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September 2023SUICIDE AWARENESS &PREVENTIONSeptember is Suicide Prevention AwarenessMonth. Know the signs!I’M NOT DUMB, I’M NUMBHow disassociation from trauma canappear as behaviorial issues.InsiderOPENING DOORS &MOVING FORWARDSometimes when one door closes, it’s asign to not stay stuck but to openanotherSuicideAwareness &PreventionMonth

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Dear Readers, September is Suicide Prevention and Awareness Month. We kick itoff with a piece by our Prosecutor POV Contributor Kathryn Marshwho discusses the statistics, signs of suicidal ideation and how youcan help.What is it like carrying the burden of childhood trauma while actingout the role of an high functioning member of society… alone?Ashley Campbell shares her personal struggles with childhoodtrauma.A cancer diagnosis was the beginning of her transformation to healfrom the inside out. Jesse De La Morena reveals how her cancerunleashed her inner hero.Trauma Educator Karen Gross shares her piece about openingdoors to find opportunities when it feels like all hope is lost. And as in every issue, we have our monthly AIM Fall in LOVE withYOURSELF Playlist, along with my picks for children and adultbooks about mental health. Plus, check out Joy Larkin's Twin FlameReadings to see what's in store for you this month.Happy Reading!Lorilee BinstockAuthentic Insider | Page 02editor's noteLorilee BinstockEditor in Chief

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Kathryn MarshProsecutor POVSuicide Awareness &PreventionMonthly ContributorsMonthly ContributorsCali BinstockCreative DirectorLynn BinstockCopy EditorJoy LarkinTwin Flame ReadingsAuthentic Insider | Page 03

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Ashley CampbellContributorI'm Not Dumb, I'm NumbKaren GrossContributorOpening Doors & MovingForwardAuthentic Insider | Page 04CONTRIBUTORSJessa De La MorenaContributorHow Having Cancer UnleashedMy Inner Hero

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Y O U RS E P T E M B E R2 0 2 3 I S S U EProsecutor's POV: Kathryn Marsh11 Suicide Awareness & Prevention33 AIM Playlist34 Recommended Books36 Joy's Twin Flame ReadingI N E V E R Y I S S U EAuthentic Insider | Page 05I N T H I S I S S U E29 Opening Doors and Moving Forward15 I’m NOT Dumb. I‘m NumbBy : Karen Gross 19 291519 How Cancer Unleashed My Inner HeroBy: Ashley CampbellBy: Jessa De La Morena

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Authentic Insider | Page 09 Suicide doesn’t end thechances of life gettingworse, it eliminatesthe possibility of itever getting anybetter. – Unknown

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Sideation. In fact, a study in 1992, Rape in America: A reportto the nation[ii], found that approximately one third ofsexual assault survivors had contemplated suicide, furthersurvivors are ten times more likely to attempt suicidewhen compared to individuals who had not experiencedsexual assault. Additionally, survivors who firstexperienced sexual assault prior to the age of 16 are threeto four times more likely to attempt suicide whencompared to survivors who were sexually assaulted afterthe age of 16.[iii]Intimate partner violence (IPV) victimization andperpetration may also be a precursor to suicide. [iv] Arecent study by the UNC Gillings School of Global PublicHealth and the Injury Prevention Research Center foundthat in 6.1% of all suicides, intimate partner violence was aprecursor. This finding, generalized nationally, suggeststhat there are over 2,900 IPV related suicides each year.Surprising, this study found that it wasn’t just survivors ofIPV who had an increased risk of suicide, but alsoperpetrators. When examining men who committedsuicide with an IPV background, 73% of the men who hadcommitted suicide had recently perpetrated IPV. This is SEPTEMBER ISNATIONALSUICIDEPREVENTIONAWARENESSMONTHW R I T T E N B Y K A T H R Y N M A R S H P R O S E S C U T O R ' S P O VSeptember is National Suicide PreventionAwareness Month. The statistics surroundingsuicide in the U.S. are staggering. One death everyeleven minutes. In 2021, 48,000 people died bysuicide, 12.3 million people contemplated suicide,3.5 million people made a plan for suicide and 1.7million people attempted suicide[i]. While there is rarely a single cause or event leadingto suicide, a range of environmental and geneticfactors can increase an individual’s risk. Victims ofcrime often experience increased individual riskfactors, specifically individuals who haveexperienced sexual violence, adverse childhoodexperiences and intimate partner violence.Sexual assault survivors are more likely to bediagnosed with depression, anxiety, and post-traumatic stress disorder than individuals who havenot experienced sexual assault. While thesediagnoses may not seem surprising due to thetrauma the survivor experienced, these mentalhealth conditions can play a role in suicidal[i] CDC.gov [ii] What Puts Survivors at Increased Risk for Suicide and How to Help, Kyra Laughlin, NSVRC citing Kilpatrick, D.G., Edmunds, C.N., & Seymour, A.K. (1992). Rape in America: A report tothe nation. Arlington, VA: National Victim Center and Medical University of South Carolina[iii] Davidson, J.R.T., Hughes, D.C., George, L.K., & Blazer D.G. (1996). The association of sexual assault and attempted suicide within the community. Arch Gen Psychiatry, 53(6), 550-555[iv] Kafka, Julie, Moracco Kathryn (Beth), Taheri, Caroline, et al Intimate partner violence victimization and perpetration as precursors to suicide https://doi.org/10.1016/j.ssmph.2022.101079Authentic Insider | Page 11

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These statistics do not mean that suicide is the end result oreven likely the result for survivors of violence, rather theyhighlight an increased risk for survivors, if left untreated andif survivors are left without family, friends or communitysupport. Psychology Today provides a list of things everyone can doto help stop suicide[vii], some of these everyday thingsinclude: 1) Remove the Stigma – Talk about it. Check in with yourloved ones to see if they are having suicidal thoughts orideation.Let them know they’re not alone in those thoughtsand it’s ok to talk about and seek help.2) Learn the Warning Signs – These signs can include but arenot limited to: disturbed sleep patterns; anxiety; isolation;self-hating or self-harming thoughts; feelings that a persondoesn’t belong; feeling trapped; hopelessness; feeling likenothing matters; and risk-taking behaviors.not to diminish the risk to survivors of IPV. AWHO multi-country study found that womenwho had experienced intimate partnerviolence were three times more likely to havecontemplated suicide and almost four timesmore likely to have attempted suicide whencompared to women who had neverexperienced intimate partner violence.[v]Child Abuse carries its own unique increasedrisk for suicide. Research studies found thatchildren who experience physical, sexual, andemotional abuse or neglect are at least two tothree times more likely to attempt suicidelater in life. Broken down the research found:individuals who experienced child sexualabuse were three times more likely to attemptsuicide; Individuals who experienced physicalabuse were two and a half times more likely,as were individual who had experiencedemotional abuse or neglect as a child.[vi]Child Abuse carries itsown unique increasedrisk for suicide.Research studies foundchildren are at least twoto three times morelikely to attempt suicidelater in life. [v]Bandara, Piumee Intimate Partner Violence, Suicide and Self-Harm: Uncovering the Links. www.nationalelfservice.net/mental-health/suicide/intimate-partner-violence-suicide-self-harm/[vi] Child Abuse Linked to Risk of Suicide in Later Life, 2019, University of Manchester; https://www.sciencedaily.com/releases/2019/01/190109192533.htmAuthentic Insider | Page 12

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Call or text 988Chat at 988lifeline.orgResources:National Suicide Prevention Lifeline Website: https://suicidepreventionlifeline.org/ English: 1-800-273-8255 Spanish: 1-888-628-9454 Hearing impaired/Deaf: 1-800-799-4889Online chat:https://suicidepreventionlifeline.org/chat/ Crisis Text Line: Text HOME to 741741Contact the 988 Suicide and Crisis Lifeline if you areexperiencing mental health-related distress or areworried about a loved one who may need crisissupport.Veterans and Military Crisis Line:connects Veterans in crisis and their families andfriends with qualified, caring VA respondersthrough a confidential toll-free hotline, online chat,or text. 1-800-273-8255 and Press 1chat online at VeteransCrisisLine.netChat, or send a text message to 838255 3) Learn how to reach out and connect. Trainingsare available online and at community healthcenters for individuals to help recognize thewarning signs of suicide, learn how to connectwith a loved one or approach the topic, and howto get help.4) Know the Resources Available – several arelisted at the end of this article. The CDC alsoprovides a Suicide Prevention Resource for Actiononline at CDC.gov.September is National Suicide PreventionAwareness Month and September 10 is WorldSuicide Prevention Day. I encourage everyone tocheck out the American Foundation for SuicidePrevention website for resources and guides butalso to see where the closest “Out of the DarknessWalk” is near you.These walks are heldnationwide in support of all those impacted bysuicide and suicidal ideation. Lets all raiseawareness, help reduce the stigma and send amessage that no one is alone.Let’s all raise awareness, help reduce the stigmaand send a message that no one is alone.Authentic Insider | Page 13

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AI ' M N O TD U M B ,Anyone else? A constant state ofnumbness and confusion is somethingI don't hear that many people talkabout with PTSD, but they were mypredominant feelings and emotionsgrowing up and sometimes they'reback as an adult. I realize now that Iwasn't dumb, I was numb and in aperpetual state of shock. I had troublelearning, concentrating, and retaininginformation from elementary schoolall the way through college. I was toldI was learning disabled by familymembers and I believed it.Looking back it felt like life wasmoving in slow motion and that I wasoutside of it, or like I was in a cocoonor a web of some sort; hazy, confused,numb. I know now that it was mybrain protecting me. I guess I shouldbe thankful. The most specificexample I can give is something thathappened multiple times in middleschool where I walked out of school,mid-day, completely unaware thatschool was still in session. I was a nicekid, so nobody asked questions. Iwalked all the way home only toWritten by Ashley CampbellI’M NUMBI’M NUMBI’M NUMBAuthentic Insider | Page 15

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realize that I arrived two to three hours earlybecause the TV show that I watched every dayat 3pm, wasn't on. Then I looked at the clockand felt shocked, confused, sick to mystomach, and possibly in trouble. I had donesomething very wrong and I also didn'tunderstand why or how it happened. I felt...dumb. I had no siblings and I also felt veryalone.I feel that to give readers reference to whatcaused this, I must name it. I will because it'snecessary for people to understand andpossibly relate to, but I don't like to becauseeach parent or step-parent went throughsomething similar in their own childhood, andso it's a cycle and there's an argument to bemade that it's no fault of their own. In noparticular order from the age of four untilcollege, I was in a home with a parent withmental illness, and a home with a parent ofaddiction. It was a place of anger, alcoholism,bi-polar disorder, violence (smashed cars anddishes), molestation, multiple divorces andloneliness. My parents tried, but they too wereoverwhelmed by childhood trauma,combined with trying to forge careers and amodicum of success. Again, it's a cycle.I suppose my mind decided it was all toomuch, and often shut down. Self-preservation? When I was, "awake," I tried mybest to be one less burden and to be perfect. Istudied my family members who we visiteddown south who were happy, put together,went to church and had a life of community,connection and meaning. All of that input justsat in my brain and I'd scoop it out on theoccasions where I felt alive and aware. I usedthem as my roadmap when I could, and stilldo to this day.How do I feel as an adult? Oh gosh... I'm allover the map. First the good things.Fortunately, somehow, I married an amazingand supportive husband who's smart, funnyand understanding. I have two beautiful kids,a wide array of wonderful friends and I'vestarted my own business where humanconnection takes center stage. What's best?I'm able to relate to SO many kinds of peoplebecause of my past, and I LOVE that. It's myfavorite quality about myself and I owe mymessed up childhood to it. On the flip side,I'm still caring for one parent who's sufferingfrom addiction, so that's ongoing and oftenknocks me off my feet with feelings ofI suppose myI suppose myI suppose mymind decidedmind decidedmind decidedit was all tooit was all tooit was all toomuch, andmuch, andmuch, andoften shutoften shutoften shutdown.down.down. Authentic Insider | Page 16

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numbness, flashbacks, exhaustion, confusion,resentment and sense of being overwhelmed.I'm often tired, which I hate because I'vecreated such a full life and need to be up forit. Even the simple things like online schoolforms for my kids, can feel overwhelming anddifficult. Some days I put one foot in front ofthe other. Some days I'm effing amazing.Some days I feel like the wrong look from thecheck-out lady at the grocery store couldmake me cry.What am I doing to feel less numb and morehappy? I rest when I'm tired. I call a friendwhen I need to talk. I unplug from my phoneand social media. I hike and walk outside. Iswim. I go to church. I go to trauma therapyand I hired a life/career coach to help me withthe daily grind and organizing my life and to-do's. Yes.. I hired out some help and at age 48,I've got no shame in that. And just last week Isaid, "NO," to two big things that felt sooverwhelming, they'd been plaguing me forweeks. They're the kinds of things I NEVERwould have thought I could say no to before,but my life coach encouraged me to do it,and it was transformational. The word, no, hasnever really been in my vocabulary but I'mlearning how important it is. Every mom-bookin America talks about it, so I feel cliche evenmentioning it, but the power of, no, is real. I'movercoming the numbness and shock a littlebit, every single day. I'm addressing it. Please...address it if this is you. I hope this helps lots ofpeople, or even just one. You're not dumb orlazy - you've been through the ringer and youdeserve to get help and find joy.Authentic Insider | Page 17

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Authentic Insider | Page 18 “If you want to show me that youreally love me, don’t say that youwould die for me, instead stay alivefor me.” – Unknown

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HOW HAVINGCANCER UNLEASHEDMY INNER HEROImagine that during a routine check up,your doctor´s expression becomes shockedand he is speechless, and after someprodding on your side he tells you he sees alarge malignant-looking tumor that needs abiopsy right then.Imagine that the next day you are told thatthe tumor is indeed an aggressive cancerrarely found in the uterus, indicating that itwas probably a secondary or tertiarytumor, detonating a long week of tests todetermine the situation and what paths wereavailable to move forward toward healing.Unfortunately, none of those scenarios wereimaginary for me. This was the beginning of ajourney that I never hoped to travel, but onethat has changed the trajectory of my life forthe better.After a week of thinking that I was dying andhad tumors spread all over my body, Ireceived the great news that the aggressive Written By Jessa De La MorenaAuthentic Insider | Page 19I

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tumor was localized, and though it wastoo big for surgery, there was thankfullya medical plan available that wouldwork for me. The next day, I had a port-a-cath inserted and began an arduouspath towards healing with combinedchemotherapy, radiation, andbrachytherapy. It sounds like a horriblepath, but I was so happy that cancerhadn’t spread any further and that I hada way forward, that I chose to hold on tothat perspective and stride forward.This is the essence of what I want toshare with you: how managing myperspective has been a vital tool inmanaging my mood and my dispositionthroughout this journey. This meanttaking control of my ability to respond(“response-ability”) to a given situation.I decided that I was going to look for theopportunity in every situation, and thatchanged my perspective dramatically.As my world as I knew it had come to ahalt, nothing made sense any longer,and things were quite confusing for me.But then I thought, “what is theopportunity in this?” and I realized thatin front of me I had the opportunity tocreate my experience and in essence anew life.As my world as I knew ithad come to a halt, nothingmade sense any longer, andthings were quiteconfusing for me. But then Ithought, “what is theopportunity in this?”Authentic Insider | Page 20

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Through word of mouth, I learned aboutcomplementary therapies that couldcomplement my treatment and thatcould help me dig deeper into myselfand look for answers within. I triedeverything that felt right to me,including bio-decoding, psychology,reiki, quantum healing, hypnosis,reflexology, supplements, and dietarychanges. Each of these contributed tomy wellbeing and to my healing journeyin some way. I designed my ownmethods of practicing daily what Ilearned, and this has been instrumentalin integrating concepts that I learnedand turning them into behaviors andvalues to which I am deeply committed.And guess what? This path led me toME. I am the hero I was looking for. Now,this path doesn't end here, and thisjourney will continue for the rest of mylife. I am committed to doing the self-work and introspection to develop andevolve towards deeper and strongerwellbeing.My journey has lasted 5 years so far:chemo, radiation, brachytherapy, aninitial radical remission, surgeries,metastasis in the lungs followed bymore surgeries, and nowimmunotherapy that keeps me cancerfree but brings along some newcompanions on my journey in the formof autoimmune diseases that I amfiguring out how to manage. I have always wished for a communityfor those of us who are on a journey ofpersonal disruption, and I have createdit in U Are The Hero(www.uarethehero.com). U Are TheHero provides anyone going throughdisruption, caretakers, and peopleI am the hero I waslooking for. Now, thispath doesn´t endhere, and thisjourney will continuefor the rest of my life. That is when the deep work began. I am avery resourceful and independent woman,however, for deeper needs, I was looking toothers and to my external world foranswers. I went on a long path of self-discovery, focused mainly on the premiseof taking response-ability for everything.Reaching out to additional medicalpractitioners (outside of my main chosenmedical team) helped me learn moreabout my illness and gave me confidencethat the treatment I was receiving was theright one for me. In this process, I also builtrelationships with them, providing meadditional support when necessary and anenvironment where I could have morecasual discussions.I created a network of friends and familythat could provide me with the support Ineeded. However, I was very selectiveabout who I brought into this network. Ilonged for positive and constructivepeople, and those who had been throughsimilar experiences had pricelesssuggestions for me, helping me getthrough different steps in the journey thatotherwise would have been very painfulsuch as when I lost my hair or when I haveto go to my quarterly checks ups and mywhole world flips upside down again forme, despite the brave face I kept on for theoutside world.Authentic Insider | Page 21

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curious about self-care and wellbeing,access to the health and wellnessprofessionals they need through theinspirational stories of others, as wellas daily empowering routines that areboth supportive and preventative.I invite you to seek out the opportunityto create your own experience and anew outlook on your life. This is deepwork and requires looking inward, butit’s a journey worth taking. Through theprocess of sharing your experiences,building caring support networks, andlearning about new resources in the UAre the Hero community, you will gainthe tools and the courage to discoveryour inner power. YOU are the herothat you have been looking for.Even though disruption can feel lonelyand isolating, I want to remind you thatyou are not alone. I’m sending youmuch strength and love, and areminder that no matter your journey,you are not alone. And oftentimes thehero you are searching for has beenwithin you the whole time.This is deep work andrequires lookinginward, but it’s ajourney worthtaking. Authentic Insider | Page 22

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“Place your hand over yourheart, can you feel it? Thatis called purpose. You’realive for a reason so don’tever give up.” –Unknown

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As the mental health crisis reaches devastating levels post pandemic, more and more people arelooking for ways to manage their mental health. How does a childhood sexual abuse survivor, a veteran struggling with PTSD and an athletesuffering from Traumatic Brain Injuries (TBI), trauma, and addiction find effective healing andrelief? Psychedelics. A treatment that was studied and used as effective treatment for mental health disorders until itwas banned and categorized as a schedule I drug in the 1970s, psychedelics have providedmuch needed relief for thousands of people suffering from trauma and mental health issues.Regardless of the laws banning these treatments, the people who understood the power of thesemedicines feel more empowered to find ways to help others find healing through them. On thefollowing page click on the graphic to view the Proof of Concept for "Our Own PersonalRealities." An Upcoming Documentary about the Fight toBring Psychedelic Healing Back into the LightAuthentic Insider | Page 26

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“Character cannot bedeveloped in ease andquiet. Only throughexperience of trial andsuffering can the soul bestrengthened, ambitioninspired, and successachieved.” — Helen Keller

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or many summers, I went to Jacob’s Pillow in Beckett, MA — afamous dance haven that has been in existence for decades. I wentthere for many summers with my late husband (who physically diedin August 2020 but years earlier mentally with Alzheimer’s Disease)and various friends. Those friends included my now deceased COO,a remarkable woman with whom I had worked as a college presidentclose by — Southern Vermont College in Bennington, VT.The Pillow was a true summer delight. Every visit was magical. Itwas a place to see people and see dance. And, I adore dance.This summer, I decided to accept an invitation from my late COO’shusband David to join him and his family at the Pillow. We would beseeing Dorrance Dance (more on that in a minute). It would be thefirst time either of us had been back since the deaths of ourrespective spouses. Without pause, I said yes to the invite. I hadhoped and fully expected to be going with my romantic partner Joebut for reasons too complicated to share here, I came alone.OPENING DOORS &MOVING FORWARDWritten By Karen Gross, Trauma EducatorAuthentic Insider | Page 29F

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two nights. And the Old Firehouse wasexactly that — a two story free standingbuilding that housed firefighters. See imageabove. (There’s a terrific photo of them onthe wall.) While it lacked the pole (toobad), it had charm and a sense of history. Itfelt homey.When we arrived at the Pillow, it was as Iremembered it. I hadn’t been there in 8years. And Dorrance Dance (whom Iencountered at the Pillow) had come to theCollege when the company was in itsinfancy (it is now world renowned). Andthat event with Dorrance Dance at SVC wasnothing short of a miracle as staff andfaculty and students joined her MasterClass — folks I never knew knew tap.And tap by Dorrance is not the usual tap. Itis novel and sometimes fast and sometimesslow and rhythmic and combined with livemusic, it is creative and bold and filled withsurprises and joy and life. “Tap” as a worddoesn’t begin to capture what Dorrance’stalented troupe accomplishes.So, last night with memories of both theplace and the dance company and thehusband of my COO and past friends and aspouse I walked back in time. And it wastouching and evocative and difficult.Memories filled my head from every source:my marriage, my college presidency, myCOO, my Pillow experiences, MichelleDorrance herself, former donors.I most assuredly hadn’tprocessed what retracingmy steps meant or wouldfeel like. I was justplowing ahead. I most assuredly hadn’t processed whatretracing my steps meant or would feellike. I was just plowing ahead. And I wasalone. I recognized the return’s possibletriggering effects but not the return’spower.I stayed at the Old Firehouse at the RedLion Inn, Stockbridge’s iconic hotel forAuthentic Insider | Page 30

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And within those memories, the presentkept creeping in — my now adult son,my new home in MA on the water, mynew partner, my new work life andwriting and art, my time away fromdance and theater and music duringCOVID. And, my not having retracedcertain steps. Those steps seemed tooclose or too hard or too far.I was wearing sunglasses. Good thingbecause I had tears from memories. AndI was processing as fast as I could — thepast, the present and the future. And inthat haze and daze, filled with a gloriousoutdoor dance performance by youngstudents on the outdoor stage and thena performance at the Ted Shawn Theaterwith Dorrance Dance that words don’tcapture — a simple WOW comes tomind. Or Unfathomable. Or Mind-Bending, I was reflecting and ponderingand swimming along trying to findguardrails where none existed.After the performance and encore, Idrove back to the Old Firehouse and fellasleep immediately and this morning, Iarose and remembered that the check-inperson at the Red Lion Inn hadmentioned that the huge red door of theFirehouse actually opened. I hadn’tfocused on that until that very moment.And, somehow, it seemed like just theright moment (at 7:45 am) to open thatenormous red door — and up it crankednoisily and from the street, I could lookinto the downstairs of the firehouse. Seethe two images — the inside with thedoor closed and the inside with the dooropen.And then it struck me, aided by aconversation with my close friendArlene, that I had just literally andfiguratively opened the door to thefuture. I had walked the past and in sodoing, I opened the door that let thefuture in.I need a new path,going to new places,creating new traditions,new vistas.That Old Firehouse Red Door openedwith a push of a button as if I was readyfor the first time to hit the button. Iopened and closed it twice just to makesure. And yes, as I leave the OldFirehouse shortly, I am readier than I wasbefore these few days to proceed forward— not losing the past but not needing toretrace its steps either. And I did it alone.I need a new path, going to new places,creating new traditions, new vistas,building new memories, trusting my feetand my heart and my mind to move in newdirections. The past doesn’t disappear forsure but a door opens and we can walkthrough if we so choose. And, I can walkwith both old and new friends. It really is achoice and not an easy one to make. I getthat now. I get how hard it is to open adoor. And…..I choose to open and walk through thehuge red door.Authentic Insider | Page 31

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“You can either becrushed by a horrificevent and lose yoursanity, your family andyour life. Or, you can takethis pain that was thrustupon you, to propel intogreatness. You can makeit through this. I know it'shard.” — Marie WhiteAuthentic Insider | Page 32

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FALL IN LOVE WITH YOURSELF"Bejeweled” Taylor Swift“Keep on going” Vivian Green“Feeling myself” Nicki Minaj, Beyonce“Self-care” Savannah Cristina“Self-love” Dreamville“I ain’t stressin’ today” Dear Silas“My future” Billie Eilish“My power” Tierra Whack and Beyonce“I’ll be alright” Tituss Burgess“Be happy” Mary J. Blige“Cozy” Beyonce“Good morning gorgeous” Mary J. Blige“Just you” India Shawn“Good as hell” Lizzo“Young Love” Cleo SOlSeptember is SuicidePrevention & AwarenessMonth and the key tosurviving life’s challenges isto always find love withinyourself through the goodand bad times. Here is amotivational playlist to helpyou fall in love with yourself.Authentic Insider | Page 33

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“Your brain is like a muscle. Just like you work out your muscles tobuild strength, you can work out your brain to get better at managingstress and heal from the effects of trauma.”This book will help kids understand what trauma truly means, how itaffects our minds and bodies, and how movement and relationshipscan help us on our paths to healing. Because no matter what traumaswe may have lived, we all deserve to heal.An empowering picture book that invites us to explore andembrace our emotions from Karamo, talk show host and cultureexpert of Netflix’s hit series Queer Eye, and Jason Brown,.A father and son are caught in a storm and must learn tonavigate the uncertainty together in this poignant picture book bytalk show host and beloved Queer Eye star Karamo Brown and hisson Jason “Rachel” Brown, perfect for reassuring young readers intimes of stress. *I am a participant in the Amazon Services LLC Associates Program, an affiliate advertising program designed to provide a means to earn fees by linking to Amazon.com and affiliated sites.Authentic Insider | Page 34How to teach kids about emotions and feelings?Like teaching themeverything else - using clear words, familiar situations, exciting pictures anda lot of hands-on activities (games, puzzles, coloring pages, etc.) One can, ofcourse, spend time and find various resources online. Or one can get justone book.This book is an excellent educational source that has is all. Thebook includes a cute story that kids can relate to, beautiful illustrationsthat capture children's attention, calming-down activities for kids,instructions to adults on the follow-up activities, emotions cards, feelingscards, coloring pages and related short stories to teach kids empathy.

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This book combines rigor, science, passion and inspiration in equalparts. Too many children and adults are suffering; they are ashamed oftheir feelings and emotionally unskilled, but they don’t have to be. MarcBrackett’s life mission is to reverse this course, and this book can showyou how.MENTAL HEALTHBOOKS (FOR ADULTS)An international epidemic, suicide has touched the lives of nearly half of allAmericans, yet is rarely talked about openly. In this timely and importantbook, Susan Blauner breaks the silence to offer guidance and hope forthose contemplating ending their lives -- and for their loved ones.A survivor of multiple suicide attempts, Blauner eloquently describes thefeelings and fantasies surrounding suicide. In a direct, nonjudgmental, andloving voice, she offers affirmations and suggestions for those experiencinglife-ending thoughts, and for their friends and family. Here is an essentialresource destined to be the classic guide on the subject.When you raise a girl who likes herself everything else follows. She willstrive for excellence because she has faith in her ability to achieve it andthe confidence to pick herself up. She will nurture her physical and mentalhealth because it's natural to care for that which you love. She will be joyfuland secure, knowing that her greatest friend and most capable ally isherself. Raising Girls Who Like Themselves details the seven qualities thatenable girls to thrive and arm themselves against a world that tells themthey are flawed. Packed with practical, evidence-based advice, it is theindispensable guide to raising a girl who likes herself. *I am a participant in the Amazon Services LLC Associates Program, an affiliate advertising program designed to provide a means to earn fees by linking to Amazon.com and affiliated sites.Authentic Insider | Page 35

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For September, it looks like the foundation is crumbling between two people. This could be a business ventureor personal relationships. There could be new relationships and new people that you are meeting very soon.It's also a time where some of you could be starting a new job or business or new opportunities are beingpresented. A particular person could have wanted to reconcile with another. This may not have gone asplanned causing someone to feel very upset.In regards to mental health, I see that some could have been using alcohol, partying, and sex as a way tocope with a loss. No judgement, but it's always good to find better ways of managing any pain that one couldbe enduring.I feel that a lot of people are being called to change and transform their lives. The old ways of the past areno longer working. But a select number of you have lost love for a situation.For singles, I feel like someone is getting married. If you are married, maybe there is a renewal of vows. Onthe other hand, someone is rethinking the marriage they are in and trying to figure out if they are happy ornot. In regards to the marriage, it feels as if many people are getting involved. I see that change is neededbut I feel that person is being resistant to that idea.In terms of work, many could be seeking to change their job and occupation. Many people are looking forwork at this time. I feel that for a select few, there could be feelings of depression and despair from their ownactions. A certain person could be very hard on themselves that a situation is over with feelings of regret andremorse.Overall, I see September being a great month. I do feel many people will experience some challenges,setbacks, and delays. Others may have overcome a lot in their lives so keep up the great work!! Those are themessages for the month of September. To learn more, be sure to book a reading at www.livenarcfree.comMonthly Collective ReadingsMonthly Collective Readings for All Signsfor All Signswith Joy Larkin (September 1, 2023 - September 30, 2023)Joy is a Narcissistic AbuseSurvivor who has made it her life'swork to help others through lifecoaching. She is also a healer,earth angel and psychic medium.If you would like coaching servicesfrom Joy and/or get your ownpersonal reading, please scan thebarcode below with yoursmartphone camera.READINGSPersonalINFOCoachingAuthentic Insider | Page 36