about it until a little farther along, he saw a young girl throwing starsh one at a time back into the ocean. “Why are you doing that?” he asked, somewhat

Support After Abortion48cynically. “Because,” said the girl, “I want them to have the chance to live.” “Oh, don’t waste your time; there are so many, you won’t make any difference,” he said. But the girl bent down, picked up another starsh, and with a big swing of her little arm, tossed it back into the ocean. Then turn-ing to the man, she said, “It made a difference to that one.” The man stopped, thought, and joined the girl in tossing starsh into the ocean. Others saw what they were doing and soon joined in.It is such a great feeling when we realize our words or actions have made a difference in someone’s life. I’m sure you can think of ways you’ve been touched by another’s thoughtfulness and how others have been touched by your words or actions.Just like the girl throwing starsh back into the ocean, you have an opportunity to make a difference in someone’s life—one person at a time. Often, opportunities to make a difference in someone’s life come in unexpected ways. Remember how I mentioned in the second key how other women know something of what you were feeling because they had walked in your shoes? Well, you may nd opportunities to pay it forward by saying, “I know how you feel; I’ve been there—you’re not alone,” to a woman who Question Following the Starfish Story• What are you taking away from this story?• How did the girl’s response, “It made a difference to that one,” make you feel?

Giving Hope to Others49opens up to you about her abortion. Think about all the com-fort, reassurance, and hope she will receive through your care.One woman, Susan, had an opportunity to give hope and care while having coffee with a friend. Suddenly her friend said, “Please stop, Susan. What I’ve got to say may shock you. Two months ago, I had an abortion.” Another woman, Grace, was waiting for a delayed ight at an airport. When she even-tually boarded, a woman with whom she had briey spoken sat next to her. By the end of the ight, the woman had shared her heart about her abortion. For each woman that Susan and Grace encountered, her abortion was her dark secret. They hadn’t told anyone because of reasons that you know only too well. They didn’t know that healing begins with sharing their stories with a trusted friend—or even a stranger. You now hold a key that could change a life. You know that no woman needs to suffer alone. You can be there for them—in person or through social media. You also know of Support After Abortion staff that can help them process their emo-tions. And you can even give a copy of this booklet to them.You don’t have to talk about your abortion if you are not ready. It is crucial so that you don’t cause further harm to your-self and others. You’ll know when the time is right for you. Someone initially may just need a friend who understands—listening may be the best thing you can do!

Support After Abortion50Actions• Journal about some of the ways you have been touched by another’s thoughtfulness. You might even want to send a text or make a phone call to thank someone. By reaching out in this way, you could make their day!• Journal about how you feel about paying it forward and bringing hope one-on-one to a woman suffering from her abortion. • Is there anyone suffering from an abortion that you know you could support by your understanding and compas-sionate listening?Now it’s time to read Paige’s Hope Story.Paige’s Hope StoryIt’s still hard for me to share what happened to me. But often, when I do, someone will say, “You just told my story.”It begins with my love for the US military and my excite-ment to be deployed overseas for two years. I was fascinated by the differences in our cultures and took advantage of any leave to go explore. On that fateful evening, I had almost reached the barracks when a group of men came rolling out of a bar. Before I knew it, one of them grabbed my arm and dragged me into a side alley where I was violently raped.How I got back to my room, I’ll never know. I felt so vio-lated and cried uncontrollably on and off for weeks. After three months, my pregnancy showed. This was around the time

Giving Hope to Others51that my niece, Gwen, ew out for a two-week vacation. She was horried and begged me to report the rape, but I refused. Although I didn’t want an abortion, I just couldn’t go through with the pregnancy. I knew telling my parents that I had a child by rape would have devastated them. It had to be my dark secret.I traveled back to the US on planned leave and went to the clinic for the procedure. My heart was broken at the thought of what I was doing to my baby. I left there in a daze and was plagued with guilt, what ifs, loneliness, and no self-worth.My responsibilities were changed, and I stayed stateside. Five years later, I found a yer in an airport restroom about support and healing from abortion. Amazing. The healing I longed for was a phone call away. As part of my ongoing healing, I now wear a necklace with two small hearts intertwined. I continue to share my story and how I’m feeling with my therapist and my new sisters in my support group.What Do You Think?• What did you take away from Paige’s story?• What are some things you related to?STEP 2Just like you read in Paige’s story, many women begin shar-ing their stories in small groups to give others hope that they are not alone. In small support groups, the condentiality of “What is shared here, stays here” is always stressed. But out-side of that arena, if sharing your story with friends, ask them

Support After Abortion52to respect your condence by not mentioning it to others. It is your story to communicate with each person who is trusted to hear it. You’ll know when you’re ready to begin telling your story. Be willing to be vulnerable and to be yourself. There is no right or wrong way to share. You’ll know what to say and how much to say.This brings me to an important question that you may or may not feel ready to consider. If you are not prepared to answer it, do not put pressure on yourself. The question is:• Who is there that should know about your abortion? Perhaps the father of your child, your present spouse or partner, or a family member?Take a moment to think about this question. Perhaps write in your journal the names of people who come to mind. Consider how you would want to approach them. You could seek input about doing this from a trusted friend or counselor. Remem-ber: if this thought makes you feel uncomfortable, then perhaps now is not the time to move on to it.If you’re invited to share with a broader audience, you may well be revealing others’ stories. Your story is their story too. A ques-tion to ask is, “Would sharing my story cause anyone harm, loss of reputation, or cause listeners to You’ll know when you’re ready to begin telling your story� Be willing to be vulnerable and to be yourself� There is no right or wrong way to share� You’ll know what to say and how much to say�

Giving Hope to Others53make judgments?” If it does, you can always decline the invi-tation to protect the interests of others. Another point: if you are accepting an invitation to share beyond a small support group setting, you ought to mention it ahead of time to anyone involved in your abortion.That said, are you ready to begin thinking about paying it forward? Have you ever thought of the positive impact you could have on another woman’s life? It is such a privilege to bring hope to another person. It will give you such joy and even further your own healing.Isn’t it incredible to think that your story could be the key to open a door for another’s healing? How we all need each other on this journey of life! You’ll be amazed at how oppor-tunities will come to share your story. Remember the stories of Susan, Grace, Paige, and the girl tossing starsh back into the ocean? They were changing one life at a time. And I’m con-dent that when the time is right, you will be too.Actions• Take a picture of the resources and support organizations starting on page 55. Then you’ll have it at your ngertips to pass onto others.• Think of where you can share a PDF or print copy of this booklet for others to view.

Support After Abortion54Points to Review• I can change one life at a time for any woman suffering from her abortion. Because she knows that I’ve walked in her shoes, I will assure her that she’s not alone. • There are different platforms on which to share my story. Final Thought and Meditation“You can’t go back and change the beginning, but you can start where you are and change the ending.”—C. S. Lewis.“I choose to move forward with my life and offer hope when-ever I can.”There Is More for YouPlease don’t think of this as the nal key. That’s because I hear the rattling of many other keys that will open more and more doors for you on your healing journey in the coming days, weeks, months, and years. You’ll know what they are. Please pick them up for yourself and share them with other women recovering from an abortion.

55Start Your Support HereNational AgenciesAlcoholics Anonymous (AA)212-870-3400www.aa.orgNarcotics Anonymous (NA)818-773-9999www.na.orgNational Suicide Prevention Lifeline800-273-8255www.suicidepreventionlifeline.orgNational Domestic Violence Hotline800-799-7233www.thehotline.orgNational Human Trafficking Hotline888-373-7888Text 233733www.humantrafckinghotline.orgCo-Dependents Anonymous888-444-2359www.coda.org

Support After Abortion56RAINN: Rape, Abuse, Incest National Network800-656-4673www.rainn.orgNational Alliance on Mental Health800-950-6264www.nami.orgGrief Resource Network828-726-9554www.griefresourcenetwork.com-crisis-center/hotlinesGrief Anonymouswww.griefanonymous.comAmerican Pregnancy Helpline – Miscarriages866-942-6466Crisis Text LineText 741741www.crisistextline.orgFaith Based AgenciesProject Rachel Ministry888-456-HOPE (4673)www.hopeafterabortion.orgEsperanza Posaborto888-456-HOPE (4673)www.esperanzaposaborto.org

Support57Rachel’s Vineyard Ministrieswww.rachelsvineyard.orgToll-Free retreat information: 877 HOPE 4 ME (877-467-3463)Lumina/Hope & Healing After Abortion877-586-4621www.postabortionhelp.orgProject Joseph469-720-2273 (CARE)www.healing@projectjosephdallas.orgMen and Abortion513-729-3600www.menandabortion.netOn-Line SupportAbortion Changes Youwww.abortionchangesyou.com Prayer Lines Christian Broadcasting Network with the 700 Club Prayer Line800-700-7000 www1.cbn.com/700clubJoy FM Prayer Line877-800-7729www.orida.thejoyfm.com

Support After Abortion58Trinity Broadcasting Network Prayer Line888-731-1000www.tbn.orgDaystar Prayer Line800-329-0029Bethel Church Prayer Linewww.bethel.com/ministries/healing-rooms530-255-2066Breakthrough Prayer Line800-424-8644Life Outreach International Prayer Line800-947-5433www.lifetoday.orgMorris Cerullo Prayer Line866-756-4200www.mcwe.comCrossroads Prayer Line866-273-4444www.crossroads.caFamily Broadcasting Corporation Prayer Line800-365-3732www.familybroadcastingcorporation.com

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