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Authentic Insider | Page 02Dear Readers,April is Stress Awareness and Sexual Assault Prevention andAwareness Month.In this month's Prosecutor's POV, Kathryn Marsh shares the myths ofsexual assault that enables sexual assault and how we can raiseawareness.A small community showed up and rallied behind a neighbor after atraumatic sexual assault and formed The Sisterhood Against SexualAssault. Read about Angela's story in her own words. After experiencing sexual violence, it can be hard to engage in anyconsensual intimacy. Read about how Megan Stoner did the hard workto find pleasure again.This month, contributor Mandy Harvey, shares how to identify thesymptoms of stress & learn how to mindfully take back control. Karen Gross is back with her piece on why coaches who harass aren'tpunished accordingly, with the example of the Harvard's Women'sHockey Coach.As in every issue, Cali Binstock provides a Healing through Art Prompt.We have your Stress Relief AIM Playlist, along with my picks forchildren and adult books that support Women. Plus, check out JoyLarkin's Twin Flame Readings to see what's in store for you this April.Happy Reading!Lorilee BinstockEditor in Chief

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SBANG HEADHEREVOLUME IIwater, and even life-saving medications.The cure we are sold by the media is to just pushthrough, keep hustling, organize our life better,exercise, think positive thoughts, meditate, journal,and get out in nature.And we approach these things the same way weapproach the rest of our life, trying to squeeze these‘practices’ into our already, overly scheduled day.But that peace is fleeting, and the stress continues tolurk in the background of our life. Bang…Head…HERE!Why is this? If we have all these practices to help us relieve ourstress, then shouldn’t we all be living in bliss with theresilience to ride the waves of life with ease andpeace? The impacts of stress go much deeper than thesepractices can reach on their own. We must take adifferent approach if we want lasting change. Startingwith awareness.Understanding how our bodies respond to stress canbe the difference between staying on the hamsterwheel of stress and finally stepping off for good. “So, I’m stressed! What’s the bigdeal? Isn’t everyone stressed?”Stress these days infiltrates everypart of our life; from our work to ourrelationships, to finances, to ourability to access healthy food, cleanIdentify the symptoms ofstress & learn how tomindfully take back control.Authentic Insider | Page 10

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So, what is stress?Stress isn’t always bad for us. In fact, short bursts ofstress can actually enhance our performance because itincreases alertness and can help us push through fear.However chronic stress is a different story. Chronicstress is when our body experiences low-grade stressdemands and threats on a regular basis that exceed ournervous systems capacity to handle it. Our ability or lack thereof to withstand stress often getsprogrammed in us from our early childhoodexperiences. If we experienced the ongoing stress ofnot feeling safe or not feeling loved, understood, orvalued, then our biology was adversely impactedmaking us more sensitive to stress. How do I know if I’m stressed?When we experience stress, our body releases an increasein stress hormones like cortisol to ready our body to fight orflee the stressor.In a regulated and resilient nervous system our body willnaturally and quickly return to normal hormone levels andthere won’t be any lasting effects.However, when we are chronically stressed, it can leave usin a permanent state of fight, flight or freeze with anoverproduction of our stress hormones or completeexhaustion and the inability to manage our life. What are the signs of stress?Increased heart rateDifficulty breathingChronic painInability to sleep or relaxNever getting sickLow energy, fatigue and exhaustionLow muscle tonePoor digestionPoor immune function and frequently sickPhysical Symptoms:If we’ve been chronically stressed for a long period of time,our body can get worn out and we might experience:Authentic Insider | Page 11

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Stress clearly has major negative effects on usmentally, physically, and emotionally. But the goodnews is, it doesn’t have to be permanent. WE cantake back control of our life!How to mindfully take back control even for thebusiest of schedules!Deep, lasting change in how we respond to stresscan only occur when we take a mindful approach tounderstand our relationship to stress. Here are 3mindful strategies to help you go from stress topeace. 1. Use curiosity to build your awareness. Get curious about how stress shows up for you,including how your body responds to it. Take timewhere you can be alone and quiet, to mindfullyanswer the following questions:·What is your stress story? How long have youbeen stressed? When was the last time youremember not being stressed?·What are your stress triggers? ·Where do you hold stress in your body? A tightchest? A bloated stomach? ·In what ways have you been pushing yourselfbeyond your limit? What needs to fall away or whathelp do you need to operate within your capacity?One of the ways we can exacerbate our stress iswhen we abandon and ignore our needs for thesake of others.Take time to reflect on what your needs are andwhere you are deprioritizing them. What is mostimportant for you to have in your life to live yourbest, most peaceful life? And how can you honorthose needs?Anxiety or panic attacksEmotional outburstsRacing thoughts DepressionDissociation with the things and people weonce enjoyed. Mental/Emotional Symptoms:Minute 1: place your hand on your heart, scan your body,and connect into how you feelMinute 2: do box breathingMinute 3: set your intention for the day, with either oneword or a phrase Minutes 4 - 5: feel the feelings you want to experience inthe day as if they have already happened2. Practice anchoring into the present moment.Each time we practice bringing our mind and body back tothe present moment, we start to re-train our nervous systemand create new pathways to embody peace and calm. One way to do this is with an Orienting practice. This is asimple daily practice that can be done in as little as 4minutes. It’s the practice of orienting to each side of the room orenvironment you are in - the front of you, each side of youand to the back of you. Spending one minute orienting toeach side, notice the colors, textures and what catches youreye in that direction and how it feels in your body. If thoughts or feelings come up during this time, welcomethem and notice what happens next. 3. Start your day with intention.The way we start the day, is the energy we most feel in theday.Before you pick up the phone or begin worrying about yourto-do list, start the day with a Tune In & Tune Up MorningRoutine.This is a quick and easy 5 minute daily practice!Mindfully and with lots of compassion and intention, youWILL take back control of your life and energy!"One of the ways we canexacerbate our stress is whenwe abandon and ignore ourneeds for the sake of others."Authentic Insider | Page 12

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Sexual AssaultPrevention&Awareness pril is Sexual Assault Awareness Month“SAAM.” The purpose of SAAM is to help raiseawareness and educate communities about theirrole in prevention. Many of the beliefs thatpeople hold about rape and sexual assault arewrong and these false beliefs or myths actuallyaid in enabling sexual assaults. Rape myths help ensure that victims of sexualassault are not believed and enable perpetratorsto commit multiple sexual assaults. Rape mythsare so prevalent that 60% of sexual assaultsurvivors don’t even recognize their assault asrape. When we educate ourselves and ourcommunity we can help eradicate these mythsand prevent sexual assault.Myth 1: Rape is most often committed bystrangers – just like with kidnappings – Strangersaren’t the main danger. Over 80% of sexualassaults are committed by someone the victimknows.Myth 2: You didn’t say no, so it’s not sexualassault. Consent isn’t based on a “yes.” Considerthe acronym #FRIES - Freely given, Reversible,Informed, Enthusiastic and Specific. If you don’thave #FRIES there isn’t true consent. If fear is inthe room, consent is not, regardless of whetherthe victim said nothing or even yes. Myth 3: False reports happen all the time: Everysingle study that has been conducted with regardto sexual assaults that are reported to lawenforcement have found that false or unfoundedreports are between 2% and 8%. However, whenyou look at all sexual assault numbers, and not justthe sexual assaults that are reported to lawenforcement, false reports drop to just .62%. Thismeans, that strictly by the numbers, a man is 230xmore likely to be sexually assaulted themselves thanto be falsely accused of sexual assault.Myth 4: It’s not rape or sexual assault if you don’tfight back – Trauma involves instinctive reactions inthe body – Fight, Flight, Freeze is a real thing.Sexual assault is trauma and the brain’s defensemay be to tell the body to freeze, especially if theassailant is bigger, stronger, or holds a position oftrust. Offenders often engage in manipulation,coercion, incapacitation or threats in order to avoida struggle or fight.Myth 5: You shouldn’t have been drinking. There isonly one person responsible for sexual assault, andthat is the person who commits the assault. The factthat a victim was intoxicated doesn’t make it thevictim’s fault. Instead, consider intoxication, theweapon that the assailant used to commit thesexual assault, by exploiting a victim’s vulnerability.By Kathryn Marsh , Prosecutor POVAAuthentic Insider | Page 14

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Myth: Sexual assaultdoesn’t happen that often. Reality: Every 68 secondssomeone in America issexually assaulted andevery 9 minutes the victimis a child.Myth 6: You shouldn’t have been dressed that way.Clothing or lack of clothing does not cause sexualassault. If that was the case every person whostepped out in a bathing suit would be sexuallyassaulted. The only thing that causes sexual assault isthe rapists.Myth 7: You led them on/ You had sex before so itcan’t be sexual assault. Being in a relationship, goingon a date, flirting, etc. does not obligate a person tohave sex. Consent matters in all stages of arelationship and can be retracted at any time. Aromantic partner is not owed sex.Myth 8: If your body responded it’s not rape. Itdoesn’t matter if a victim experienced an erection,lubrication, or had an orgasm. Just like how the brainresponds to trauma, the body also may have physicalreactions that aren’t always controllable. Thesereactions don’t mean that a victim enjoyed,encouraged or consented to the sexual assault. Mostof us have all been tickled at some point when wedidn’t want to, or even if we hated it, but our bodystill laughed.Myth 9: Sexual assault doesn’t happen that often.Every 68 seconds someone in America is sexuallyassaulted and every 9 minutes the victim is a child.Myth 10: Sexual assault only happens to women.One in six men have been sexually assaulted.Myth 11: Sexual assault is an act of passion – SexualAssault is not about passion. Sexual assault is aboutpower, control and violence.Myth 12: You can avoid sexual assault if you avoiddangerous places. The majority of sexual assaultsoccur where someone feels safe. Often in their home(55%), a friends home or other frequently visitedlocation.Authentic Insider | Page 15

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What canyou do?For April let’s work on dispelling rape myths.Share the information on social media,make sure to use SAAM hashtags such as:#SAAM; #SAAM2023; #BelieveSurvivors#FRIESConsent. #30DaysofSAAM;#StopRapeMyths.Wear Teal on Day of Action on April 9 andthroughout the entire month. Post a selfie onsocial media and start a conversationWear Denim on Denim Day on April 26– Thepurpose of denim day is to take a standagainst victim blaming. Take a picture andpost it on social media.Attend a Take Back the Night Event in yourcommunity or online, you can find an eventnear you at takebackthenight.orgAuthentic Insider | Page 16

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Sisterhood AgainstSexual Assault1 9I am writing to you to tell you my story for tworeasons, first and foremost, to bring awarenessto the dangers of not always taking precautionswhen you are anywhere away from home. Ialso want to recognize an amazing group ofwomen who, not only worked miracles in 7days, but have also founded an incredibleorganization to support futurevictims/survivors, Sisterhood Against SexualAssault.On December 31st, 2022, I flew with a friend toPunta Cana, Dominican Republic for a week atan all-inclusive resort. We arrived at the resortaround 5 PM and enjoyed dinner and the NewYear’s Eve band. On Sunday, January 1st wehad breakfast and basically hung out at thepool and met a couple from the D.R. and justenjoyed the sunshine and the beautifulscenery. After dinner, my friend decided theyjust wanted to go up to the room. They had hadenough for the day, and I stayed down andlistened to music and enjoyed theentertainment they had at the resort.Monday, January 2, we again had breakfast andwalked the beach a little bit then headed backto the pool where I participated in water Zumbaand took Salsa lessons poolside, all in the samearea…just enjoying being in the sunshine andthe friendly people. After dinner, my friendstated that they had a headache and justwanted to go to the room again…I had beenreally excited about the theme night that nightas it was the 20’s theme and I had brought theperfect dress for it, so I stayed down again andsat watching the dancers, impressed with theircrazy talent.Next thing I remember was landing from beingIAuthentic Insider | Page 17

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pushed out of a car…I remember this mostlybecause my knees hurt and sort of shocked meto life…next I was being shaken by emergencypersonnel in an alley of the resort and wasliterally lying in a large pool of my own blood. Iwas streaming blood like a faucet from myvagina. I was in and out of consciousness in theambulance and truly don’t remember much atall until I was in stirrups on an operating tablewith a man telling me that I needed to calmdown and stop screaming and watch how Italked to them. Blood was just gushing out ofme, and they told me that somehow I had agash 10 cm long inside my vagina, from eithermetal or glass and they needed to doemergency surgery or I was going to die. Theygave me a spinal block because I could nothandle the pain and the surgeon stated that shehad sewn a 4-inch incision inside of me to stopthe bleeding. The paperwork stated that I hadlost at least 500 cc’s of blood on the operatingtable alone and they stated probably over 1000cc’s prior to arrival. They began transfusionsimmediately following the surgery.I was then told that I had been brutally rapedwith either a knife or some metal or glass objectwhich was used to slice inside of my vagina andthat when they found me, I was barely hangingon to life. I was told to call my children and letthem know what was going on and to give themany instructions as to what to do in case ofdeath (life insurance, 401K info etc). That wasthe hardest thing that I have ever done. Thenext 24 hours were more of the nightmare…noone spoke English, no one wanted to help, I wasnauseous and was told to just turn my head andthrow up on my sheets, which they then foldedover and never changed. I lied in blood-soakedsheets for the entire time that I was there andwent through 3 more transfusions.The doctor came in in the afternoon of January3rd and told me that I needed at least 2 moretransfusions but that my bill was already $8,000and I would need to pay that before I wasallowed to leave the hospital. I informed themthat as a single mom I don’t have that kind ofmoney just laying around and could not paythat at all. The office administrator then came inwith security and stated that if I did not pay theamount due, I would be arrested and held untilit was paid. I made calls to family members andborrowed from them and drained my son’scollege funds so that I could just get home. Thedoctor then came back and told me that mykidneys were shutting down and he wasn’t surethat I would make the trip back to the states. Hesaid that it was more likely that my kidneyswould shut down before I arrived back to theUSA. He stated that every test and everytransfusion would be another $1,000 but it wasnecessary for me to live. I did not have that andstated that I would take my chances and gohome. He stated that his ethical duty wascomplete when he saved my life, as I was verynear death when I arrived. I left after signingthat I was leaving against doctor’s advisement.Flight plans were changed for me to leaveWednesday morning instead of Saturday so thatI could get back to the USA and to the hospital "I was being shaken byemergency personnelin an alley of theresort and was literallylying in a large pool ofmy own blood."Authentic Insider | Page 18

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here. In the meantime, my girlfriend back homehad contacted the Embassy in the D.R. and toldthem about my horrific ordeal. I heard from theEmbassy first on my shuttle from the resort tothe airport and then at the airport about anhour from boarding the plane.In the secondconversation I was told that if I wanted to fileany criminal charges that I would need to go tothe Magistrate’s Office of Gender Crimes andthat would need to be done prior to me leavingthe country. The Embassy stated that there hadbeen a recent history of bartenders druggingsingle tourist’s drinks and recently they weretaken off grounds so that the resort was notresponsible. I was not willing to risk my life tostay and find them and meet with them andsimply wanted to get back to my country. My girlfriend had called the hospital (AtriumPineville) to alert them that I was coming and letthem know about my situation. By the time that I arrived at the airport in theD.R. I couldn’t walk, my legs were swollen aboutthree times their size and I could not straightenthem out. I was in a wheelchair the entire triphome. The words from the doctor keptrepeating in my head that my kidneys wereshutting down and I may not make it home.After arriving at the hospital, they acted fast andbegan more transfusions…I had several morehere in the states. I experienced a small heartattack during the second night and the third daythe lower half of my lungs collapsed, and I had atough time breathing. I was hospitalized herefour days and released to recover at home oncemy blood levels were at a stable level. I have been in therapy twice a week since Ireturned and know that I still have a long way togo but would not be as far as I am had it notbeen for a wonderful group of women that Iliterally consider my lifesavers. On Fridayafternoon, January 6th I contacted a neighborjust to ask that they pray for me and keep me intheir thoughts after explaining the entire ordeal.Little did I know that she had been a SpecialInvestigator for Sex Crimes for the Departmentof Homeland Security…this hit home for her andshe got to work. By 8:00 that evening she hadset up a Go Fund Me account to help with my$8,000 of hospital bills and a food chain ofneighbors to deliver food three times aweek.During the following week, she organizeda group “Sisterhood Against Sexual Assault” andhad t-shirts made with all profits going to the"The words fromthe doctor keptrepeating in myhead that mykidneys wereshutting down andI may not make ithome."Authentic Insider | Page 19

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organization and began working on donations for abasket raffle the following Friday. Through Facebookposts and flyers, they advertised the Benefit thatwas held at Queens South in Waxhaw and thebasket raffle. Through the Go Fund me and benefitthey have raised over $10,000 for the cause. Theycompletely paid my medical bills and have theadditional money to use for future victims/survivors.They have now incorporated this organization as aNon-profit organization and have not stoppedworking. They have put together over 20 bundles forthe emergency room at the Waxhaw hospital thatconsist of all of the things that I wish that I had had…pajama pants (because they take your clothes),hairbrush, hair ties, facial washcloths, gum, socksetc. These will be given to victims/survivors thatarrive in the emergency room. There are many otherfundraisers planned but I know that the financialneed to assist in the manner that the group wouldlike to assist others is huge, so any additionaldonations are always appreciated.I know that my journey to recovery is far from overand this group has been instrumental in helping methrough it and through my hours of counseling (withmany more to come) I refuse to let this act of pureevil define who I am…I will not ever think of myselfas a victim…I am a survivor.Out of Angela's nightmare, the SisterhoodAgainst Sexual Assault was created to helpother victims of sexual violence. SASA is anon-profit foundation supporting Survivorsand Families of Sexual Abuse. SASA hasstarted fundraising. As per the nonprofitsBoard Members, there will be numerousexciting events coming up for training,learning and awareness of Sexual Assault, allof which have fees associated with them. Weare also in the process of making reliefpackages for survivors, victims and families.We are a non-profit foundation supportingSurvivors and Families of Sexual Abuse.What is SASA?For more info, listen to Episode 91 of ATSTPAuthentic Insider | Page 20

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FINDINGPLEASUREAFTER SEXUALVIOLENCEW R I T T E N B Y M E G A N S T O N E RI thought as an advocate & survivor of sexualassault I thought I knew all there was to healing untilmy boyfriend and I tried to make love. Thefrustration & tears that came from the experience ofme feeling blocked in my own body left medreading even attempting to have sex. I had begun to look into alternative forms of healingwhen it felt therapy wasn’t enough. I began on along journey of researching body work & decided totake the most unique approach since traditionalmethods had not worked for me. I tapped into my own emotions, and decided to try adifferent type of body work that may be seen tosome as just future abuse. Let me speak very clearlywhen I say I believe there are good & badpractitioners out there that will provide thisexperience. I believe wholeheartedly in finding agood fit with a practitioner and being able to fullytrust and surrender to the process. Those wordsseem scary for us that have been through abusewhich is why rapport & trust in the practitioner thatyou choose is so important. For my practitioner & I, we started our session(s) witha conversation in which he calls RBDSM (nice takeon the traditional BDSM acronym). RelationshipStatus, Boundaries, Desires, Sexual health, Meaning(what is the greater meaning of this experience foryou?) at the beginning of a body work session, thereis much time spent around boundaries & intentions. For my first experience, I found it absolutely crucialto take the idea of having an orgasm, off the tablecompletely. I did not want to be pressured intohaving an orgasm and that be my only focus. Iwanted to connect with my body again, I wanted tounderstand where and how to feel pleasure again. Iwanted to understand where my trauma was beingstored in my body & how to start tapping into thattrauma to release it. The day of the session, I was honestly mentallychecked out. It had been a weekend of sorts for me,almost everything that could go wrong did- did Imention that we also had a pipe bust in the kitchen24 hours before my session was set to begin?! IAuthentic Insider | Page 25

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When reflecting upon the moment that haschanged my journey- my coach had this to say “Yeait just flowed through me. I almost regretted it rightafter I said it - thinking it might have been too harsh.But I’m so glad that you were strong enough to staywith the process.” So what’s the point of me writing this? Don’t beafraid to approach the unique pathway of healing.Don’t be afraid to push up against your edges in thislife. And for goodness sakes, get out of your ownway. Complaining & victim mentality may be whatyou’re used to- but what’s on the other side of thismountain is so much more freeing and so muchmore sustainable. I owe it to my coach, Haribo for sticking with methrough every tear I’ve cried and laugh I’ve chuckledduring this process and never ever allowing me toquit knowing my potential is so much more thanthat of someone who gives up. I honestly had decided that morning that I really didn’twant to do this, I wanted to back out. I was really nervous& unsure of how things might unfold between my coach(practitioner) & I that day. When we both arrived to the session, I was incrediblyanxious and honestly praying I could just mentally checkout like I do during my traditional massage work I’ve haddone or my chiropractic adjustments. I found out verysoon that this was about to be the opposite of thoseexperiences and thank goodness! All throughout the session, my coach checked in with meand noticed where I was storing trauma in my body.There was a specific part during the yoni massage that Icompletely checked out and felt like I couldn’t continue.The trauma that came up felt impossible. It was in thatmoment that the transformation took place. Somethingso far much greater than an orgasm happened for me. I realized how much I had stood in the way of my ownhealing during the last 8 years of trying to heal.Something about the person leading the session, hisauthority and stature told me he wouldn’t allow me towaste this session and I tried to be done. I wanted to quit.I was like but this is too much, and then I realized that Ihad become so complacent in my own healing that I wasnever going to fully heal without that push of “don’twaste this f*cking session”. I learned that I enjoyed thevictim mentality. I enjoyed every person in my lifethrowing me a pity part. Oh- she was abused, so wewon’t challenge her. It literally took a brand newprofessional that didn’t know my story to reveal a largerproblem- that I, myself, had stood in the way of my ownhealing. I’m so grateful that my paths have crossed withthis very intuitive soul that has pushed me far greaterthan I could ever imagine and unlocked a whole newpotential for healing in my life. Weeks later, after a chance to finally come out of thatstate my boyfriend & I to turn around the book we werewriting that neither of us felt invested in- to a book I’mnow writing about my sacred sexuality journey. Authentic Insider | Page 26

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Coaches Who Harass and More: Why Aren’t They Fired?Written by Karen Gross, Trauma Educator ook at this chart of mental health needscreated by Crazyhead Comics. Note these layers— — support, healthy relationships, empathy.Now ask yourself about the behavior of theHarvard University women’s hockey coach whichincluded, but was not limited to, berating players,hazing, disrespect, naked skates where womenplayers were encouraged to skid on the ice ontheir fronts (leading to ice burns and bleedingnipples). This piece is about institutional failure,not about why the coach did what she did fordecades and what sanctions should be placed onher although the latter topic is worthy too.See attached articles on the coach’s behavior. Youcan’t make this stuff up, and, get this: it wasrepeatedly reported within the University. Thiswas not an unknown set of behaviors. They hadbeen going on for years. People knew.Where Are the Role Models?Here’s what I want to know. If a university with asmuch standing, reputational heritage, stature andmoney as Harvard cannot and will not sanction amisbehaving coach (a kindly characterization),which universities will?This coach’s actions are not acceptable here oranywhere. We cannot have coaches who don’thave the students’ best interests at heart andwho behave in ways that are denigrating anddiscriminatory and abusive. Winning isn’teverything and there is no excuse for repeatedpoor coach behavior. It is inconsistent with whowe are as an institution. Accordingly, andwithout delay, based on a thoroughinvestigation and interviews with current andpast players and assistant coaches, we aredismissing the Harvard Women’s Hockey Coachinstanter. She did a disservice to her playersand herself and this university.Whether there are NCAA violations will bedetermined and we will self-report the actions.Whether the coach committed criminal acts willbe determined by the appropriate authoritiesand we have notified them. We will be offeringfree ongoing mental health counseling to allcurrent and past players who were on thiscoach’s teams, and those who seek/sought helpfrom other providers will be reimbursed for pastand present and future counseling. This is theleast we can do to right the wrongs committedunder our watch. We ask all affected studentsand alums to reach out to our specificallydesignated free hotline (XXX — xxx-xxxx) to getwhatever mental health needs they have metand reimbursed. Reports and actions based onthe hotline are confidential.Why wouldn’t Harvard publicly deal with thisissue (privately too) and say, write and distributesomething like:LAuthentic Insider | Page 28

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1 9No such statement ever appeared. The coachhas not been fired. And I ask yet again: if one ofour top universities does not role model qualitybehavior and sanction misbehavior among itsfaculty and staff and coaches, what institutionwill?There would have been zero or negligible long-term damage to the institution itself if Harvardhad acted fast. (Yes, students/alums wouldhave been damaged). Instead, there wouldhave been a showing, in fact, of a commitmentto integrity and quality sports. But, by delayingand allowing bad behavior to persist overyears, the institution has done damage tomany, and it is lasting and recompense is inorder."If one of our topuniversities does not rolemodel quality behavior andsanction misbehavioramong its faculty and staffand coaches, whatinstitution will?"I Don’t Get ItStill, I just don’t get it. Maybe in the 1950’s(women didn’t play collegiate hockey then if mymemory and understanding of the law is right),it was more “acceptable” for coaches to betyrants and institutions did not respond tocomplaints if they were even made orresponded to behind the scenes. Maybe that’strue, although I don’t excuse bad behavior theneither. And surely, we didn’t have as public away to learn of the bad behavior and repeatedreports to those in charge of athletics decadesago. People are starting to report although evennow this isn’t easy and sadly, to this very day,there is a steep price for reporting wrongs. Justask Dr. Blasey Ford and Professor Anita Hill.Our world has surely been rocked off its axisover the past several years. Mental health isdeclining. Students are struggling. And yet, aleading university thinks itself above the normsof behavior we ask for and teach about andlaud.Authentic Insider | Page 29

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I worry about our educational institutions. Iworry about trauma. I worry about the nextgeneration. I worry about all the disasterssurrounding us — those people made andthose nature made. I worry about ourcapacity to be decent and kind andconnected to others. I worry about violence.I did not think I or anyone else had to worryin 2023 about elite universities ignoring badbehavior for years. Didn’t we learn fromprior scandals? Didn’t we learn from PennState? Didn’t we learn from coaches beingbribed to let even non-athletes onto athleticteams? Didn’t we learn from the JeffreyEpstein saga that dragged in a host of well-known individuals into his orbit? Haven’t welearned about the epigenetic transmissionof trauma?Beats me. I just don’t get it. Can’t be money.Can’t be reputation. Can’t be ignorance.Can’t be denial. Explain it to me.Here’s one thought: Could it be that Harvardconsiders itself so above the norms thatgovern the rest of us that, as an institution,it can ignore blatant misbehavior because ofpride, elitism, and hubris? Some individualssee themselves as above the law too. Weknow about them.Whatever the reason for Harvard not acting(and why the coach behaved as she did isanother story altogether), it can’t be good.Of that, I am sure."I worry about ourcapacity to be decent andkind and connected toothers. I worry aboutviolence"Authentic Insider | Page 30

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As the mental health crisis reaches devastating levels post pandemic, more and more people arelooking for ways to manage their mental health. How does a childhood sexual abuse survivor, a veteran struggling with PTSD and an athletesuffering from Traumatic Brain Injuries (TBI), trauma, and addiction find effective healing andrelief? Psychedelics. A treatment that was studied and used as effective treatment for mental health disorders until itwas banned and categorized as a schedule I drug in the 1970s, psychedelics have providedmuch needed relief for thousands of people suffering from trauma and mental health issues.Regardless of the laws banning these treatments, the people who understood the power of thesemedicines feel more empowered to find ways to help others find healing through them. On thefollowing page click on the graphic to view the Proof of Concept for "Our Own PersonalRealities." An Upcoming Documentary about the Fight toBring Psychedelic Healing Back into the LightAuthentic Insider | Page 32

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I get myself grounded or“centered“ on a regular basis in afew ways: hiking with my dog, drawing, yoga, etc. so I discuss how they became habit.Healing throughthe ArtsAuthentic Insider | Page 36 with with Cali Fae BinstockCali Fae BinstockGROUNDING TECHNIQUES THATI USE TO COMBAT STRESSHOW TO DRAWAN EYEEYE DRAWING + GROUNDING I talk about how to draw an eye. I reallyexperiment with color and get swept up in theprocess, I invite you to do the same no matterwhat media you use! Draw or sketch somethingwith me - doodles are acceptable! I’m usingPhotoshop on my iPad with the Apple Pencilwhich allows me a lot of flexibility like changingcolors easily. Coloring in an interesting adultcoloring book could help you achieve the samesense of meditation that I feel when “lost“ inart making.

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STRESS RELIEF PLAYLIST “Echos of Time” - R. Carlos Nakai“The Winding path“ - Kevin Kern“Weightless” - marconi union“Twilight Fades” - Dan Gibson's solitude"Anything you synthesize” - The american dollar“at peace” - Paul Avgerinos“ginger and lime” - spice rack“morning rays” - Ferr, Ferry corsten“comfort chain” - instupendo“Infinite” -alex lustig“clairty” - paul avgerinos“A Change in fortunes” - human bell“Speaking quietly” - Blank Gloss“awst” - bowsa, casual chill “mente libera” -cloudville April is Stress AwarenessMonth and one of the bestways to alleviate stress is tomeditate. Here is the playlistthat I've used during mymeditations in the morningwhen I fully take advantage ofearly morning wake ups. Ihope you enjoy!Authentic Insider | Page 38

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First time jitters are normal, but when they turn into tears andoutright refusal, the world shrinks in problematic ways. Facing MightyFears About Trying New Things teaches children to manage uncertaintyabout new experiences. Fun Facts engage children while a Note toParents and Caregivers and a supplemental Resource section makethis the perfect guide for parents and mental health professionals.Did you know that worries are like tomatoes? No, you can’t eat them,but you can make them grow, simply by paying attention to them. What to Do When You Worry Too Much is an interactive self-helpbook designed to guide 6 – 12 year olds and their parents through thecognitive-behavioral techniques most often used in the treatment ofgeneralized anxiety. Metaphors and humorous illustrations makedifficult concepts easy to understand, while prompts to draw and writehelp children to master new skills related to reducing anxiety.*I am a participant in the Amazon Services LLC Associates Program, an affiliate advertising program designed to provide a means to earn fees by linking to Amazon.com and affiliated sites.Authentic Insider | Page 39Wouldn’t it be great if you could climb into bed, snuggle under yourcovers, and fall asleep without any fuss or fear? Without listening fornoises or thinking about bad guys? Without an extra drink, or anextra hug, or an extra trip to the bathroom? Bedtime is tough formany kids. What To Do When You Dread Your Bed is the complete resource foreducating, motivating, and empowering children to fall asleep and stayasleep – like magic!

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Stop Overthinking is a book that understands where you’ve been through,the exhausting situation you’ve put yourself into, and how you lose yourmind in the trap of anxiety and stress. Acclaimed author Nick Trenton willwalk you through the obstacles with detailed and proven techniques to helpyou rewire your brain, control your thoughts, and change your mentalhabits.What’s more, the book will provide you scientific approaches tocompletely change the way you think and feel about yourself by ending thevicious thought patterns.Books to HelpRelieve Stress(FOR ADULTS)Awaken to Your True Self is a practical guide on transformation,embodiment, and shadow work. It integrates holistic perspectives fromsomatic therapy, mindfulness, and spirituality to help you get unstuck.Andrew Daniel grounds timeless spiritual truth in approaches and exercisesthat help where traditional self-help fails. These approaches defyconventional advice—and that’s exactly why they work when nothing elsedoes.Burnout. Many women in America have experienced it. What’s expected ofwomen and what it’s really like to be a woman in today’s world are two verydifferent things—and women exhaust themselves trying to close the gapbetween them. How can you “love your body” when every magazine coverhas ten diet tips for becoming “your best self”? How do you “lean in” atwork when you’re already operating at 110 percent and aren’t recognizedfor it? How can you live happily and healthily in a sexist world that isconstantly telling you you’re too fat, too needy, too noisy, and too selfish?*I am a participant in the Amazon Services LLC Associates Program, an affiliate advertising program designed to provide a means to earn fees by linking to Amazon.com and affiliated sites.Authentic Insider | Page 40

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According to the cards, many of you are experiencing a rush of unconditional love; whether from yourself, someone else,and/or the universe. There may be a person who is looking at your photos reminiscing about the good times and missingyou. They want to reach out but there may be reasons that person is holding back. This person wants to rekindle afriendship, or a relationship.Couples who are in love are showing more appreciation and gratitude this month. Maybe this is something you want moreof in your marriage or relationship. Many of you could be self-reflecting and practicing introspection about life,relationship, or a marriage. Singles may be falling in love soon. For singles, you are healing your heart from pastheartbreaks. Now is a good time to focus on yourself and have faith that love is coming your way. When you focus on you,then that inspires others to do the same. I see that some are healing and want to manifest success in a relationship or just abundance and prosperity in their lives.Change is coming and a renewal a person has been praying for is in their future. But there is a person who is having somedoubts due to their insecurities.Not all but some people in the collective could be feeling depressed during this time. Could be many factors such as arelationship, life circumstances, and just the way the world is. It will get better. Always remember that you are not aloneand there is someone who will support you. Balance is needed to be restored to make things right. I do feel that many ofyou are getting a new beginning in life, a second chance at love, or abundance etc. Commitment is coming. And for some,a new way of thinking is needed in order to move to the next level in your life.In regard to abundance and finances, there will be successful funding coming in. There are many ideas that you have. Besure to act on them. Someone could be in need of your product. service, or idea. Also, a lot of you will be attracting thepeople, places, and things you want in your life. In the past, I feel you have been a chaser and have never gotten whatyou’ve wanted or desired. Now, you are surrendering and letting go. But remember to keep your faith and take actionaccordingly etc. Other cards are saying it’s time to take a divinely guided chance when it comes to new ventures. Finally, it would be good to cooperate with others instead of being competitive. Someone also needs to release jealousenergy. There is no lack or limitation. Try your best to only speak words of abundance. Monthly Collective ReadingsMonthly Collective Readings for All Signsfor All Signswith Joy Larkin (April 1, 2023 - April 30, 2023) Joy is a Narcissistic AbuseSurvivor who has made it her life'swork to help others through lifecoaching. She is also a healer,earth angel and psychic medium.If you would like coaching servicesfrom Joy and/or get your ownpersonal reading, please scan thebarcode below with yoursmartphone camera.READINGSPersonalINFOCoachingAuthentic Insider | Page.41