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Morgan Bahruth Spring 2021

Reflective Essay Out of this whole school year there were only a few journal writing prompts I was unable to write on for I had no response to them The others though made me think about it they were not those easy ones that you could answer right away kind of questions It has made me realize how much I have changed and how much my family has changed The fact that we do not do what we use to do and old family traditions that we use to part take in with family relatives who know longer come down to visit Most of my prompts are about family members But if I think about last years writing prompts in one of the other classes those were a lot easier for you did not have to write about yourself but these one in this class were aimed to you and your knowledge I really enjoyed this class with the eye opening prompts But I also wrote one in the journal our teacher gave us that was not part of any of the prompts I titled it Little Sis and as the name says it is about my little sister and how much I care and love her She used to not be big about me and never came to me for any help or just to play games with her About a year ago she started showing interest in me and asking me to play Minecraft with her and hangout in my room with me and walk around bugging mom together We even made our own way of holding hand but we do not use are whole hand we just hold pinkies together Then about half a year later she helped me meet my best friends that I talk to over phone every day and she is part of the group she enjoys talking to them and we all play Minecraft on the hive server together and she always has a new Minecraft skin I wrote this to tell her how she has done for me and to show her how much she means to me For I care for her and she will always be my baby sister

Little sis Little Sis how I love you Since the day you were born and the scare you gave our parents I love getting to see you grow from your first steps to you singing and dancing I know early on you didn t want to hang out with me for you already choose the sibling that you would hang out with and later you would switch to another But I m happy you choose me even though I was one of the last options it still made me very happy to see you wanting to hang out with me and play video games especially your favorite game Minecraft where we would play on the hive sever and getting to see all your new skins I love that you were there when I started to make new friends last year and you were there when I needed someone to be weird with To my dearest little sister I love you so much more than you know and I love our wonderful bond we have that I waited so long to have with you

Family heirloom We acquired it last year after our grandpa died of cancer on April 20 2020 My grandpa started to lose his memory and forgot he was dying from cancer and kept telling us to go away for he thought he had covid and did not want to give it to us After his passing and about 3 weeks to a month we collected some of his stuff he had giving his big toolboxes and his two craftsmen to my father and us kids decide to look through every drawer We found a lot of old buttons from way back then of propaganda to get people to join the army and to help in the war I do not know if he got to fight in the war but I knew he helped build the airplanes He would assemble and build parts for planes In the chest we found a very shinny medal that congratulated him for helping in the war for helping build planes The medal was still preserved in the nice plastic fold and I am not sure if there were others or not but it was the only one we found I believe he got it around 1971 1975 but not very sure he never talked about any of this when we were around with him My dad s got it safely stored and I am for sure it will be passed down to someone later down the line

The family notebook My notebook would have pictures and stories of past family members Like my Grandma Ruby she had a nice house out in the country that we would always go to for Christmas Her house was always so warm and there was a lot of great food and she had the best big homemade rolls I have ever had There was this bedroom that had a bunch of old games and toys and there was a game board called Life on the Farm and we loved playing it every year and getting to hang out with distant family that lived far away It was such a fun and warm place but know it has been cold for about 4 years Also forgot to mention Grandma s husband set her life up well to the point that even after he passed she never had to work a day in her life He had a lot of farmlands and before he passed away he made a deal with a neighbor who also did farming would be allowed to use the lands and in return would pay a good sum of the profits to my grandma making it where she would never half to get a job Those families do not visit anymore for they only came for Ruby But she will have a big place in the notebook Then would be my Grandma Neva she is still alive and will be 101 on August 21 2021 she has all types of pictures of everyone and she has a great memory and is still active and is working in the library of the manor where she lives The cool thing is she made the decision to go to the manor on her own after her husband died instead of staying in her own home Then my grandpa will be next he was not one to talk about his past with us but once he passed last year of cancer I learned he fought in the Vietnam war then was a military police officer then he was an Army National Guard and finally moved to town and became a machinist Last would be weird stories about my siblings and parents so this would be a fun and timekeeper notebook

The first big Change The late days of the last year of middle school I realized I was going blind but I did not know or realize for quite some time I did not notice the change I thought I was seeing the world how everyone else did I sat in the front row because of my last name so I never had to really look at the board Everything was plain not too much detail my eyes could still see what stuff was but not at the full capacity After I got my glasses I put them on inside and I felt weird but nothing really stood out until I was outside I was stunned at how pretty and pointy grass looked like and I was seeing the trees and plants differently Everything was just so much bolder and more colorful and I could not see why I did not notice the change in my eyes But I will not forget how I felt when I got my first pair of glasses and seeing grass how it was supposed to be seen

Memories My family s not big in family stories or telling other past family s story s My family is big but scattered and do not really talk to each other but we do talk about memories of the times of us growing up but that not something that going to be preserved for later generations No none are written down I do not think anyone will keep our baby books once were dead but who knows I will write one funny story that happen to me When I was little me and my sister where playing with mom it was us running from her and at some point I stopped at the top of the stair case and turn to look back to see where mom was and my sister was next to me and she saw mom and was trying to get me to go down the stairs I ended up falling down the stairs for being pushed by my sister who did not want mom to get her We giggle a lot about this especially my mom

The Breakdown A few days ago I had been left at home alone my parents and my brothers and sister went to Wichita while me and my other sister stayed behind My sister had to go to work and I would be alone in the house for 6 hours I thought I will be fine my friends will be online but they were not and my fear and anxiety started to rise for I do not like being by myself and I had a big break down I had decided mid break down that I should play music and make background noise to make it sound like there was someone else in the house and that only half fixed the problem and maybe 30 or so minutes later my friends where online and I joined them to distract me and they ask how I was and I told them I had had a break down but I didn t tell them what kind they just gave me enough support that I felt a little more better and distracted me for the last 4 hours of waiting for my sister to get home

The Last Message of the night What give me satisfaction at the end of the day is getting to say goodnight to my friends at the very end of the day Why it brings me satisfaction is because it is like the last words you say to someone before you see them again or hear from them I like waiting for their response weather it is over text or call it brings relaxation and helps me sleep at night I enjoy hearing over phone more than text for hearing is better than seeing when seeing you do not really get to feel emotion with it but hearing you can hear their emotion and it can leave a better feeling behind when it ends

The beautiful language barrier The friends and regular people that I see at work and around me wherever I go speak Spanish some can speak English Hearing my friend speak Spanish sounded exceptionally beautiful and made me want to learn how I know if I work at it I can get myself to learn how to pronounce the words but I am for sure I will struggle at gathering what others say to me Also another reason I would like to learn for it will be useful for communicating later and will help for jobs so I could help others who only speak Spanish I would just really like to know how or to learn how to play an instrument for my friends play instruments to they play piano guitar and ukulele It may be that I feel left out sometimes they will start to speak Spanish to each other and I do not know what they are talking about and they try to teach me but they go from easy to hard right away they are not slow at the teaching and it more like they write something and tell me to translate it but I do not know what it says so it is hard to learn from them