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Authentic Insider Magazine January 2022 Issue

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InsiderTHRIVING IN RECOVERYGetting to the bottom of substanceabuse to stay soberTHROUGH MY MUSHROOM EYESHow psilocybin changed my perspective & allowedme to move through my fear & anxiety HEAL FOR REALHow one woman used the shattered glassof her crumbling life to heal for realJANUARY 2022New Year,New Goals: Setting RealisticExpectations

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Happy New Year Readers!For the new year, we are assessing resolutions. How can we create new goals thatare sustainable? Just waking up and naming one thing you are grateful for canmake a big difference in self-improvement. Check out Gen Z's POV by SarahCorrea-Dibar to create a year of realistic goals.January is Human Trafficking Awareness Month and our Prosecutor's POV byKathryn Marsh discusses the Ghislaine Maxwell trial, how we can educateourselves about Human Trafficking, and how to stop it.What does it look like to finally find healing and sobriety after years of battlingsubstance abuse and suicidal ideations? Amy Guerrero reveals how she reachedthe other side to thrive in recovery. Shannon Moroney, was in the middle of a media storm when her husband wasaccused of violent crimes. Shannon discusses how she pushed through the glassand began to heal for real.Human beings are complicated creatures. Once we understand that, we can allbegin to feel comfortable in our own skin. Karen Gross shares her life's evolutionto reveal the beauty of individuality.Finally, I share my latest experience with psychedelics and the lessons psilocybintaught me in how to manage my anxiety. We have an Art Prompt by Cali Binstock to start your New Year's off on a positivenote. Hint: It's one of my favorite projects. Don't forget to check out Joy's January reading, my recommended books for kidsand adults, and A New Year's playlist chosen by you.Happy Reading :) Authentic Insider | Page 02Lorilee BinstockAlways,

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Authentic Insider | Page 03Joy LarkinTwin Flames Readings ContributorKathryn MarshProsecutor POV ContributorCali BinstockArt DirectorLynn BinstockCopy EditorMonthly ContributorsSara Correa-DibarGen Z POV Contributor

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Amy GuerreroContributor"Thriving in Recovery"Authentic Insider | Page 04January ContributorsJanuary ContributorsShannon MoroneyContributor"Going through the Glass to Heal for Real."Karen GrossContributor"Getting to Know Me: It's Complicated"

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IN THIS ISSUETABLE OF CONTENTSJanuary is National Slavery & HumanTrafficking Prevention Month19IN EVERY ISSUEProsecutor POV: Human Trafficking:A Human Tragedy08AIM Playlist: New Year 2022!Recommended Books44Joy's Readings45Moving Through the Glass to Heal forReal26Authentic Insider | Page 05Healing Through Art Prompt: VisualBoards36What is Human Trafficking?Thriving in Recovery47Through My Mushroom Eyes193613Hello, I'm Complicated 31060713Gen Z POV: It's A New Year, Not a NewRace41

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January is NationalSlavery & HumanTrafficking PreventionMonthFor more information aboutHuman Trafficking and howwe can prevent it, pleasevisit the US Department ofState's websiteAuthentic Insider | Page 06

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What is Human Trafficking?For more information aboutHuman Trafficking and howwe can prevent it, pleasevisit the US Department ofState's websiteAuthentic Insider | Page 07

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HOST OF NO GREYZONE PODCAST

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WHAT WE DO KNOW IS THAT TRAFFICKINGCAN OCCUR ANYWHERE AND TO ANYONEREGARDLESS OF A VICTIM’S AGE, RACE,GENDER OR COUNTRY OF ORIGIN. Authentic Insider | Page 09Traffickers are not “you’ll know themwhen you see them.”Just like victims,traffickers can be almostanyone: from thestereotypical pimp or gangmember; to a businessowner; a family member, ora governmentrepresentative.

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"Education ispreventionandawarenesscan stopabuse." Kathryn Marsh is a career prosecutorspecializing in child abuse, sexualassault, domestic violence & other powerbased crimes. She is also co-founder ofRight Response Consulting, an agencythat provides training and in the areas ofsexual assault, sexual harassment &human trafficking. Facebook @NoGreyZonerrc Instagram @NoGreyZonerrc Twitter @NoGreyzonerrcAuthentic Insider | Page 10

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with SexTraffickingSurvivorKatherineMcGibbonCheck outEpisodes 14 & 20A Trauma SurvivorA Trauma SurvivorA Trauma SurvivorThriver's PodcastThriver's PodcastThriver's Podcastcoverscoverscovers Sex TraffickingSex TraffickingSex TraffickingAuthentic Insider | Page 11

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“I am no bird; andno net ensnares me:I am a free humanbeing with anindependent will.” - Charlotte BronteAuthentic Insider | Page 12

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was writing a thank-you card for awedding gift when I heard the knock atmy door. It was 2005. I was thirty yearsold, and my life was about to changeforever.I was away from home, staying at ahotel for a school guidance counselors’conference. When I opened the door tothe corridor, I expected to see mycolleagues at the threshold, inviting meto breakfast. But instead, I saw thesilhouette of a police uniform filling theframe. “I’m here about your husband,”the officer said. “Are you Jason Staples’wife?” I nodded, unable to speak. Yes, Iam Jason Staples’ wife. We’d beenmarried exactly a month. “Jason wasarrested last night, charged with sexualassault.” My mind raced: What does hemean? There must be some mistake.But there was no mistake. “Iunderstand that your husband called 9-1-1 himself,” the officer said, “and that hehas given a full confession.” By Shannon Moroney, BestSelling Author of Throughthe Glass, Out of theShadows, and Heal for Real IAuthentic Insider | Page 13

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This is how my memoir, Throughthe Glass, begins—with theshattering of life as I knew it intobroken, jagged pieces, and anoverwhelming feeling ofhelplessness as to how to put themback together. As I grasped to understand howJason could possibly have donethis, feeling love for the person I’dknown and repulsion for what hedid, I was thrust upon a terrifyingjourney through the justice system,the media, and the social stigma ofbeing the spouse of a sex offender.The ripple-effect of Jason’s crimeswas widespread, from the victimsand their families to me and myfamily to Jason’s boss—the healthfood store owner, whose life’s workwas now a crime scene on the frontpage of the paper—and his family,to our friends, neighbors, and myschool community. While Jason spent nine months insolitary confinement—or“protective custody” as it wascalled, I was left on the outside todeal with the aftermath—completely unprotected, an easytarget for judgment and blame. Myschool principal banned me fromentering the school withoutpermission and forced me out ofmy job. I lost my salary, benefits,seniority, place of belonging, andworst of all, my relationships withstudents, staff, and parents. I wasmade guilty by association. I turnedto Victim Services at the police forhelp, as surely they could let thepublic know that I had nothing todo with the crimes, that I hatedwhat Jason had done. They couldexplain that my visits to Jason—news of which had spread in our"While Jasonspent ninemonths insolitaryconfinement—or “protectivecustody” as itwas called, Iwas left on theoutside to dealwith theaftermath—completelyunprotected, aneasy target forjudgment andblame."“What happened?” I asked, mywords barely audible. The officerdidn’t know the details of theassault because he was from theToronto police force. He handedme the phone number of thesergeant in Peterborough andsaid I should call him right away.He said gently, “I think you betterexpect that it was ‘full rape’.” I feltnauseous. I could only think,“What happened? Whathappened to you, Jason?!”Images of Jason as I had knownand loved him—of someone whohad come so far in his life—flashed before my eyes. Nothingthat was happening now madeany sense at all.Authentic Insider | Page 14

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" I REGAINED MYVOICE, AND FOUNDPURPOSE IN WHATWAS OTHERWISESENSELESS"Authentic Insider | Page 15

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friends and colleagues of peopleaccused or guilty of crimes—but Icould never find them. Once Istarted speaking out, they foundme, and so did victims of sexualassault and other crimes. Theyshared their stories, and continueto, to this day. So many want toexplore what I call “the new FWord—forgiveness”, and all that itmeans and doesn’t mean. I’mthrilled to release my new book,based on my own journey and overa decade of supporting others ontheir journeys, Heal for Real: aguided journal to forgiving others—and yourself. What are youholding onto that forgivenessmight help you let go of? Big Ttrauma, Little T trauma, and evenjust the everyday hurts and slightsthat steal your heath and joy? I’mhere for you.My journey from the moment ofshattering now sixteen years ago,to where I am today—a trauma therapist, public speaker,author of three books,mother to a thriving set oftwin girls—was one thatbegan with pain andheartbreak and evolved topeace and fulfilment throughresilience and forgiveness.Jason remains in prison, butforgiveness helped set mefree from the prison of anger,resentment, shame andtrauma. Through trial anderror, with support and yetoften alone, I turned post-traumatic stress into post-traumatic growth. Now mylife is dedicated to helpingothers do the same. To learnmore or connect, visit me atwww.shannonmoroney.comor on social media@ShannonMoroneyAuthor"I TURNED POST-TRAUMATIC STRESS INTOPOST-TRAUMATICGROWTH. NOW MY LIFE ISDEDICATED TO HELPINGOTHERS DO THE SAME." Authentic Insider | Page 16

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Authentic Insider | Page 05firesidechat.com/LorileeBinstock

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Authentic Insider | Page 18“Hey friend,don’t you dareforget, asyou’re creatinga new you, thatthere’s a wholelot about theold you that isworthkeeping.”― ToniSorenson

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ThrivinginRecovery t was never about the alcohol…I remember the glass of wine Ichose to have before my first 12step meeting at 1:30pm onGreenwich Street in San Francisco. Swallowing dread as a blanket ofshame wrapped my body. I was stuck. The reality that Icould no longer use my favoritecoping mechanism to navigatemy emotions was staring medown and the path forwardlooked dark, depressing and like aroad I had no interest in travelingon. A few months later, I was intreatment at a primarily 12 step-based center in wine country, IBy Amy Guerrerothe irony, eh? In that 40-dayjourney I decided two things: 1) The prescribed way to “recover”was not working for me because itis bypassing all the pain & trauma. 2) I would drink again in 6months.And, I was right on both fronts. Itwasn’t working for me but neitherwas drinking. The next 18 months were rough.Ronchie, in fact. I was so good at putting on themask that I would pretend as if itwas all working but deep downinside I continued to crave death.My hopes were that I could takethe perfect amount of Xanax andalcohol and not wake up.H O W I T R E A T E D T H EU N D E R L Y I N G C A U S E O FM Y S U B S T A N C E A B U S ET O B E C O M E S O B E RAuthentic Insider | Page 19

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"As if it isthe onlything thatwill soothethe nervoussystem isthe verything thatis killingus."Somehow, I always woke up. Although, mostly “sober” for those18 months when I “relaspsed” Iended up hurting myself in severeways, hurting others and in ahospital or treatment centerbrining back to “life.”Oh, if you had a camera on mewhen I was in the hospitals &institutions blowing well over a .4BAC (yes that is fatal), screamingabout how I just wanted someoneto listen to me and my theories oftrauma in my body, well, it wouldbe entertaining and really sad. I knew that it had nothing to dowith the alcohol and I neededsomeone to help me movethrough the trauma that kept mein these patterns and the ethanolI was using to numb. I don’t want to spend much moretime there because the thing iswith every mask of “pretending”that I wore, I was actually puttingtogether a plan of how I wasgoing to navigate life withoutescaping myself. In June of 2016, I stayed stopped. It was not a white light moment. I was unsuccessful at dying. So, I was left with this feeling ofsurrender.I was so over it. My body was exhausted. Iremember sitting in the salt waterof the Gulf of Mexico staring up atthe stars and I decided I would goto treatment one last time and Ihad to do it my way. That was June 2016, and by thistime, I had spent the greater part oftwo years studying the effect oftrauma on the body and I hadwritten a plan and starteddeveloping the regroovinmethodologies that I use in mypractice today. When I was putting alcohol frontand center and making it about the“disease” it triggered more shame. For me, it was never about thealcohol & I do not believe I have adisease.Authentic Insider | Page 20

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For me, I was masking emotional andphysical trauma, and sexual abuse, thewhole thing. I was masking a very sensitive nervoussystem.I was masking years of abusing myself.I was masking feeling misunderstood &lonely. I was masking a constant fear (fight/flightresponse) of being abandoned. That shit is intense to feel all the time, soI numbed it with alcohol and otherbehaviors. The alcohol worked fast, it was easy touse, it is everywhere, and it numbed theconstant energy I felt in my body.When I started to study this more closely,I realized that my nervous system was ina constant sympathetic (fight/flight) stateand it had been hovering around thatspace and collapsed since I was an infant. The thing is, every human uses somethingin a way to escape reality and self-soothebut…I became chemically dependent. I am using my story as an example andthe reality is that my story is similar to thehundreds of people I have supported andsupport all over the world. It is so hard for the person experiencingthe reality of the moment when thecoping mechanism stops working. The neuropathways start to createpatterns that become obsessive. As if it is the only thing that will soothethe nervous system is the very thing thatis killing us.So, for me, it was about getting supercurious to follow the pathways, the body,and the story to what was really stuckunderneath all of the masks, behaviors,and substances and start healing fromthere. What I noticed is that the substance orbehavior is working to mask the deeperwounds, trauma, and dysregulation in thenervous system. The thing is, every human usessomething in a way to escapereality and self-soothe… but I became chemically dependent. When I stopped making it about thealcohol, I was able to access my power,my truth, and release myself from myrelationship with alcohol & otherbehaviors. I surrendered so I could come home to allthe parts I abandoned for a lifetime. From this place of surrender, I took all theopportunities to ensure that I wasaccountable to the most importantperson in my life, me.Authentic Insider | Page 21

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Now, I choose to get to the root of mybehaviors and that brings me somuch compassion & freedom. I feel it is important for the readers tounderstand that I chose, I surrendered, Idecided. This stuff is complex and every human isunique and it’s not about the substance orbehavior. When we put the substance or behaviorfront and center, and treat the human as adiagnostic code, it takes away theirsovereignty and agency. It is creating moreshame, guilt and trauma. When I read magazines like AuthenticInsider, I recognize the stories and feel thedeep satisfaction of feeling seen and notalone. There are so many misconceptions aboutwhat living a life of abstinence or recovery isin the world, and mostly people do not wantto feel the feelings they feel when they see it when I was using substances & behaviors tonumb. Shit still goes wrong and my nervoussystem is still uber-sensitive. Now, I choose to get to the root of my behaviorsand that brings me so much compassion &freedom. I show up in my relationships vulnerable, open, and imperfect.I am no longer hiding parts of me.or it is happening around them so our world makesit a shameful thing.For me, it was the best thing that happened to mebecause I get to be a leader in this space now. Today, I get to guide other people to their truthtoo. My life today is not much different than it wasAuthentic Insider | Page 22

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It’s a moment-to-moment jam to beconscious like this and it’s so worth it. As a lifetime entrepreneur, my business,Thrive in Recovery, is supporting me inthe most beautiful way.My relationships are so fulfilling. I havechosen to be consciously single for yearsand it has opened my heart to love in awhole new way.My relationship with money & finances ishealthy, I know now how to have and holdmoney with deep respect.My spiritual connections have alwaysbeen strong and now they are openchannels of moment-to-momentcommunication. My body is mine. I respect her. I listen toher. We are in a relationship.I could go on and on… ◼ Authentic Insider | Page 23Amy Guerrero created Thrive In Recovery to provide her clients with a one-on-one,personalized approach to living in recovery. Today, Amy supports leaders choosingrecovery in masterminds and growing their practices & business. She continues to tailorher programs to serve their specific needs, desires, and goals. Recently, Amy launchedBridge to Trust, a complimentary 3-day interactive experience designed for recoveringhumans and their loved ones to repair relationships, heal dysfunctional family dynamics,and experience a deeper connection in a course designed to Recover the Trust. Theworld needs families and friends to come together to forgive, connect more deeply, andbe the transitional characters that end the generational trauma forever. In early 2022stay tuned for a Relationships & Recovery Foundations course that will focus onsupporting people in Recovery to get the love they desire & create healthy relationships.ABOUT THRIVE IN RECOVERY

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Authentic Insider | Page 26Through mymushroom eyesHowever, my intentions f or thissession were to feel my anger andanxiety. When I am trigg ered, the oneemotion I cannot seem to control ismy fear, which triggers anxiety whichcan roll right into depr ession. Irealized I had so many t rappedemotions that needed to be released.I felt an overwhelming u rge to trymushrooms or LSD, eventu allysettling with mushroom t o workthrough these emotions. Boy, did theydeliver. y eyes were drowning in theeye mask that was on my face. I sat upand pulled the mask off, tearsstreaming down my cheeks . “There’sso much fluid coming out of my face,”I said staring at my han ds confusedyet fully aware that the mushroomsstarted working their ma gic.Before my psychedelic-as sistedtherapy session, I had s et myintentions. I have done MDMAassisted-therapy twice i n the last yearbut I felt there was sti ll more trauma Ineeded to work through. The MDMAwas great, it helped me work throughwhat was pressing at the time. I wasable to understand my ch ildhoodabuse and realize it was n’t about me.In my second session, th e MDMAprovided me with a bette runderstanding of why my mother wasso apathetic to my traum a. MDMA issuch a wonderful tool to look at thesepast traumas with compas sion andunderstanding as it is k nown tosuppress activity in the amygdala, apart of the brain respon sible for fearand anxiety.M

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Authentic Insider | Page 27 through my mushroom eyesWhile the tears were str eaming downmy face, I closed my eye s and foundmyself in a euphoric spa ce floating inthe cosmos. I felt light with no fear. Iscared. I opened my eyes in the sameplace I started but ever ything seemeduneasy and unstable. I c losed my eyesthinking that would make it better butit didn’t. It was pitch black. I wassinking in a hole of not hing. My bodywas paralyzed but I felt the tingling ofanxiety continuously was h over me. Istarted crying in a pani c, realizing Iwas not breathing. I tho ught tomyself, “Oh shit. This i s going to be abad trip.” And just like that,everything else melted a way and Ibegan laughing hysterica lly with anoverwhelming feeling of abundanceand appreciation.Just as quickly as I cyc led through myemotions of fear and anx iety, I movedinto the feelings of hap piness andlaughter but this seemed to only lastbut seconds. Why are the happyfeelings so fleeting? La ter, I found outthat I experienced those happieremotions for about the s ame amountof time as the not so we lcoming ones.It’s like that saying, “ Time flies whenyou’re having fun.” I needed to take a bathr oom break,but when my feet hit the floor, I feltunstable. The floor was moving likewater, so I tried tiptoe ing to the stairsthat led to the bathroom . I looked atmy sitter and asked if t he floor wassinking because I was sc ared I wasgoing to be swallowed by it. Sheassured me that I was ju st trippingmy ass off. That’s proba bly why youneed a sitter or someone sober youwas then disrupted with a thought of,“am I really in space?” I peeked oneeye open and realized I was back inthe room I had entered. Clearly not aseuphoric, so I closed my eyes andenjoyed the rest of my t rip throughthe galaxy, laughing hys terically attimes. Looking back, I c an onlyimagine how amusing I wa s to mysitter or any fly on the wall watchingme.However, everything bega n to shift. Awave of fear and anxiety plowedthrough my body. I was c old and

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Authentic Insider | Page 28That's probably why you need a sitter orsomeone sober you can trust while you're onpsychedelics… to remind you that you won'tbe swallowed by the floor beneath you.

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Authentic Insider | Page 29Through my mushroom eyes, myperspective changed to fullyunderstand the need to surrenderand lean into the bad times. through my mushroom eyes

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Getting to Know Me: It’s ComplicatedBy Karen GrossThe Me in PhotographsIf one were just to look at me in a photograph, itis probable that one will miss lots of what makesme who I am; one would miss the experiences Ihave had over almost seven decades. In short, Igive meaning to the commonly cited phrase: looksare deceiving. Before I turn to the deeper topics, I wanted toshare that I often dress in ways designed todelight and dazzle children – costumes, wigs,headdresses and other items. It is a form ofengagement that works particularly well whenstudents are struggling to navigate forward in ourPandemic wrought world. Trauma strips us ofour joyfulness, our playfulness and our sense ofhumor. We need to work hard to get it back.Yes, I am white (and that puts the current debateabout white fragility upfront). But, in terms of self-situating, I grew up speaking a language in additionto English. I lived in a home that, to an outsider,looked like a wonderfully cohesive family filled withan appreciation for education, the arts, and culture; we took trips to places near and far includingmuseums and arboretums and hikes and skiing. Yet, beneath the surface, all was not what it appeared.My mother suffered from severe mental illness, adisease that often made her hostile, volatile, prone toscreaming, throwing things, and hitting. She had nofilter. She took naps and baths to recalibrate. It wasodd as a child, witnessing her out-of-control oneminute and seemingly in control of the next.Authentic Insider | Page 31

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I heard and witnessed one of my brothersbeing beaten many a time with a leather beltand then left locked in his room by mymother (a lock I could not reach). My dadseemed to take a hands-off approach evenwhen confronted with my descriptions ofwhat happened while he worked (hispriority). In short, he was an enabler. Andjust for the record, he was a marvel in acrisis.For me, trauma (unnamed as such) wasomnipresent and there was an abundance ofmoral injury that either I was too young ortoo scared or too compliant to address.Indeed, being overly compliant – whetherover-studying or aiming to please – wasstandard fare. For those into measuring, Ihave an ACE score of 7.Now six decades later, many who meet meare struck by my work experience/success –as if it defines who I am on the inside. OK, itdoes in part.I have been a tenured professor; I have beena college president; I have been a seniorpolicy advisor to the US Department ofEducation. I have written prize-winning adultbooks and I write children’s books in twolanguages, which I read to thousands ofchildren across the globe. And, I specialize in trauma (no shock there)and its impact on learning and psychosocialdevelopment. I help students, teachers,administrators as well as non-profitorganizations deal with trauma’s impact andpathways for its amelioration. During theongoing Pandemic, which has sadlytraumatized many, I have worked to enablemyriads of people and Yet, beneath thesurface, all was notwhat it appeared. Mymother suffered fromsevere mental illness,a disease that oftenmade her hostile andvolatile and prone toscreaming andthrowing and hitting. Authentic Insider | Page 32Fast Forward

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organizations to move forward in uncertain,troubling and difficult times. And, on a personal level, I have experienceda 39-year marriage, which ended in 2020with the death of my spouse fromAlzheimer’s disease, although to be sure he“died” in a sense years before. I have asuccessful grown son who is an academicand his work reflects an effort to enablethose less privileged to garner qualityhealthcare. Equity is the watchword for hiswork. And, I recently have fallen in lovewith a man, also a widow, who can only bedescribed as the kindest, most decent, smart,athletic man I have known – ever.One could say, given that I write regularly,that I am an artist but until recently, wordswere my medium. I took a drawing class in1996. I remember it well because I expectedto be drawing vases and flowers and winebottles and ended up drawing nude men andwomen, separately and together. That wastotally unanticipated.Then during the Pandemic, as I recalibratedmy life as a widow and my work which wasstressful at all levels, I started painting.Having never painted before, I just put ontocanvases what was in my head, heart andsoul, and what emerged were works of artthat surprised me every time I looked at afinished work.Initially, I painted images of the sea –reflective of where I live. I’ve expanded myimagery. Like my life, the works I’ve createdhave texture; they surely aren’t flat. Theyhave movement and incorporate a myriad ofodd items – yarn, cloth, toys, pencil erasertips, sand and nets and glass and stones. Inshort, my art – which was immensely helpfulin enabling me to find balance within myself– is complicated like its maker. The worksoftentimes require viewers to see them fromdifferent angles, from altered perspectives. When asked if I “show” my art and whatgallery I use to sell, I reply: “No shows; nogalleries; the art was not made to sell.” Yes,some of it is on a website called ArtPal. Onepiece was selected for an online gallerysponsored by Delta Kappa Gamma, thewomen educators’ honor society. There wasa failed charity auction. My art “just” hangsfrom my walls and virtually the only otherart displayed in my home has been done byclose friends – not famous artists.My most recent work is a touch whimsical.It is playful and it asks viewers to engagewith me as they see the art. And my artencourages viewers to try art in their ownart forms – with their own stamp, their ownvision, and their own colors.I took one piece of my art (along with thefirst piece of art I ever owned by a The Artist Emerges

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Vietnamese artist, Lebadang) to a local,well-regarded art framer. I was reluctantto spend money to frame my own art butI relented and what she achieved inframing my piece is spectacular. Herhusband remarked, having seenthousands of works of art, that there wassomething immensely appealing about mywork. He couldn’t name what made it so;he just knew he liked looking at it.Most of my pieces are unsigned. There’sa story there. But, my most recent pieceis signed – and I have decided that I willget it framed. For me, it might just be the beginning of labeling myself differently.The framer has also suggested that inaddition to signing pieces, my art needstitles too. One smart, psychologically wiseartistic framer.So, as time moves forward, here is who Iam, at least in part, on the outside andinside:I am an educator; I am an author; I am aconsultant to individuals and institutionson trauma and its amelioration; I am anartist.Authentic Insider | Page 34

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Authentic Insider | Page 35Be at war with yourvices, at peace withyour neighbors, andlet every new yearfind you a better man. - Benjamin Franklin

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It’s A NewYear! It’s Not aNew Race A new year is uponus and rushing itshould not be onyour to-do list.

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ew Year’s Resolutions have become a stereotype ofbeing the New JanuaryResolutions. Everyone knows gymsare packed to the brim for the first31 days of the year just to go backto regularly scheduledprogramming by the thirty-secondday. And it’s probably because ofall the extreme weight put on theinfamous New Year's Resolutions.We have the idea that theresolution will transform us into ahappier, healthier, and a morerefreshed version of ourselves. Aversion we can’t get to unless wemake a specific promise toourselves and let’s admit it, toanyone asking, “What’s your NewYear's Resolution?”In college, I studied journalism.My goal was to polish my writingskills and develop my voice. Igraduated in August and althoughI did polish my writing and havebeen published enough times tobuild a strong portfolio, there’salways room to grow more andlearn more about myself. It is important to have goals, andit’s also important to rememberyou’ll never run out of time inachieving your goal. It’s your life,meaning it’s your timeline. Thefinish line will set itself when itfeels ready to be set. Measuring your resolutionscomes with applying the rightdosage to match all the otherA goal shouldn’tknock you offbalance from yourlife. That onlydefeats thepurpose ofbettering yourroutine. NAuthentic Insider | Page 37

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measure yourself and your very healthy goal. Allresolutions and goals are meant to multiply yourmental or physical health. But as you may know, toomuch of anything is never good for anyone. Nothing,no matter how good it is for you, should take upyour thoughts one hundred percent of the time. parts of yourself and your day-to-day. Agoal shouldn’t knock you off balance fromyour life. That only defeats the purpose ofbettering your routine. By the end of last year, you realized you hadbeen bottling up your feelings for too long,so you decide to buy a journal and write in itevery morning. The idea of it sounds greatand you know this is what will help you butcome January third when you have to takeyour kids back to school, or you had to signup for an 8 a.m. lecture on campus, or youwere up all night sick and couldn’t wake upfor journaling time. Things happen and yourpromises aren’t met and that’s okay. Youdidn’t fail yourself, you only forgot to Things happen and yourpromises aren’t met andthat’s okay. You didn’t failyourself, you only forgot tomeasure yourself and yourvery healthy goal.Authentic Insider | Page 38

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To NewBeginnings

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Hope smiles from thethreshold of the yearto come, whispering, 'It will be happier.’

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Healing throughthe ArtsSetting the new year up for successAuthentic Insider | Page 41by: Cali Binstocksetting (emotional) intentions in a vision boardChances are you’ve heard of a vision board and maybe you have made one in the past.This time, let’s try something slightly different with the same medium of magazines, scissors,and glue (a glue stick will work best). Let’s get crafty! The shift I’d like for you to consider is to start with the emotion (rather than the actions) asthe goal. What feelings/emotions would you like to manifest in your new year? If we startwith the feeling, we can likely find goals and habits to support those emotions that we seek. For example, I would like to feel energetic and triumphant, which I know working out canhelp me with. To achieve focus and calm, I aim to meditate regularly. How I workout andmeditate can shift as I go to accommodate my goals. I can try different forms ofmeditation and different types of workouts to find what works for me. With a collage, you can capture the essence of your goals through words and photos. Have fun with it and find what speaks to you! Let’s getCrafty!Starting with the desired emotion, allows you to check in to see ifyour actions are supporting those goals and allows you to shift theaction to better suit your mental health needs.

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Healing throughthe ArtsAuthentic Insider | Page 42by: Cali BinstockSetting the new year up for success

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Authentic Insider | Page 43“You are never too old to set another goal or to dream a new dream.” —C.S. Lewis

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As we swing into the newyear 2022, here are thesongs to welcome newbeginnings that inspire, upliftand pump you up for thenew challenges this year willbring. ‘Brand New Day’ by Sting‘Feeling Good’ by Nina Simone‘Waking Light’ by Beck‘I Can See Clearly Now’ by Johnny Nash‘(Just Like) Starting Over’ by John Lennon‘Here Comes the Sun’ by The Beatles‘Brand New Sun’ by Jason Lytle‘New Morning’ by Bob Dylan‘Out on the Weekend’ by Neil Young‘Absolute Beginners’ by David Bowie'new years day' by Taylor Swift 'Rise' BY Katy Perry'Titanium' By David Guetta with Sia'The Climb' By Miley Cyrus'I'm Still Standing' by Elton JohnAuthentic Insider | Page 44

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Children have Big emotions and the best way to regulate them is to better understandthem. The books below teach self-compassion and inspire children as well as providethe tools to manage them. Read aloud and breathe along with this sweet storyteaching children how to navigate powerfulemotions like anger, fear, sadness, confusion,anxiety, and loneliness. Breathing Makes It Betterguides children to breathe through their feelings &calm with recurring cues to stop and take a breath.Simple guided practices, like imagining you are atree blowing in the wind, follow each story to teachchildren how to apply mindfulness techniques whenthey need them the most.Meet a boy with feelings so big that they glow fromhis cheeks, spill out of his eyes, and jump up anddown on his chest. When a loud truck drives by, hecries. When he hears a joke, he bursts with joy.When his loved ones are having a hard day, he feelstheir emotions as if they were his own. The boytries to cope by stuffing down his feelings, but witha little help and artistic inspiration, the boy realizeshis feelings are something to be celebrated. *I am a participant in the Amazon Services LLC Associates Program, an affiliate advertising program designed to provide a means to earn fees by linking to Amazon.com and affiliated sites.Authentic Insider | Page 45In a new book in the Lady Lucy series, Lady Lucyand her team are introduced to a magnificentMorgan horse given to them by Sir Winston, theoldest and wisest knight. Lady Lucy, her team andMorgan go on a journey to try to restore joy andhappiness to the village which has experienced aterrible winter, social isolation and food shortages.This is a story that can be read by and read tochildren of all ages with stunning illustrations. LadyLucy's Morgan Horse Quest allows our imaginationsto be ignited and inspires us all to believe in eachother and the power of the possible.

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Mental Health, Memoir & EmotionalSupport Books(Adult)Andrew McMahon grew up as a child prodigy, learning to play piano and write songs at a veryearly age, stunning schoolmates and teachers alike with his gift for performing and his uniqueability to emotionally connect with audiences. McMahon would go on to become the lead singerand songwriter for Something Corporate and Jack's Mannequin, and release his debut soloalbum, Andrew McMahon in the Wilderness, in 2014. But behind this seemingly optimistic andquintessentially American story of big dreams come true lies a backdrop of overwhelmingchallenges that McMahon has faced—from a childhood defined by his father's struggle withaddiction to his very public battle with leukemia.. McMahon has found solace and hope in thethings that matter most, including family and the healing power of music and the one instrumenthe's always turned to: his piano.When Shannon Moroney got married in October 2005, she had no idea that her happylife as a newlywed was about to come crashing down around her. One month after herwedding, a police officer arrived at her door to tell her that her husband, Jason, had beenarrested and charged in the brutal assault and kidnapping of two women. In theaftermath of these crimes, Shannon dealt with a heavy burden of grief, the stress andpublicity of a major criminal investigation, and the painful stigma of guilt by association,all while attempting to understand what had made Jason turn to such violence. In thisintimate and gripping journey into prisons, courtrooms, and the human heart, Shannonreveals the far-reaching impact of Jason’s crimes and the agonizing choices faced bythe loved ones of offenders. In this culmination of his life’s work, Peter A. Levine draws on his broad experience as aclinician, a student of comparative brain research, a stress scientist and a keen observer ofthe naturalistic animal world to explain the nature and transformation of trauma in the body,brain and psyche. In an Unspoken Voice is based on the idea that trauma is neither a diseasenor a disorder, but rather an injury caused by fright, helplessness and loss that can be healedby engaging our innate capacity to self-regulate high states of arousal and intense emotions.Enriched with a coherent theoretical framework and compelling case examples, the bookelegantly blends the latest findings in biology, neuroscience and body-orientedpsychotherapy to show that when we bring together animal instinct and reason, we canbecome more whole human beings.*I am a participant in the Amazon Services LLC Associates Program, an affiliate advertising program designed to provide a means to earn fees by linking to Amazon.com and affiliated sites.Authentic Insider | Page 47

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I can't believe it's new year 2022! With a new year comes new beginnings. I see fresh starts for many. Thisis a great time to let go of the old and begin anew. There is some healing that is taking place for many,and others need to work through any traumas they may be experiencing right now. Some did lose hopein a situation and decided to end things. A breakup may have taken place for couples and it was for the best. Depression and anxiety are big for afew right now. Seek support and don't be afraid to reach out for help. You are not alone. Others in arelationship could be working to strengthen bonds by spending more time with family. Be sure to payattention to each other emotionally. That could be lacking in some relationships. Get to really know yourpartner for who they really are.A new beginning is coming for those who are single. A new love could be on the way. If you aren'tconnected to anyone emotionally then there is potentially a new job opportunity/career to come andideas to start a business, which you should definitely take action towards. Your products or servicescould prove beneficial for others.Those who are in business could be getting a lot of support from viewers and subscribers. You may begetting patronized or if your business is doing well, you may be donating and giving away to charity.Moving forward in your life is a great thing to do right now. Healing needs to be had and forgiveness aswell. There may be a person that comes back to apologize to you. But that doesn't mean they need to bein your life. Just take it as a lesson learned. Some could have experienced a letdown or disappointmentbut it only made you stronger than ever, but I am seeing some unhealed wounds that need to be healed. In the future when it comes to relationships, there is a need to pay attention to the red flags. Trust, butyou have to verify. Ask for and seek support from others, meaning if you need to get a therapist,counselor, or coach, don’t hesitate to do so, especially when it comes to healing and recovering from atoxic relationship. Be open and trust yourself. Releasing an ex may be needed as well. Let go of the pastand the things that no longer serve you. It’s a new year and you truly deserve the best. Don't let anything or anyone get in the way of you living thebest version of yourself. Monthly Collective Readings for All Signswith Joy Larkin (January 1 - January 31, 2021) Joy is a Narcissistic AbuseSurvivor who has made it herlife's work to help others throughlife coaching. She is also a healer,earth angel and psychic medium.If you would like coachingservices from Joy and/or getyour own personal reading,please scan the barcode belowwith your smartphone camera.READINGSPersonalINFOCoachingAuthentic Insider | Page 48