Pretty Girls Get Hurt Too The Novel An Eycing LLC and F A M E production EyceKold 1
Pretty Girls Get Hurt Too  The Novel  An Eycing LLC. and F.A.M.E production  EyceKold  1
THIS BOOK IS A WORK OF FICTION 6 years of imagination Names characters places and incidents are those of the authors imagination and are used for the sole purpose of entertainment Any similarity to a person place event or anything else that has happened in real life is not intentional and is entirely coincidental READER DISCRETION is ADVISED Intense Violence Strong Sexual Themes Content Partial Nudity Profane Language Drug Use 2
THIS BOOK IS A WORK OF FICTION  6    years of imagination   Names, characters, places and incidents are those of the autho...
This is dedicated to all the beautiful girls in the world To all the beautiful women who have felt that pain To all my beautiful ladies who made it through To all beautiful people who prove that pain does not care how you look To my Cryztals and Pretty Girls 3
This is dedicated to all the beautiful girls in the world. To all the beautiful women who have felt that pain. To all my b...
Prologue Page 5 The Pretty Girls Page 27 Who Is Nolanii Page 52 Hello Lele Page 73 She s A Bitch Page 92 Oh Yaaaaasssss Page 106 Magically Delicious Page 133 Chocolate Caramel Page 171 Dear Journal Jay Page 209 Sin City Page 260 Crowd Pleaser Page 282 Holidaze Page 335 Riri and Nyck Page 371 4
Prologue . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . Page 5 The Pretty Girls . . . . . . . . ....
Dear Journal Jay July 25th 2009 I am supposed to be having a wonderful birthday Instead I ve been up for almost 36 hours tryna get a grip my life Every time I close my eyes either I envision some unexplainable shit or something weird happens I ve been doing whatever I can to stay awake because the last time I fell asleep I woke up on a china bus to Florida and I still have no idea how that happened Just a week ago I was reading The Times newspaper and it stated that someone had been arrested in connection to a callous homicide that happened almost a year That someone turned out to be my father a stranger I haven t seen in over 10 years I remembering reading each detail of the front page article and wishing to somehow attend the trail that was scheduled to start today and this morning I sat in the courtroom and watched as the gruesome case began to unfold Right now all I can think about is how my daddy issues are the root cause of the bullshit life I ve been living and while none of it made sense it all seemed to make sense at the same time The past few months of have been hell So many pages of this journal are filled with the drama I m going through Countless entries regarding the heinous murder of my mother pages discussing the international trail of my father and plenty of notes about Mannie and my missing baby Plus things have been extremely weird lately I m still having those crazy dreams and hearing voices whispering and shit I feel like I am going insane and the only person that can help me is dead All this time I ve been praying for my mothers return I didn t want to think she was really gone but her death didn t come as a surprise I kinda felt her leave this earth literally as crazy as it sounds Even though we had been separated for months I used to feel her presence all around me I remember being at my lowest of lows going thru the most fucked up times of my life and still feeling her like a warm embrace Then that day came when I felt nothing and shit has gone from bad to worse ever since Today I sat in the court room and listened to the laundry list of charges my mother s murderer was being charged with I m still tryna understand why my father would do such a thing and at the same time I can t help but recall nostalgic memories that I d long forgotten Seeing him again triggered so many 5
Dear Journal Jay, July 25th, 2009 I am supposed to be having a wonderful birthday. Instead, I   ve been up for almost 36 h...
thoughts of my childhood thoughts that were buried deep in my subconscious I feel like I m losing my mind it s becoming harder to decipher what is real versus what may not be I am questioning whether my entire past is a lie Is it possible that the life I remember living never happened at all I gotta get some sleep it s obvious that this insomnia is getting to me Another day another entry 6
thoughts of my childhood, thoughts that were buried deep in my subconscious. I feel like I   m losing my mind, it   s beco...
Dear Jay I ve been with her since she was born watching over her making sure no harm came her way Until the age of 7 she was nothing but a spoiled brat who lived in a huge mansion with wait staff a nanny and personal drivers She had to be homeschooled where she learned 4 different languages and wrote out each page of the dictionary for the scholars who tutored her Most of her evenings were spent in gymnastics practice or beating someone down in karate class she enjoyed both activities very much Every Sunday she had to sit behind a piano for hours she hated it because it was so boring but she became a talented pianist and could perform almost every classical piece from Beethoven to Stravinsky Sometimes if she had been on her best behavior which included listening to her nanny whom she hated her daddy allowed her to shoot in the backyard She had her pick of guns from glocks to assault rifles and could take them apart and put them together within minutes Her mom struggled with drug abuse and was forced into seclusion by her father so most of her childhood was spent with her treacherous nanny She never knew of the personal demons her mother dealt with however she would find out soon enough Around her 8th birthday her father kissed her cheek for the last time and in an instant everything changed forever She was forced to grow up so fast and see the world for what is really was It was nothing like the sanctuary her father had built behind the fortress that was once her home She and her mom went from having a house to living out of the car Private tutors were traded for public school teachers and though she didn t mind giving up piano lessons she missed karate The only thing that kept her sane was gymnastics it became her refuge Her mother used to be this top notch glamour bitch which I made her into but eventually turned into a rundown crack hoe Drugs destroyed the life that I created and her mom would do anything thing for a fix including going down on men in filthy alleys while she watched Her mother 7
Dear Jay, I   ve been with her since she was born, watching over her, making sure no harm came her way. Until the age of 7...
did all this just because she didn t want to deal with me and the others anymore but even after the extreme lengths her mom went through to get rid of me I was still around and I would be around forever When she was 10 her mom started Working at this strip joint the classiest one to date It was fun at first the owner was nice and allowed her stay at the club while her mother worked even though it was against the rules He even taught her how to shoot pool and play cards She got so good at Poker Spades and Pitty Pat that she began playing for money She hustled all the cash outta those old drunks so much so that they refused to let her sit at the table anymore One day the owner invited her into his huge dark office which overlooked the whole nightclub It was the first time she had ever seen her mother strip but it would be far from the last She felt so ashamed watching her mother s naked body as grubby men groped her and threw crumbled up dollar bills at her feet That s when she made an offer to the owner that he just couldn t resist She swore to do whatever he wanted to keep from ending up like her mother At the time she had no idea what she was promising or just how bad it would end up She sold her soul to the devil and there was nothing I could do to save her I knew the fate of her promise but she was just too young to understand Her name was Nubiana and she was 13 As she would write Another day another entry 8
did all this just because she didn   t want to deal with me and the others anymore, but even after the extreme lengths her...
Dear Jay July 28th 2009 So either I slept for 24 hours or I experienced another blackout whatever The case may be my whole Sunday is unaccounted for I just read the journal entry from last night I guess doesn t have a date on it The handwriting is unfamiliar and its written in 3rd person however this is not the first time it has happened I ve flipped thru this notebook on a few occasions and came across passages that I don t even remember writing They always reveal things that I have long forgotten like when I found out my mother was a prostituting junkie and Mannie but I ll never forget when he first entered my life I ve come to the conclusion that I may know who it is As bizarre as it sounds I also think they are behind all of the weird shit that has been going on lately Up until recently I didn t recall most of my childhood memories before the age of 8 However apparently I had an imaginary friend that may not have been so imaginary I keep trying to believe that this is all just a figment of my vibrant imagination but sometimes I swear I can hear this whisper in my ear directing me on what I should do next I ve just been ignoring them but the voices seem to be getting louder and angrier However how I look listening to the voices in my head On a more important note I went to court this morning just to hear the stupid prosecution start off with my disappearance It was crazy listening to how my own investigation was handled between the inconsistent details and lack of sufficient evidence I realized that I would never be found at the rate they were going It has been almost 5 years since I went missing and the case was getting colder no new leads until now Nubiana Cadence Mariando Garcia went missing at 13 years old last seen Fall of 2004 with her mother who also disappeared around the same time It s assumed that a man named Ghost the 3rd most wanted human trafficker and drug lord in the world is involved Right now prosecution thinks my father is Ghost most of the evidence is circumstantial however my father isn t the mastermind they were looking for No one knows who Ghost is what he looks like or even his real name to be honest But I do Ghost has maintained his anonymity because he left nothing behind no 9
Dear Jay, July, 28th, 2009 So, either I slept for 24 hours or I experienced another blackout, whatever The case may be, my...
victims no witnesses or evidence It s crazy how Feds think they finally caught him but my father was just one of many decoys Ghost had to keep from becoming exposed There is only one person who knows who Ghost really is and that is me To everyone else he is known as Mannie a strip club owner and pimp Trust things are already set in motion for his demise after everything that sadistic fucker put me thru he deserves what s coming The only thing keeping him alive right now is my daughter I haven t seen her since giving birth and he is the only person who knows where she is Today I found out that my daddy dearest may have been an acquainted with Mannie ran drugs for him up until this last unfortunate run After all the years of being held captive Mannie never once acknowledged knowing my father NOT ONE TIME Neither did my mom And the plot thickens Another day another entry 10
victims, no witnesses or evidence. It   s crazy how Feds think they finally caught him, but my father was just one of many...
Dear Journal Jay July 29th 2009 Nefertiti Ana ca Mariando my beautiful Egyptian Dominican and Haitian mother will always and forever be the baddest bitch to ever grace this earth I swear I love my momma but she was a lil coocoo and was an addict as well After my father left things got really bad and she would do just about anything to maintain her habit I ve watched that lady strip even caught her blowing johns just to get her fix but regardless of being hooked and hooking she always made sure I was taken care of There were times when she tried to get cleaned up however it seemed Sobriety had far worse affects than the drugs ever did When clearheaded my mother was a nut case hearing voices and shit When I was younger she would tell me stories about how she used to have all these magical powers and how she used a love spell on my father Like what the fuck I witnessed my mother go thru insane blackouts and violent rages I m surprised she never ended up in the crazy house for real but I loved that crazy lady nonetheless After a while I concluded that my mom was just better off high Sobriety kept her from tricking in the streets but that left us broke and she was just too unstable to hold down a legit job For some reason she couldn t live in her own head My mother was a complete mess and before long the itch would come back stronger than ever and she would vanish for days again She was just caught in a very dangerous cycle but she was just too weak to break it All afternoon I had to be on my best behavior as lawyers invaded her privacy and revealed records from her past They totally dragged her name thru the dirt and it pissed me off so bad that I think I set off the fire alarm and sprinkler system too The whole building had to be evacuated and the trail had to be recessed until tomorrow but I didn t appreciate my father s fancy attorneys trashing my mother They were trying to make her out to be some psychotic prostituting fiend who purposely overdosed after selling her daughter to pay off a drug debt but it didn t happen that way This trial is bittersweet I m learning more about my parents than I ever have known in my whole life Today I found out many times my mom was charged with drug possession and prostitution as well as maybe too much about 11
Dear Journal Jay, July 29th,2009 Nefertiti Ana  ca Mariando, my beautiful Egyptian, Dominican and Haitian mother will alwa...
her disturbed mental history Not only had she been locked up in a few insane asylums but she was also the only survivor when they all burned down to the ground No charges for arson or manslaughter was even brought up because there was never any proof to implicate her This case delved deep into my mothers troubled past exposing every little fucked up detail of her past The jury found out just how unstable my mother was and so did I and for a moment I think we all forgot was the victim and who was on trial Everything is just so surreal right now and to overwhelming I am learning shit about both parent that I never even knew but honestly I think I coulda lived with all this info I am nothing but a product of two very fucked up individuals no wonder my life has been nothing but a series of unfortunate events Another day another entry 12
her disturbed mental history. Not only had she been locked up in a few insane asylums, but she was also the only survivor ...
Dear Journal Jay August 1st 2009 Remember way back I officially found out my mother dead Mannie had kept us apart for Lord knows how long it wasn t nothing new but this time I literally lost track of how many months she and I had been separated She still found strange ways of keeping me comfort tho but that last time I sensed something was very wrong Deep down I knew she wasn t coming back I felt it Then the freaky shit started happening the nightmares that would cause me to wake up in cold sweats and the whispers which made me think I was going crazy Schizo like l my mom But then Mannie gave me a newspaper the first one he had ever allowed me to read and he watched as the front page headline crushed my soul Mother of Missing All star Gymnast found dead in NC due to Heroin OD The article stated that my mom s decomposing body was found in North Carolina almost two months after her death Due to the gruesome extent of disintegration it took a while to even identify her When they ran her DNA it just happened to be a familial match to a cold case out of Florida and only then was is it discovered that she was my mother At that time the details of my whereabouts were still undetermined I had been missing for almost 5 years An amber alert was issued since I was still under the age of 18 however it was too late I would never be found To this day I never believed my mother had taken her own life but that didn t stop me from resented her For a long time I thought she reneged on her promise but she never gave up on me contrary to what Mannie wanted me to believe Now almost a year later I still have more questions than answers First of many being what in the hell was she doing in NC The medical examiner who conducted the second autopsy on my mother takes the stand on Monday I m kinda curious to know what new evidence has been discovered hopefully it ll help me get to the truth In the meantime I gotta deal with Mannie s in the way ass he s keeps sending people for me I send them right back in a body bag I ll keep you posted Another day another entry 13
Dear Journal Jay, August 1st, 2009 Remember way back I officially found out my mother dead  Mannie had kept us apart for L...
JAY August 4th 2009 I had to leave the courtroom today It was all just too disturbing and my personal demons couldn t handle it Do you know how hard it was to keep my spirits in check and not flip the whole courthouse upside down after learning the first autopsy was FALSIFIED The original ME reported my mother self administered a lethal dose of heroin intravenously and ruled her death as an OD That was is and no further action was taken however if the police department would have done a lil more investigation they would ve noticed my mother had a history of crack and cocaine abuse She would suck a glass dick all day and snort mountains of coke off a strippers ass every night however injecting herself with heroin was not her thing Yea she had an intensive criminal record for prostitution and was a known Schizophrenic but heroin wasn t even my mom s drug of choice No one ever thought to consider that or even take a second look she was just another junkie whore This makes me feel real confident that they will actually find me one day After further examination strains of a unique opioid found in my moms system at the time of death positively matched a recent drug bust involving Caden Garcia It didn t take long for them to make him as my father which just took the whole police dept down an endless rabbit hole With me supposedly still missing and the intricate specifics of my fathers case the city was forced to exhume my mother s body from the community cemetery Only then was truth uncovered After hearing all the grisly details that were never documented in the first autopsy I just had to step out before I unleashed the rage that was building up inside me It was my nightmares all over again This ill d j vu feeling consumed me when the second medical examiner went over in detail the exorbitant mutilation of my mother I ve been having some very bad dreams lately and listening to the coroner sounded like a page from my memory was being read As the ME discussed her findings it all played in my head it felt as if I was there experiencing every word that came out of the medical examiners mouth I remember that dream so clearly and those visions will forever be burned into my mind I know for sure now that I am not crazy this shit that I am 14
JAY        August 4th, 2009 I had to leave the courtroom today. It was all just too disturbing and my personal demons coul...
going through is real and I desperately need help The only person I could turn to was gone however if I want to get a handle on what was happening to me I gotta find someone who may know more But who Another day another entry 15
going through is real and I desperately need help. The only person I could turn to was gone, however, if I want to get a h...
Dear Journal Jay August 5th 2009 My mother was disemboweled Do you know what that means Disembowel verb cut open and remove the internal organs of To gut draw remove the guts from eviscerate Apparently a lot of information was never recorded in the first autopsy report from NC There were so many inconsistencies that even I could tell was a blatant cover up Due to obvious decomp and dismemberment the first ME had the nerve to testify that he didn t notice any of the findings that were later discovered The exhumation of my mothers body revealed ligature marks around her wrist and ankles There were several injections sites in both arm as if someone had bound her and stabbed her with a needle forcing the drugs in her system The first ME was going to prison for negligence and I swear if someone paid that cracker jack off to LIE about my mothers death he will not be leaving the penitentiary alive When I found out that my mom had disintegrated so much that she was unrecognizable my heart broke Her injuries were extensive and included her teeth being pulled out fingertips burned completely off and female parts were brutally mutilated If these findings were reported the first time a homicide investigation would ve been initiated immediately It s been determined that she was pregnant around the time of her death however by the time she was found a whole 2 months later her eviscerated body was so severely decayed that her missing reproductive organs went unnoticed Since there s no record of baby being born it is assumed that the fetus died along with her Eviscerated Pregnant I need answers and I know exactly who is gonna give them to me Another day another entry 16
Dear Journal Jay, August 5th, 2009 My mother was disemboweled  Do you know what that means  Disembowel- verb  cut open and...
Hey Jay August 7th 2009 Sorry I ve been failing to write but lemme fill you in with all the deets First off I ve been blacking out a lot lately for hours sometimes even a full day There are so many gaps of time that are just a blur and I have no idea what goes on when I have these episodes Apparently during my last blackout I set up a meeting with some lady named E Stelle I mean I have no idea who this lady is or how she even found me because I swear I covered my tracks good Plus no one has seen me in almost 5 years yet she picked me out of the crowded courthouse with no problem She claims to be a psychic my mom befriended way back when and last night she told me some insane ish She and my mother must have met in an asylum somewhere because E Stelle was a nut case too After wasting 20 minutes of my time talking about witchcraft and generational curses I was done with the silly hoe I straight left her and all her crazy at the restaurant she met me at Bitch what I didn t risk coming back to Florida to get side tracked by psychos with vivid imaginations E Stelle wanted me to believe the impossible however it could explain some of the weird shit that is happening in my life right now I would love to consider the unreal but before I get dragged into anymore charades I have to remember that I got more than enough foolishness going on After all my father is being charged with EXCAVAITING my mother my baby is missing and a demented captor is paying top dollar for me dead or alive Speaking of Mannie from our lil chitchat the other day I can tell he is not happy at all He wants me back asap even attempted to use my child as a pawn A child that I have never even seen and don t even know the sex of This situation is all too familiar the more truth I get from my father s trial the more I began to see all the lies and I am starting to think that my mothers death has less to do with my father and more with Mannie Like I said this missing baby situation is nothing new a signature that led back to one person Mannie kept me from my mother growing up and now he is just doing it all over again Mannie is pulling the same shit with the wrong bitch I m not a weakling so if blackmail is the game we both can play I know for sure that no harm would come my childs way while I was still breathing and out here in these streets He may have the power to keep her hidden but I had 17
Hey Jay    August 7th, 2009 Sorry I   ve been failing to write, but lemme fill you in with all the deets  First off, I   v...
the power to expose him and his entire cartel After all everyone seemed to be anxiously waiting to meet Ghost and if I find out he had anything to do with the murder of my mother I will take him down even if it means going down with him Another day another fuckin entry 18
the power to expose him and his entire cartel. After all, everyone seemed to be anxiously waiting to meet Ghost and if I f...
Dear Journal Jay August 10th 2009 My father took the stand today and I mean Caden Garcia has aged gracefully He still looks like the man who abandoned me so long ago and it causes bittersweet emotions every time I think about it I used to love my daddy and It kinda hurt how he didn t even notice me sitting right there I was staring a hole right in his face and he didn t recognize me at all but I am sure he felt me It s hard to believe my father is this feared man wanted worldwide for crimes ranging from grand larceny to contract killing The FED s had almost 20 years worth of intel on him but could never pin a thing just like someone else I know Today Mr Caden Garcia lied under oath Everyone believed his testimony of alternative facts yet somehow I could hear his thoughts confessing the truths that wouldn t dare escape his lips I know it sounds insane but I think I can read minds I mean not like read but I can hear a persons internal debates Even though the jury ate up his ridiculous sob story I listened closely to the things he didn t say He accused my mom of some unspeakable things and denied having any involvement with her murder When asked whether my disappearance had anything to do with his affiliation w i t h Mannie my dad denied even knowing anyone by that name That s when shit got weird because I could feel the fear that ran thru my father when he thought about Mannie I saw every scene play out in his head and realized that his r o l e was completely involuntary Unfortunately he knew very little about of my kidnapping however my father had his assumptions which he why he has been working for Mannie all these years My father had been looking for me all along Caden Garcia was ready to accept every accusation if necessary even though he was being set up He was nothing but a scapegoat but if even thought about snitchin he wouldn t even make it to his cell alive Like myself there were other people in the courtroom observing my fathers case waiting to him to slip up and keeping eyes on me at the same time I could hear their views going over the clear instructions that were set for them little did they know I was gonna make sure they would never be able to report back I couldn t believe my dad was being thrown under the bus by a person he denied even knowing That same person is behind the murder and mutilation of 19
Dear Journal Jay, August, 10th, 2009 My father took the stand today, and I mean, Caden Garcia has aged gracefully. He stil...
my mother and they are also responsible for my abduction however the truth will never be known So much of my story will forever be omitted due to me now being presumed dead Since it had been 5 years since I was last seen my case files would return to a shelf somewhere and continue to collect dust I could ve stoop up and filled in all the blanks but there is solace in being missing and having my very existence questioned I m thinking of it as a chance to start over and create a new life I didn t think it s fair for Mannie to be the only one to remain a ghost forever Another day another entry 20
my mother and they are also responsible for my abduction, however, the truth will never be known. So much of my story will...
Hey Jay August 13th 2009 I ve spent the last couple of days with E Stelle and it s been enlightening As crazy as it sounds she revealed some things that are very hard to explain She told me so much about my mother about me and claimed she got all this from visions that have been a haunting her lately I am not easily convinced however then she asked me to tell her about the weird dreams recently Now I usually don t allow strangers into my head for obvious reasons however some reason I felt compelled to tell her about the nightmare I had a while back The same one that has been resonating in my mind ever since It was like I couldn t even stop myself from recounting the gory tale the story began to tell itself It s dark I can t move All I can hear is the blood rushing through my body and it s becoming harder to breath I try to move but I can t Something is kicking around in my stomach trying desperately to break free it senses my distress There s this dark figure towering over me I don t know who it is or what s going on I m so scared but can t move Suddenly this excoriating pain shoots thru my body almost like a knife is cutting deep into my flesh It hurts so bad and I want to scream however no sound escapes my mouth All I can do is endure the agony and pray for it to be over The cutting finally stops and the kicking I felt before is replaced by tugging something is being ripped from my insides and I can t do anything I hear these soft voices whispering in my ear they all sound so familiar however I can t make out what they are saying Its soothing tho I don t feel alone The pain is subsiding as I just lay there I can feel the beating of my heart is slowing I am bleeding out There s crying in the distance Hysterical excruciating crying It s hurting my ears I want the crying to stop But I can t move Another day another entry 21
Hey Jay, August 13th, 2009 I   ve spent the last couple of days with E   Stelle and it   s been    enlightening. As crazy ...
Dear Journal Jay August 14th 2009 I m heading back to Louisiana right now dreading this long ass bus ride but I have to stay under the radar I m surprised I even made it out of Florida without getting caught My father s trial reopened my growing cold case and now a new investigation is underway so I had to make early moves this morning I am currently travelling back to NOLA with my mothers chopped up body so yea low key is the way to be at this very moment Just a lil souvenir seeing how I haven t been out in a while Mannie is gonna flip but I wasn t just about to leave my mom behind to be reburied in a numbered grave She truly deserved more than that I want to have her consecrated on soil that has now become my home It s the least I can do For so long I watched her live in constant torment but now she is physically free from the drugs Mannie and all personal demons that held her captive Looking back on it all I realize that everything led up to this I used to think that my mother put me thru the worst for her own selfish desires however she just wanted me to have a normal life She was hunted by her sins and had plenty of skeletons when she was alive so she deserved to rest peacefully in death Even after all she put me through I regret the times we fought and the heated moments I screamed I hated her I would give anything just to have her back She may have fucked up my life but somehow she managed to saved me at the same time I remember spending plenty of nights struggling to do homework in the dressing rooms of rinky dink strip clubs but she made sure to check it between sets and lap dances My mom coulda been up all night tricking and getting high but I always made it to school on time and I never missed gymnastics practice or meet I always had a roof over my head whether it was a roach infested hotel or the house of some nigga but at least we didn t have to live out of the car anymore At times I resented my mother and decisions she made even now I am questioning why she allowed us to live the way we did It seems like she had an option to give us a better life however she chose to put us thru hell I just never understand Nevertheless tho that lady managed to teach me everything I needed to know about being a woman who hustles I learned at an early age to use what 22
Dear Journal Jay, August 14th, 2009 I   m heading back to Louisiana right now, dreading this long ass bus ride, but I have...
I got to get what I want but if she had an inkling about magic I coulda used a lil training on that too My mother made sure I knew how to work a room and work a man but failed to inform me of how much power I really had or how to control it I just wanna know why she didn t tell what was really driving her crazy I mean I remember the stories but she could have showed me I had a chance to grow into this however she selfishly kept it from me she and I coulda explored this together learned together but she denied me that right Guess this is something I ll just have to figure out on my own I m not going to hold it against her after all she did bless me with an abundance of knowledge and guidance while she was alive She taught me how to turn on my glamorous looks stunning charm and inviting wit I learned how to hustle survive the streets and to work a room from her She trained me how to use what I have to get what I need but now I can get anything I want Most importantly my mother showed me how to be strong harden my heart and take no prisoners She would say Nubi you better be ice cold to these fuckers and remain heartless always maintain your mystery I was warmed never let anyone get too close because they will only hurt me I learned that many people will try to take my beauty for a weakness in return take off their heads I m merely playing Chess with a bunch of idiots playing checkers but I wish she would ve taught me more about the secrets I now must learn all by myself E Stelle gave me a box of my mom s belongings nothing but few journals a pair of chopsticks and a key These were the only items my mother owner E Selle didn t know what the key was for but she reassured me that in due time I will unlock the answers to all my questions E Stelle also warned me to be careful My mother had been doing some heavy research before she died and it could have gotten her killed There is just so much to uncover Everything from ancient family secrets and the truths behind my magic to possibly what happened to my mother around the time that she dies I am hopeful that her journals will help me find out what she was looking for I remember when she got me my first journal this beautiful blue notebook with the most enchanting pages and she told me to write all my emotions a way and never allow my feelings to leave the paper 23
I got to get what I want, but if she had an inkling about magic, I coulda used a lil training on that too. My mother made ...
I ve written in this journal every day since she gave it to me and it s going on 3 years now I m surprised that it even has any pages left but there always seems to be enough room for one more entry As I sit here thinking about my mother missing her so dearly I just feel so bad for not appreciating her more I should ve hugged her more instead of spewing so many hateful words to her Now all I have are memories I shared with her and all the lessons she taught me I watched her my whole life this beautiful woman prove that no one is too good to get on their knees and survive Sometimes you just gotta do whatever to live so my momma made me swear to never think my beauty will always get me by Just cuz you pretty don t mean shit Sometimes it means you actually get it the worst Pretty Pretty little girl None in this world As beautiful as you But sometimes even the prettiest girl Gets hurt too Another day another entry 24
I   ve written in this journal every day since she gave it to me, and it   s going on 3 years now. I   m surprised that it...
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Ok What do you say I know things won t suppose to be this way I know I won t suppose to fall in love But here I am and I can t get up We can choose to separate Or hold on for a few more days Make those days last for a lifetime I ll be yours and you ll mine I got you if you got time If you say you down then you know I m gonna ride Losing you is so heavy on my mind Can we please agree to give it one last try It s something bout the way you make me feel Make Me Feel 26
Ok    What do you say    I know things won   t suppose to be this way    I know I won   t suppose to fall in love    But h...
Six Years Later No Nolan what is that Nolanii Jim Wtf really I whispered and just shook my head Here I hated when teachers butchered my name I mean it wasn t that hard It s No la nii Gem pronounced the same way its spelled Damn Why is people all in my face Every eye seemed to be on me yet another class where I was a center of attention Chicks could be heard hissing and giggling like basic bitches while the guys we re just lusting and fantasizing about me It was nauseating so much was going on in the room that I had to put my brain on mute With a roll of my eyes all the voices were silenced and I was free from eavesdropping on everyone s intimate conversations Thankful to have mastered that Some of these minds were so far in the gutter that the thoughts literally made me want to regurgitate A few females were thinking about how much head they had given since the first day of school and a group of guys were taking bets on how many girls they would smash by the end of the semester I was their top pick Almost every dude in the room that had tried it with me but I just left them with hurt feelings and deflated egos Seeing how I have shut down almost every advance there was a rumor floating around about my sexual preference however none of the girls liked me all I received from them was side eyes and sarcastic smirks Haters were already on their job yet they knew nothing more than my first and last name And they barely get that right As the professor continued checking attendance butchering almost every name on the list I flipped open my journal and continued to work on a sketch I started this morning Homesickness was kicking in again and I couldn t help but miss everything that I left 27
Six Years Later...    No- Nolan.. what is that    Nolanii Jim        Wtf    really     I whispered and just shook my head....
behind It had only been a couple of months since I had seen those angelic sleeping faces however it felt more like an eternity For the past few days their laughs echoed through my mind and visions of them brought on insomnia Nari and Nyckola The professor finished up the roll call and began to lecture while I picked up where I left off with my doodle It was the last mental snapshot I captured of my girls they both were sleeping so peacefully and as much as I wanted to wake them up I knew it would do more harm than good It was hard fighting the urge to plant kisses all over them but managed I disappeared without being seen Of course I wish I could ve seen those perfect smiles and bright beautiful eyes but maybe it was for my own good My daughters were the only things that melted my ice cold heart my only weaknesses I ll be back for ya ll soon My drawing was disturbed by cackling to my left A coupled of fans seemed so entertained by me through my peripheral I saw few girls looking my way This wasn t the only class I had with the chicks either some dark skinned pretty bitches who couldn t keep their eyes or mouths off me It was just week one of classes but I ve been on campus for almost a month and plenty of cliques have tried to get me on their teams but I roll solo So now I am the bitch that other bitches love to hate even though no one had a clue about where I came from Instead of giving them more of my attention I just laughed it off because they didn t know how dangerous I was Don t let the pretty face fool you These snobby hoes didn t know who they were fucking with They judged based off my looks not understanding how I could ruin their petty little lives At an early age I learned to take care of myself my hands were as quick as my mouth and just as malicious There was no person at State University that put fear in my heart however I already knew I would teach a few lessons You came here change Many people thought that just because I was pretty meant I didn t know how to handle myself Wrong bitch since I was pretty I had to handle myself Most of the time someone else s mouth started the fight and my fists finished it While I did not come here to 28
behind. It had only been a couple of months since I had seen those angelic sleeping faces, however it felt more like an et...
acquire more enemies I wasn t a punk bitch either and if any of these hoes wanted it I had more than enough to pass around Some things are so hard to give up My eyes dropped to the sketch on my desk it was almost finished I gently blended the charcoal with my finger bringing life to their beautiful hair After shading a little more detail on those gorgeous sleeping faces I looked over the drawing and I felt my heart hurt a little My girls were the reasons why I was trying to throw my old life away why I needed to throw it away If I ever wanted to reunite with them and live in peace I had to figure out how to end this curse I have been so blessed with It stops with me Unfortunately the cards I was dealt weren t meant to win yet I m still in the game against all the odds It s crazy how far I ve come but there was a price to pay for my survival The sweetness and innocence I once held in my youth was now tainted with seduction and intelligence Not only was I extremely book smart but my street smarts were impressive as well not to mention the special little talents Still working on a few things Once I finished my picture perfect drawing I admired it and digested how drastically my life had change Not too long ago I was an underground queen it took me years to really learn how to control what I was working with however once I had mastered everything all the huge bosses including Mannie was wrapped around my finger Now I m a college student at a HBCU in North Carolina it was such a different world This is not where I thought I would be nor did I ever think I would separate from my girls again but it was the best choice for them Anything for my loves My little queens were my everything I wanted so much better for them I definitely didn t want them to experience the things I went through growing up From day one I vowed to give them something better and since I couldn t go back to my old life I was giving the opportunity to create a new one All I ever wanted was to finish my education and after hustling blackmailing and compelling a person or two I was able to create a new alias and enroll into a GED program While I knew better than to use my gifts for personal gain I just needed an entrance and I could take care of the rest 29
acquire more enemies, I wasn   t a punk bitch either and if any of these hoes wanted it, I had more than enough to pass ar...
I m getting there Slowly but surely It was not easy working my ass off to score the highest ever on the exam and still having to keep up appearances with those around me Not too many people were aware of my plot many nights I had to sneak just to study and stay up until the late hours of the morning finishing homework Once I got that GED I applied for college even though it meant spending more time away from the ones I loved At the end of the day the struggle was worth it however I am second guessing being away from my girls too much longer It s already been two years Another few months won t hurt State University was my first and only choice My mother wrote about the college in some of her old journals and whatever brought her here could be the reason behind her death The school itself was the first historically black university that was established in the United States After doing extensive research on the school I found almost nothing about its origin or how it was instituted There is no record of who founded it just brief notations of many influential African Americans who graduated from the university over the years Since I aced the honors placement test the college offered a full ride Financial aid covered everything from tuition and books to room and board I didn t have to spend a dime The campus was absolutely beautiful for a HBCU with the well kept gardens and grand water fountains in the courtyard There was a state of the art student center the caf was nicer than a mall food court and newly renovated luxury dormitories Though I really liked the school the campus policy was crazy As a freshman I was forced to complete my first semester on campus and I had a curfew Curfew I haven t even had a bed time since I was eight As Professor Henry continued to talk about bacteria viruses and other microbial shit I reflected on the many late nights and even later mornings I experienced Being told that I had to be in a dorm by Cinderella time and attend class at 8am didn t even sit right with me So much of my youth was filled with watching my mother work a pole into the late night Many evenings after school and all my other extracurricular activities I would hustle old drunks in a game of pool while my mother stripped Always been about the money To think about how everyone feared me and my step stool I couldn t help but chuckled There were some upsides of living among pimps whores killers and junkies 30
I   m getting there    Slowly but surely    It was not easy, working my ass off to score the highest ever on the exam, and...
From a young age I learned to see the good in being caught up in an empire built on sex drugs and murder Honestly I had finally reach a place where I had almost everything I wanted My girls were in my life my supremacies were evolving but the thing about having the throne is that someone else always wants it It was too dangerous My eyes roamed the large lecture hall full of black people suddenly I was questioning whether I really made the right decision It was a drastic change yet not change at all Looking around I was still surrounded by people not doing much with their lives None of them seemed interested in Mrs Henry s lesson plan as they all toyed with their laptops or cellular devices Even though I was drawing it didn t interfere with my learning Subconsciously I absorbed every word she said like a sponge took detailed mental notes as she described how detritivores eat dead organic material Ugh The same chicks to my left still seemed to be so enthralled with me Since the beginning of class their eyes kept stealing glances my way and I ignored it but my patience was growing real thin This time I rolled my eyes and stuck my finger in my mouth nothing is more nauseating than hating ass females The look of their faces was priceless but just like last class neither of them was about shit just all talk or should I say whispers Just control yourself Many people didn t like me because I was my own team Fake smiles and shady compliments were for those basic hoes I would rather just roll by myself After observing the class I noticed the different cliques gossiping away all of them have invited me into their specific little groups but I was good Bad enough I got a roommate to put up with the last thing I needed was twofaced friends They re both so beautiful The baritone voice made me jump and I quickly shut my journal Not today Satan You are truly talented The gentleman complimented If you ignore it It ll go away Ms Nolanii it is such a pleasure to finally meet you he whispered in my ear I ve heard so much about you 31
From a young age, I learned to see the good in being caught up in an empire built on sex, drugs and murder. Honestly, I ha...
Humph I sucked my teeth ever since I stepped foot on this campus dudes had been swarming me You ain t heard shit but my name hoe Please forgive me I just really want a moment of your time Everyone does I know he chuckled But I m not everyone Stop being such a bitch You know it s not good to mingle with a hoe Everybody a hoe now Remember All these niggas is hoez To be honest The only hoe is you Shut it After quieting the quarreling going on my head I closed my eyes and took a little peak into his mind Though he sounded cute honest and interested I wanted to know what he was really about before even turning to see the face that accompanied the voice Unfortunately I saw nothing but erratic superficial thoughts I was so used to reading people that I didn t even know what it felt like not being able to Curiously I turned to see who wanted my attention however after noting the 1 on his football jersey I politely smiled and turned right back around Athletes are a negative Especially after the rumors I ve heard Please don t hold my free ride through college against me he said as if he read my mind I m not what you have been told I am please don t judge me because of the reputation that was here before me Embarrassed I turned back to face him because he sounded so sincere and I felt kind of bad that he called me on my discrimination This time I got a better look and I stared until I noticed him blushing There was something about his emerald eyes that captivated me I could stare at them all day and his was just gorgeous smile made my heart skip a couple beats Vivid scenes passed through my mind but then I remembered the rules Rule 6 Don t admire these hoez 32
   Humph.    I sucked my teeth, ever since I stepped foot on this campus dudes had been swarming me. You ain t heard shit ...
I m at a disadvantage I quickly pulled myself together You know my name yet I don t recall knowing yours Lazim Anderson he extended his hand and I shook it timidly pulling my eyes away from his But everyone calls me LA Lazim held on to my hand a little longer than I anticipated Very nice to meet you I asked gently tugging it from his firm but gentle grip I m sorry he blushed again It s nice meeting you as well Lazim took in my eccentric beautiful You from around here Nah I couldn t help but stare at the handsome features he was blessed with I m a little from all over Lazim nodded his eyes smiling along with his sexy juicy lips He was definitely what women dreamt of and as hard as I tried to resist I just could stop staring Those extra long child like lashes were enough to make every girl swoon over him and his extremely attractive face was neatly trimmed and blemish free This was one feeling I had never felt for a guy before and it was becoming uncomfortable Get yo life I feel you his smile was so enchanting I was born and raised here welcome Thank you Excuse me Mr Anderson but would you like to fill the class in on the private conversation that you and Ms Gem seem to be so seriously engaged in Mrs Henry asked her voice stern and pitchy Shit Na Mrs H Lazim laughed as I quickly turned back around We good What are even doing in here The professor seemed so perturbed I don t see you on my roster The whole class was now looking in our direction so I slid down in my seat and pretended to be invisible The girls who have been hating on me since day one seemed to be intimidated by Lazim s interaction with me One of chicks was fuming couldn t stop looking my way even if she wanted to I mean she was all in my grill I mean dang Mind yo business 33
   I   m at a disadvantage,    I quickly pulled myself together.    You know my name yet I don   t recall knowing yours.  ...
It seemed like Mr LA had a few groupies Almost instantly I could feel the envy and it was suffocating Either he was something that she wanted or even worse something she had lost A sly smiled spread across my face and I made sure she saw it I don t want your man But I got it like it Come on now Mrs Henry Lazim laughed nervously You know I love kicking it in your class And you know I don t mind as long as you re not being distracting I was just Being distracting Mrs Henry rolled her eyes I m sure Ms Gem came to learn and not have you all in her face You sure about that Mrs H Bye Lazim I would love for you would accompany me to lunch Lazim whispered in my ear as the professor jumped back into our Biology lecture If you don t mind me all in your face My eyes never left the girl who seemed to get madder the more Lazim conversed with me As I laughed she threw daggers my way but I was not intimidated at all Obviously Lazim seemed to be interested in me but what had me interested was the tension that was quickly filling the room the longer he engaged with me Me being as petty as I am slowly nodded agreeing to lunch even though I knew I didn t want to breathe the same air as this this dude I ll take that as a yes and how can I find you Lazim Mrs Henry nodded towards to door indicating he needed to go now Don t worry he chuckled I ll find you b e g i n n i n g 34
It seemed like Mr. LA had a few groupies. Almost instantly, I could feel the envy and it was suffocating. Either he was so...
My name is Maleeyah Hunter and I am not your typical student After graduating with two degrees from community college I decided to continue my education Being from a big city I thought some place like Raleigh North Carolina would be better than attending the HBCU back home I was in need of a slower pace Though both of my parents graduated from Howard University I didn t want to follow in their shadow so I chose to branch out on my own My my my my my Some ignorant ass boy cat called as I walked by Instead of acknowledging him I kept it moving I was far too grown to even be bothered Over half of the students on campus were younger than me anyway even the grads Which was cool it not like came here to make friends or find romance I was all about obtaining one last degree so that I could follow my dreams Miz Stay So Fly can I get high with you The dude was persistent as he referred to the tattoo on my neck You short and thick just how I like em he grabbed my arm which was a big negative What s yo name Ummm I checked my attitude and turned to see who would be getting cussed out today Excuse me I asked as I eyed him up and down Look at dis off brand ass nigga After studying his last years Jay s out of style South Pole jeans and oversized basketball jersey I knew he definitely was not my type The boy was barely legal yet he thought he was about to pull me Honestly he looked like too much of a bum to even get any more of my time so before I went off I turned to exit the situation Sike Nah I m sayin ma Look I m not ya motha I mugged him and his hand that he just couldn t keep to himself But if you touch me again I flipped my dreads over my shoulder turned and went on about my way I promise I will smack you like I was Stupid bitch The scrawny bummed out little guy yelled behind me Flipping him the bird I kept strutting not even worried about his insult By the way he was dress I could tell he wasn t even on my level I was into suit and tie guys not wannabe hood niggas The only thing that attracted me was serious men who were focused 35
My name is Maleeyah Hunter and I am not your typical student. After graduating with two degrees from community college, I ...
on degrees not little boys who hadn t even decided on a major As the altercation rolled off my shoulder I reflected on how I thought I left the ratchetness back home guess I should have thought twice before attending a HBCU Welp Too late now As the football team walked by I admired all them young boys towering over me looking so good It s sad that their promiscuous reputation proceeded them guess all those wins got to their heads It was clear that I wasn t in DC anymore I was surrounded by black students from all over yet I peeped many fellow dread heads on campus GoGo was starting to infiltrate the RDU area which was cool but North Carolina was a long way from DC in distance fashion and music Apparently men too My fresh white Forces hit the concrete steps as I made my way to the Student Center There was a student organization fair going on and I wanted to see if anything would catch my attention As soon as I hit the door music was blasting and the pungent smell of leftover Caf food stung my nose Nothing but black people congested the foyer It looked more like a party than student event All these niggas Squeezing through the tight crowd my eyes swept over the different booths in hopes of finding something exciting There were many different organizations to choose from not to mention the fraternities and sororities also extending invites to join their inner circles The Culinary club interest me since I did just graduate from Culinary school it was practical however I was good on cooking for a while Nope Nope Double nope Nothing was standing out to me I wasn t into Sister Circle Dance Elite Exercise Club Bowling or Debate Unfortunately I didn t have any talent for the music club hand and eye coordination for Step Team the tech experience for Production and even though I could dress my ass off I wasn t too skilled in Fashion and Design After deciding that it was a little too early to decide Greek life I was ready to go Hmmmmm Before exiting the student center I noticed this colorful flashy booth As I got closer I realized it was for the modeling troop Never had I ever considered becoming a model 36
on degrees, not little boys who hadn   t even decided on a major. As the altercation rolled off my shoulder, I reflected o...
however Raw Essence had me intrigued Their d cor was incredible displaying photos of the troop decked out in custom apparel The more I flipped through the pictures the more interested I became however I knew my height or lack thereof would be an issue Thinkin about joining a voice spoke from behind the decorative display Yea thinking Bitch You ain t even hitting five feet Well I m Giana she stood and walked around the table But everyone calls me GiGi Giana was a beautiful petite girl with the tiniest waist and full hips Her large dark doe shaped eyes roamed over me taking in all the sights Lime green highlights were creatively blending in her long black flowing hair She was cute and kept staring as if she liked what she saw Better be careful treading this way I love those jeans Giana eyed seductively Looks so good on you Why thank you I laughed and thought about how she didn t even know what she was about to get herself into Luxirie by LRG I smiled flipped through the pictures while stealing glances her way These is vicious for real where were these taken Some are from the events we held last year Homecoming Raleigh s Rip the Runway and a few others fashion shows Gianas eyes devoured my body she almost made me nervous What are your measurements if you don t mind me asking Well to be honest I don t even know for real No problem she giggled retrieving some pink measuring tape from her large Dolce Gabana bag How bout you come over here and let me do the honors You ain t gotta do all that I m sure I ll find out sooner or later I slightly blushed as those large enticing eyes kept consuming me How about sooner than later Giana swayed towards me measuring tape in hand Lemme find out lil mama It was hard not to stare her perfect coke bottle shape was admiring That small middle was surrounded by serious curves her breasts were nice full and standing at attention Giana filled her jeans quite nicely as well with a nice little apple booty As she bit 37
however Raw Essence had me intrigued. Their d  cor was incredible, displaying photos of the troop decked out in custom app...
her plump bottom lip she took me in with those large inviting eyes tempting me to the fullest Well if you insist I smiled as she wrapped the tape around me Don t you think I m a lil too short Oh no hun we accept all shapes and sizes she smiled and began taking my measurement Plus you re absolutely the cutest Giana allowed the tape to fall 32 2630 perfect Aww I slightly blushed Thanks I mean we would love I would love for you to join she hurried back behind the booth We are holding our first meeting tomorrow night please fill out these papers Gigi handed me a colorful metallic folder And bring them to the meeting Sure thing I nodded as I accepted the folder If you know anyone else who might be interested and looks as good as you please bring em along we need a solid team Hmmm I briefly thought about my roommate she really was the model type and would be perfect for Raw Essence My roomie now that chick is blessed I reminisced back to the first day I met my roommate I got a great look at her I ll see if she s down Ok Giana nodded Where you from I hear too much DC in you Yup straight from the District That s what up hopefully some other ladies stepped to the booth slightly pulling Giana s attention away from me Hopefully we ll get a chance to chit chat about home one day she licked her full lips Sooner than later Baby lemme tell you something I laughed as I leaned closer to her You wouldn t know what to do with this even if it came with instructions I whispered in her ear Don t let this little body fool you ain t nothing but grown woman game over here love I gently kissed it and watched Giana light skin turned pink all over Maleeyah Startled I stepped back from the table and glanced around to see who had called my name No one on campus knew me like that to be calling me out My eyes eventually focused in on a couple of that had approached the Raw Essence display It took a moment to 38
her plump, bottom lip, she took me in with those large, inviting, eyes  tempting me to the fullest.    Well    if you insi...
analyze the two faces but then I realized exactly who it was This was very unexpected seeing her standing there however it would be too disrespectful not to acknowledge her Oh shit Kealiyah My eyes roamed over a familiar face Fuck How are you Kealyah pulled me close then dapped me up What are you doing here Same as you I guess so this is where you disappeared to I asked still a little in shock Had to get away from the city bae she turned to the girl that stood flipping through the pictures Sade this is my girl Maleeyah we used to run the streets together Though I wasn t trying to be rude I didn t even acknowledge the girl my focus was all on Kelz It had been some years since we talked needless to say our last conversation didn t end on good terms From what I heard Kealiyah had moved on and was dating some football player but I never kept tabs on her However maybe I should have done a little more research before attending a school I read about in Ebony Magazine This cannot possibly end up good How you been girl Kealiyah s eyes were unreadable her tone so nonchalant It s been what almost three years She is not to be trusted Good I forced a smile glad she wasn t letting past beef get the best of us but I wasn t stupid Wow you look great I admired the tight yellow sundress hugging her and complementing her mahogany skin tone Thank you It was def was nice see you again Kelz I turned to Giana and waved Nice meeting you as well You too Lele Kealiyah smiled sweetly and I nearly ran to the door Maybe we can hook up for ol time s sake Ya never know I was polite but kept on moving Not happening 39
analyze the two faces, but then I realized exactly who it was. This was very unexpected, seeing her, standing there, howev...
The five minute walk from campus to the new dorms was filled with thoughts of Kelz and how our friendship ended up sour The games she called herself running was child s play for an advanced player After all juggling her my actually boyfriend at the time and keeping my sexuality from my nosey parents wasn t all that easy Seeing her brought back many memories most were good but we did end on a bad note In many ways Giana reminded me of Kealiyah so eager yet inexperienced however I didn t come to NC to be a babysitter Def not fucking wit no youngins Back in my dorm I checked my schedule and realized that finally I was done for the day After changing into a pair of Roc sweats and a black Gap baby tee I debated whether to call home It had been a couple of days since I had last spoke with my parents however I opted for my Accounting book and lounged on the bed Flipping through the pages I attempting to keep my mind off home as my roommate walked in And there she is Nolanii the Princess of the World in the flesh waltzed in the room quiet as always The girl hasn t said more than two words to me since I moved in it s been three weeks It seemed she wasn t feeling the whole room sharing thing but that was a personal problem her bourgeois ass had to deal with Even though I had her by more than a few years she made me feel insecure it was just something about the way she looked at me like I was some unworthy peasant What s up Nolanii asked as she slid off her lavender Gucci heels Oh Lemme find out she feel like chattin today Nolanii Gem Morris was a bad ass bitch Her glamorous looks turned every head including mine and her deviously silent personality made everyone want to know more about her We ve only been rooming for almost a month and every time she entered the room I was on pins and needles From day one Nolanii had been glaring at me as if she wished to make me disappear Chillin trying to figure out what I m gonna eat I watch as she unlocked her closet and twisted up her long black hair I m totally hating and crushing on this bitch at the same time 40
The five-minute walk from campus to the new dorms was filled with thoughts of Kelz and how our friendship ended up sour. T...
Not only did Nolanii have this banging body and flawless face but she could dress her ass off The girl had it all her whole wardrobe cost more than my car She owned thousands of dollars worth of high fashion including so many shoes that she could probably go a whole year without wearing the same pair twice Nothing but the finest of Jimmy Choo DKNY Louboutin Dior etc I just wanna know what size she wear The other day she wore a pair of custom made Red Bottom Louis Vuitton stilettos The beautiful black shoe had a slim six inch gold Ruby encrusted heel When I googled the price my mouth dropped Her shoe game alone shitted on everyone and while many hated most had to admit that my roommate was as bad as they come A label whore too This chick had Ed Hardy everything Baby Phat BCBG Gucci and every other brand She owned items that could never be found in stores from gorgeous Vera Wang gowns to sexy cocktail dresses from the Kardashian s private collection Some pieces were so authentic and expensive that they came with papers I just wanna take a lil peek in her closet I feel you on that Nolanii rummaged through her closet pulling out a clip for her hair I was thinking about dinner too until I remembered this test I gotta study for I m probably gonna dip off to Cook Out or something I couldn t help but follow her every move I was just allured to her Tired of McDonald s Nolanii chuckled taking off her purple Deron shirt and I saw the huge colorful Queen Nefertiti on her back It was one of Nolanii s many tattoos but I fell in love with it the first time I saw it mainly because it was the only thing staring at me that day I walked in The detail was so intricate that the tat looked alive The beautiful queen just gazed at you with her third eye open almost encouraging you to bow down That tattoo is bomb tho Nolanii put a blue shirt that read Alwayz Crackin on the back and it ruined the entire moment for me Up until now I had no idea I was sharing a room with a crab Though I wasn t as bang bang as I used to be I certainly wasn t going to let the shit slide 41
Not only did Nolanii have this banging body, and flawless face, but she could dress her ass off. The girl had it all, her ...
Damn bihhhh I see why you so quiet I was totally caught off guard You with that punk shit I clowned with a shake of my head You better be careful wearing that around here shit like that will get you killed G check Excus Nolanii s head quickly shot my way her eyes flashed then relaxed I m quiet because that s how I was raised she continued to get dressed To be a lady she eyed me up and down noting the paw prints up my right arm And as for what I bang it s my business and no disrespect I prefer what I am her foot was defaced with not one or two but a collage six pointed stars surrounded by diamonds and other gems You don t know shit about me Nolanii smiled and looked at me with pity But know this she opened the door to leave I don t mind getting it crackin with anybody or any place old ladies can get it too Aight gangsta 42
   Damn bihhhh   I see why you so quiet,    I was totally caught off guard,    You with that punk shit     I clowned with ...